Well Went to Doctor today

He did not give me any good news or bad news. Just said my lungs are not changing, they are stable. Later i was taking a walk test with nurse and i told her my diagnosis is Pulmonary fibrosis. I saw her eyes tear up immediately, she asked me when it was diagnosed and i responded last march. Nothing more was said.
Grandson, has good days and bad days. Mostly bad days, he just came out and asked me if i had any good memories of my childhood. Said he had to think long and hard to recall a good memory. It was when he go two puppies but of course it was counteracted by having to get rid of them a few years later.
18-20 years of negativity is hard to overcome.