Liberalynn
Liberalynn's JournalA big thumbs down to Discovery and Myth Busters
They are dropping Kari, Tory, and Grant! Apparently they want the show to only feature Jamie and Adam! Got this from a petition request forwarded by Care 2 action, who is involved because they said Kari helps to inspire young girls to get involved in science.
I like Jamie and Adam just fine but I think the other three add a lot to the show's success as well!
So Angry at my Neighbors Right Now
They are pet sitting their son's best friend's dog again. Every single time they do the dog ends up roaming around loose. Now if we lived on a quiet street or still a truly rural setting that would be one thing but we don't.
We live on a road where people drive sometimes up to 80 miles an hour even though the speed limit is 45. There was a child hit and killed farther up the road for Pete's sake. Our house got run into by a speeding teenager on his way no joke to driver's education. Do my neighbors who are aware of all of this as I am really think the dog is going to be safe roaming wandering across it anytime it wants?
Now admitted it could have gotten out accidentally but I don't think so because as I said before it seems to happen every time the dog is with them. Plus they said to me a number of years ago that they thought it was wrong to keep dogs on a leash or in a confined area, that they should be allowed to "be free".
In a perfect environment I'd agree but it's not. Believe me if I had any way to confine the feral cats that come to my barn for shelter and a meal I would, or if possible I would relocate them to a safer area. That's what a truly responsible pet person would do, IMHO, and their not even my responsibility technically because I didn't buy or adopt them, or let alone promise a friend to safeguard them.
Sorry to rant I am just angry. Plus I got scared. Here Marnie and I are playing in our fenced in area in our own yard and suddenly there's this strange dog standing right next to it, and I have no idea of its temperament, etc. It seemed friendly but appearances could be deceiving and Marnie is afraid of other dogs which we are working on with her trainer in a controlled setting. We shouldn't have to be on guard in our own freaking yard. I don't know what I would have done if it had jumped the fence of course the neighbor was no where in sight. I did have my cellphone but not their number. They are just lucky I didn't have the dog control officer's number either.
Luckily though Marnie was barking and growling I was able to get her back on her lead and the other dog left when I clapped my hands and yelled shoo.
Had a weird dream last night, need help interpreting
All the clocks in the house were set to 9:15 in the house. It was daylight. I kept thinking this is wrong. I know it's later than that but every time I went to move them ahead they moved back to 9:15.
This was a weird dream and just wondering if it could signify anything?
My Dentist's Office Sent Me Flowers
As some of you already know from other posts, I got hives back in January. The dentist told me when I called to cancel an appointment because the hives were really bad that day that it might be best to postpone any dental work until it can be determined that it would not exacerbate any condition that the hives are a symptom of. It's been several months now.
So I called them this morning and left a message to let them know that I had not forgotten them and still wanted to stay a patient but that I still have the hives pretty seriously and that I am to see an immunologist on Wednesday.
This afternoon a local florist delivery van pulls in. I was thinking he had the wrong address. Instead it was a beautiful floral arrangement for me from the dentist's office staff.
They said my message sounded like I had been through the wringer and they wanted to make me smile again!
I just can't get over how nice that was!
Shaking My Head Over Doctors
I have had daily hives since January. Went to primary care doc they gave me a course of prednisone and when they came back after dose sent me to an allergist. Allergist looked to be about 85, and still using type writer and carbon paper, I kid you not. First thing he does is hand me a stack of copied newspaper clippings saying they often don't find the cause. Ran some tests. My immunoglobulin levels for A E and M were low and my CH50 was high. He just sent me a copy of lab work with note saying he didn't know what to make of this because he expected high immunoglobulin levels and low CH50.
No advice for follow up nothing. So I googled. Turns out not only can my low immunoglobulin levels and high CH50 cause hives but can be signs of more serious things. I call back prime cares office. Got "well we aren't immunologist we don't know what they mean either. So I said so refer me to an immunologist then.
They took forever but finally did. I go on Tuesday. Well the Immunologist's office tells me to stop taking all antihistamines for a week before appointment. I do. This a.m. I wake up, hives all over the place and swollen lip, all of which has been going on all along when I don't take the antihistamines. Doctor knew it, allergist knew it. All acted like oh it's no big deal. That I should just keep talking Zantac ( has antihistamine qualities and it's working) and learn to live with it.
So I call Immunologist's office, got voice mail and I say the hives are all over me again my lips swollen, I know yo don't want me to take antihistamines because they may throw tests off. Is there something else I can take to stop this itching? That's all. Then I left for meeting and had my cellphone off.
I was riding with a friend. She pulls in my driveway and a Sheriff pulls in right behind me. The immunologist had called my doctors office, my emergency contacts and 911 because they were afraid I would go into anaphylactic shock.
Nice they care and now I feel guilty for panicking everyone but I didn't think anything serious was going on. I just wanted relief from the itching.I wasn't saying it was serious because the primary care knows I have been having these symptoms for months and acting like hey it's no big deal. The kicker is there's two calls from them saying to take the antihistamines right away and that I might want to go to the ER. I guess they don't want me to just live with it now a big city doc told them it might be serious.
Fight Fan
Having had barn kitties for many years I have seen a lot of interesting feline behavior. One of the strangest is from Bumpkin, the one semi-tame colony member. Every time there is a fight the other cats not involved scatter away from the spat. Not Bumpkin. She runs towards it, then sits just far enough away for safety purposes and then watches fascinated. She does this almost every time. I swear if she were human she'd be a boxing fan for certain.
She did it again this morning.
Bad Times
Feel like a whiner. Know I am not a refugee, homeless, crime victim etcetera. But the thinking about others suffering only makes me feel depressed more depressed that they have to suffer.
Growing up Catholic I got that old chestnut: "God never gives you more than you can handle." Well forgive me believers but that's crap!
I am covered in itchy hives again, I can't eat hardly anything any more because I keep having to run to the bathroom with stomach cramps and excuse me but loose bowel movements five or six times a day if I eat anything even remotely close to a vegetable, and now even avoiding them doesn't stop it all that much. I've lost weight, my immune counts aren't right. They ship me from one doctor to the next, none of them know what's wrong or what to do. The gastroenterologist said eat more fiber, and when I say I've done that and it makes it worse he ignores me.
My 7 month old GSD bites me and my sister who visits often. Have had her to specialized trainer! She doesn't exhibit behavior with her or casual acquaintances. Just people she gets to know well. Nothing is helping and I have tried everything. I exercise her regularly, love her, try to give her boundaries but nothing works. In all likelihood I am going to have to give her to the GSD rescue in our area to try and rehabilitate and re-home her.
My cousins who claimed we were their sisters by heart have ditched us. They are going through crap of their own and my sis and I offered support. What did we get in return. They manufacture some story that the last time they visited my sister told my cousin's wife all the mean things her sister in law was saying about her. Can we all say delusional? I was there through the entire visit. Never happened. The thing is her husband, our cousin was there too, knows it didn't happen but has ostracized us anyway.
This on top of my mental illness issues. If I call therapist or psychiatrist they are just going to give me that keep being as courageous as you've been even though it's hard, etc. The doctor will toss out more meds which solve nothing.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I keep trying, I keep following the rules. It's just when is enough enough?
I made my sister a promise that I would never give into the urge to end it again and I won't go back on that cause I won't put her through more misery.
So I am stuck. The only things I even slightly enjoy anymore are my sister, books,sleeping, and my one feral cat who let's me pet her and even with those things, the only ones I know can't be taken away are sleeping and books.
I just don't have any clue anymore about how to be remotely happy?
Have you ever discovered a TV show that you really like
that's been on for awhile but you just never got around to watching before? For me recently it is Chicago Fire. I've been holding little mini marathons through on demand. I actually think it just maybe my favorite show now.
I am almost done with season 2, and have plans to go back and watch season 1 soon.
My sleep deprived mind (had insomnia last night)has devised a silly plan
for keeping my promise to my sister not to argue with our conservative relatives at a holiday picnic she has planned even if they bring it up first. So if they celebrate the Hobby Lobby decision, utter one "dear leader, or " Barry" or spout anything even remotely sounding like a faux news talking point, I am just going to stand up and say really loudly " Excuse me, I have to poop", leave the table and then not return. If anyone calls up to see how I am, or if one of them has to use the bathroom I am answering " still going."
I either cry or laugh hysterically at myself when I am over tired even when things aren't truly that sad or that funny. Today is a day for the latter.
My fondest fantasy
other than having human like robotic clones of Julian McMahon, Carter Oosterhose, Matt Bomer, and George Clooney (similar to the life like droids in JD Robb books) to come live with and devote themselves totally to me, is to have every conservative and libertarian, even the average and poor ones, that I know be able to exclusively and actually experience the kind of world they so desperately are asking for. You know the know the kind of world where there is no tax payer funded schools, roads, bridges, social safety nets, police, fire departments etc. No government funded bureaucracies like the EPA,OSHA,the CDC.
You know where corporations are free to pay their workers as little as they want, where they and their unlimited amount of offspring (no birth control or abortion remember) get
to live next to a plant pumping unlimited pollutants, and Carbon Dioxide into the air and drinking water untethered by pesky government regulations. Where immigration is not allowed so their fellow conservatives will have to pick crops for pennies on the dollar. I mean those are the good honest jobs the illegal aliens are stealing from Amuricans, right? A world where they can be in a perpetual war against enemies real or manufactured.
Here's the catch that makes it fantasy. I want all these things to apply to their world and theirs only, and not have any ill effects on the world I wish the rest of us could live in. If that were the case I could be more live and let live about their actions to dismantle the federal government piece by piece. Unfortunately we don't live in a fantasy world or a vacuum, so forgive me if I get ticked off and loose my patience with them. The sad reality is we are all going to have to live with all the ill consequences of their efforts.
Sorry I am in the mood to vent.
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