Nope. It is not a health issue.
It started in the pit of my stomach and has been gnawing at my life for months. Since there actually were/are multiple health issue viruses running rampant in my community and I work closely with a wide swatch of the public, I figured I was always just fighting off the latest batch. But it wasn't like any other "virus" I'd dealt with. Very different and worrisome.
Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. This, I now realize, is something much different and it is indeed scaring me.
It's a tight ball of hate like I have never felt before. Every single day of this cretin's position of power, new, fuckingunbelievable atrocities are started, suggested, threatened, put in place that continually destroy decency, compassion, humanity, the country, the earth. Every single morning noon and night he and the wretched ilk of soulless arrogant goons called the Republican Party are plotting planning and executing treacherous foulness against the people of this nation and systematically destroying the air water land of this earth.
Every waking moment.
And I recognize now that it isn't an airborne virus that makes all my food taste terrible, all my steps harder to take and all my breaths catching in my throat. It's hate.
I actually hate these men. I. hate. Them.
I've never experienced this. Ever.
Scary as hell. Numbing. Debilitating. Anger laced. Yet I, along with millions of others, keep plodding along. I can't console or nurture anyone anymore because I have no words of comfort available now. I have nothing. My nurturing nature has been silenced. It's such a vacuum of existence. So foreign and painful with no visible wounds.
And it hasn't been two months. Not two months of this monstrous, nauseating, vile agenda.
I can only grasp at straws of hope that some who haven't been infected in the same way...some who have the security of funds and some semblace of real power and not just stubborn advocacy can and will actually do something to stop this foul virus.
(Goddess, Jesus, Buddha, God, Mother Mary, Dr. Who What When Where and How...anything!!!!!)
No, it isn't a health issue.
It is a hate issue.
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