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Fri Aug 27, 2021, 01:59 PM

Insomnia




Things are strange. Tucker interviewed Glen Greenwald, who attacked President Biden. Both CNN and MSNBC have featured similar slightly mutated narratives. Chuck Todd does a mean impression of Chicken Little. Such routines do, it must be said, create an audience of anxious, angry viewers, sure to be watching, and thus increasing commercial revenue.

Fights at school board meetings, which despite the whimpering of a republican guest on CNN, always show the anti-mask crowd initiates the hostilities. It would be strange indeed for a masked person to confront and slug a drooling anti-masker in the mouth, and risking the spread of the virus. I haven't believed in slugging people any how ..... it's been a long time since I boxed. But watching the news, at times I question the efficacy of a slap -- specifically when I hear the name Sean Hannity.

Have I become one of Ivan Pavlov's dogs? Perhaps an old, feeble, grumpy dog, chained by old age, that growls once per day. But not always. I recognize that there are things to do, based upon values. Last week, my late brother's oldest daughter and his grandson visited me, from out of state. In my family, if a brother died, one fills in as a parent and grandparent role.

When he came into the house, the little boy said I looked "95%" like my brother. I asked how old he is? Eight. How old do you think I am? "Oh, eighty or ninety." I assured him that I'm planning my 100th birthday party, and that he is invited. He had brought me two fish for my pond, and so we added them to the pond's population, fed the fowl, played with kittens, and discussed fossils.

I was reminded of how my uncle served as my daughters' grandfather after my father had died. He would make a 4-hour round trip to watch the girls' sports and graduations. Cards, calls, and presents on birthdays and holidays. This Marine, who became a NYS BCI Senior Investigator, private investigator, and justice of the peace, was bigger than life. My daughters considered him "a great big Teddy Bear."

The next day, I was going to his burial ceremony at a national cemetery in upstate New York. A few hours before I planned to get to sleep, one of my sisters called to say that our mother had died. I notified my children and another family member. It's been a strange uear, with the deaths of my mother, brother, an aunt, and three uncles.

It's difficult to sleep some times, so I sit in a rocking chair. There are pictures of my grandfather as a youth, several years after his father brought the family to this country in the late 1870s, hanging on the wall. This is a portrait of him with his family. His parents display no emotion, while my grandfather and his numerous siblings look like happy children. There are also pictures of his father's siblings, who had come in an earlier wave of immigration.

The following night, my late brother's middle daughter contacted me. I had run into her in a parking lot a week before, and she broke down crying at the site of me. She tried to apologize, until I said my face often makes both children and adults weep. She said it was because it was "creepy" that I looked so much like her father. She has been having a difficult time since her father's death, and now her grandmother's.

I talked about those pictures, and how every generation gets its opportunity. We all get a turn on this living planet. Some are long, some are short, and most are medium in length. Whatever the length, we deal with the realities of our era, and experience the eternal "Now."

I lay down, but can't get to sleep. My mind is focused upon the reality of "Now." For "Now" is the time that a healthy and sane society would be investing to make sure little innocent ones have a safe childhood, even if it means wearing a mask in school. Elderly people would get quality care ate the other end of life. Human beings wouldn't be kept in cages at the southern border. Parking lots would be safe spaces to park an automobile.

Now is the exact time to work for those outcomes. And the Democratic Party is the only way that we might get there.

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H2O Man Aug 27 OP
AZProgressive Aug 27 #1
H2O Man Aug 27 #2
erronis Aug 27 #7
H2O Man Aug 27 #10
yonder Aug 27 #3
H2O Man Aug 27 #4
Bernardo de La Paz Aug 27 #5
H2O Man Aug 27 #6
Hekate Aug 27 #8
H2O Man Aug 27 #9
BeckyDem Aug 27 #11
H2O Man Aug 27 #14
Saoirse9 Aug 27 #12
H2O Man Aug 27 #15
bdamomma Aug 27 #13
H2O Man Aug 27 #16
voteearlyvoteoften Aug 28 #17
H2O Man Aug 28 #19
malaise Aug 28 #18
H2O Man Aug 28 #20
panader0 Aug 28 #21

Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 02:02 PM

1. I don't like Glenn Greenwald

He pushes a lot of Russian propaganda and spent a lot of time denying Russian influence or hacking. He also exposed himself as a hypocrite or worse pushing the Wuhan lab theory.

He used to be a pretty good reporter so not sure what happened to him.

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Response to AZProgressive (Reply #1)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 03:08 PM

2. I agree 100%.

He used to be fairly good. Now he is a pud in search of an audience.

I understand why the Trump cult likes Putin and the Russian leadership, for they are the very definition of "white nationalists." So they welcomed the election assistance from them. But for anyone who considers themselves to be on the left to deny the Russian role is troubling. Two words alone put that nonsense in check: Paul Manafort. Denial of that reality is much like saying January 6 was a normal tourist day.

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Response to AZProgressive (Reply #1)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 05:18 PM

7. And I wonder about other "journalists". Matt Taibbi - used to seem independent

Now I sense propaganda everywhere.

I actually enjoyed using rt.com as a news source 7-8 years ago. Now it stinks.

Wonder about other US media outlets. Don't wonder about Fox, OANN, Sinclair/ClearChannel/etc.

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Response to erronis (Reply #7)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 06:24 PM

10. One of my sons

watches him and Katie Halper sometimes. I like him, but find her rather obnoxious most of the time.

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 03:13 PM

3. Nice essay. You're a good man.

Also, the title of that Beatles album fits like a glove with your words: different but related spheres of influence revolving in and out of everyone's lives.

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Response to yonder (Reply #3)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 03:15 PM

4. Thank you!

In some ways, I am lucky to have such a fat head, for a normal sized one likely couldn't fit all the ideas I have into such a space! (grin)

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 03:38 PM

5. A good read. . . . nt

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Response to Bernardo de La Paz (Reply #5)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 03:48 PM

6. Thanks!

Much appreciated.

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 05:32 PM

8. I am also an insomniac, & like you end up at DU when sleep eludes...


… but nothing very profound seems to come of it, unlike you…



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Response to Hekate (Reply #8)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 06:19 PM

9. Oh, thank you!

I don't think that I've ever had an original profound thought, though I have long listened to those who have.

I do know that I never expected to see the shit going on these days in our country. I was way, way wrong to expect calm, pleasant years in my old age.

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 06:31 PM

11. Your OP choked me up a bit. Well into my 60"s I am horrified at what I see and have seen these last

several years. I remind myself of how we have rescued ourselves from the abyss with Trump, only to witness an insurrection during a pandemic. 5 years ago I would have said this kind of sickness that has penetrated America would be far fetched.


I could go on, but I hold back because I find myself repeating my fears over and over again. Repeating the history that helped usher in a Trump. But none of that history prepared me for Americans refusing the remedy for death, no masks and no vaccines.


I totally agree, Democrats are the only possible way, but it will not be easy.


Great OP, thank you.

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Response to BeckyDem (Reply #11)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 09:45 PM

14. Thank you, BeckyDem!

There is something more than a bit odd about a cluster of enraged homonids insisting that it is their right to exercise a freedom to spread a deadly disease. By no coincidence, they are the same ones convinced that Trump was a religious leader, providing justification for a violent insurrection.

If anyone said that things would be like they are today back in 1968, I'd have thought they were way off base. But I do remember in 2001, when friend Rubin tried to talk my family and I to join him in Canada, telling us the the empire was crumbling and that it would soon get far worse.

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 07:11 PM

12. When I can't sleep at night,

I don't suddenly become articulate like you do. I get grumpy and gripe about everything.

I'm glad you are tuned in enough to write a great essay even when you haven't slept.

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Response to Saoirse9 (Reply #12)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 09:54 PM

15. Thank you!

I wasn't sure if this was worth posting or not. Just before completing it, another idea popped into my head, and I was sorely tempted to venture off in an entirely different direction. But I'll probably write that up for tomorrow. I've been up to around 7 am lately, and a couple of hours just isn't cutting it.

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 07:53 PM

13. H2O Man

I really enjoyed reading your post. You're a good person. We are living in some challenging times.

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Response to bdamomma (Reply #13)

Fri Aug 27, 2021, 09:55 PM

16. Thank you!

You are very kind to say that!

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Sat Aug 28, 2021, 01:28 PM

17. Old age is not so bad..

When you consider the alternative.

It’s not for sissies
Be well in spirit if not in flesh.

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Response to voteearlyvoteoften (Reply #17)

Sat Aug 28, 2021, 02:01 PM

19. Right.

My younger son prepares different exercises and workouts for me. He says that he is certain that if I follow his advice, I'll be able to return to the boxing ring -- on one of his undercards! Ha! Aches & pains aside, I enjoy life as much, or more, than in any previous chapter.

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Sat Aug 28, 2021, 01:44 PM

18. See there you go again

You demonstrate why we don't give up hope - you represent all that is good about the USA

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Response to malaise (Reply #18)

Sat Aug 28, 2021, 02:02 PM

20. Thank you!

While even I wouldn't go so far as to say that I represent all the good, I do try to represent part of it.

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Response to H2O Man (Original post)

Sat Aug 28, 2021, 02:12 PM

21. So sorry to hear of the loss of your family members, especially your mother.

My parents passed some time ago, and my only brother in June.
Mom would have been 113 this year.
I share the affliction of insomnia. My mind is "a monkey in a cage" and despite all
of my attempts to calm it, it goes it's own way.
I also share the kind affections shown to you by the posters above.
Until later.

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