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Name: Johnathan
Gender: Male
Hometown: do I have a home?
Home country: USA
Current location: San Franciso Bay Area
Member since: Sun Aug 15, 2010, 04:05 PM
Number of posts: 802

About Me

As a 16 y.o. runaway from extreme peer bullying and parental neglect; specifically after being \"outed\" in a redneck town, it was one fat, boisterous idiot of a preacher who instrumented the lynch mob who literally \"ran me out of town\". This was precisely the hateful crap he was stirring that caused incidental mob mentality that I know nearly a whole certain town is horrified to look back upon. Fred Phelps himself was invited, and drove all the way there to head up this riot. It was like something out of a horror flick: invited to a \"party in my honor\", that was quickly revealed to be a hatefest, with Fred Phelps himself at the helm. From the moment I walked in the door he lit into an in-my-face spitting litany of my evils with family and community members teasing and touting \"praise cheezus\" all around. I left with a whole crowd chasing me down the street. I only stayed home long enough that evening to pack a backpack and head out, never to return. This was after many other pronounced anti-gay incidents that were escalating in severity. I\'ve spent my whole life attempting to live down that moment. If I could sue every one of the idiots who took part in that dipshit scenario I would not hesitate for one second. Odd conflict with me is, being very, very lucky to have run across a gay pedophile (if you will, he had more genuine humanitarian interest in getting me off the street than playing with my pee-pee) who sheltered, fed and street-schooled me till I was nearly 18. December 2009 I was doored off my bicycle in what was highly suspected as an anti-gay crime. Reason being I kept having drive by \"Faggot\" yelled at my home, then the same spray painted on it, within a couple months of this happening. I cannot identify my attackers. It came unexpectedly, so suddenly, and I was too dazed only to realized I was being repeatedly kicked in the head. It took a sort of hypnosis and drug enhanced therapy to recall what I could at a University PTSD study I participated in: but during that EMDR-like sessions I realized that I had been kicked in the head something on the order of 100 times by my attackers, I could smell strong whiskey and they were laughing and making homophobic comments. I\'m a radiologic technologist with over 20 years experience in CT and Xray. Unfortunately I have limitations to my physical ability to perform my chosen profession, due to pinched nerves in my neck. Insurance companies have rejected me for all plans. I have taken what Xray assignments I can. I\'m fortunate not to have lost most of my cognitive abilities, but I\'m not who I was before this occurence, by any long shot. I can no longer ride a bicycle or a motorcycle due to chronic dizziness. I\'ve had dozens of chronic ear infections since. My right eye still has a partially detached retina. I\'ve been opiate free for 6 months now, but still have some days I have trouble with old fractures. I am documented TBI case now basically multiple post concussive syndrome. I still want to work, and live much like I did before this happened but it is very difficult. I have difficulty sometimes forming sentences verbally in proper syntax, and have to go kind of slowly at this. I refuse to become dependent on SSDI though, because I still don\'t really have a home. I sold the house there in Arizona, still have some ranch property in Radiator Springs! But this fucked up all my plans for building a home there. Its still a campout. I\'ve finally paid off over 10,000 dollars worth of debt this attack caused me. State of Arizona refused me victims of crime compensation. (R) bastards. I\'m living on the edge of homelessness still. Only a few places have been understanding of my limitations, however, which are not severe, but ever present. I\'m hoping to go back to one of the best jobs I\'ve had, but things aren\'t as lucrative for rad techs as they were years ago. Albeit my past is bitter, has made some mediocrity seem sweet ever since.

Journal Archives

The radical right wingers over the top now.

For a couple years now I've been placing progressive viewpoint on one of the RW stealth sites called SodaHead. The rhetoric there has very nearly degenerated into more and more Obama-hate, angry discourse festering into what I read today. There are RW'ers now eluding to suggestions of armed revolution due to totally wacked out ideas they've convinced themselves of. Some have come very, very close to making direct threats on the life and health of our commander in chief!!!
When I gain full internet again I'll post links. They've truly gone nuts in there and it bears watching, fellow DU'ers. For now I'll just snap out this link:
'Cause it won't take anyone long to find the crazy stuff they're posting there!
Posted by nightscanner59 | Sun Aug 24, 2014, 03:04 AM (6 replies)

Minor aggravating situation...

I just left the local dog park rather expediently due to a family with two pit bulls there. Nice calm pits, but right after the owner let the dog off the leash, he came to me and I petted his head. Then the dog turned around... and there was a clear cut case of ringworm, several perfectly round balding spots. Aaaaak.
I attempted to make a tactful comment to the owner only to a "no speekee english" response.
I proceeded right home, took Caleb and I directly to shower for a strong permethrin bath, shed my clothes right there and soaked them in the shower floor with the permethrin soap as well. I'll hit the car with Lysol later.
On the way home, though I stopped to call animal control. Actually the dispatcher first retorted to me something the order of "This is a veterinary situation sir, we take stray dog calls" (Grrr.) Upon mention of the highly contagious nature of ringworm, she said she'd send and officer right out.
Advice, comments welcome.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Sat Aug 23, 2014, 04:43 PM (8 replies)

Despite how far we've come we still live in the dark ages.

I read with heavy heart about yet another bakery refusing to serve a gay couple. I put the following on a poll site just a couple hours ago:
The flood of asinine homophobic BS in responses is already distressing.
I'm serious. If these bigots are going to hold their moral yardstick up to customers to serve them, they should have to warn everyone of their scruples.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Thu Aug 14, 2014, 09:19 PM (3 replies)

Albeit only remotely connected to my LGBT status, I"m finally glad to leave the midwest.

I've been on a 6 month inteventional mission to my elderly parents self destructive wind-down. Got the worst problem placed in nursing home care, set up home care and meals on wheels for mom. I also considered this sort of a depraved sabbatical for myself after severe injuries sustained in a brutal mugging just over 4 years ago.
But frankly even going to a "red" area of california for work now has desirability over this. Between the load of hateful bumperstickers sighted daily, and Fox Noose delusional Zombies driving hundreds of monster pickemuptrucks complete with smokestacks to ensure as much carbon pollutant effluent into yet still relatively pristine air to drive one fat ass and one bag of groceries 30 miles round to work... cough, cough,... as the "one man, one woman" bumpersticker cuts a stinky self righteous fart on my "Love conquers hate" equality flag.
There still, but never see the ratio of this beyond that california border. Ever.
Yet I leave here with the most disturbing thought. That the likes of my mom exist in this area where the media pounds in all kinds of "drive your fucking cars to hell, burn more fuel in the name of X oil company's "good deeds" *coughing more*" but look at all those terrible faggots wrecking our way of life!!!!" televised brainwashing that still has her 87 year old brain convinced it is still post-WWII, and the repugs will save us all from tyranny. No amount of reality will soak her delusional soul, evidence from practically every major university and reliable institute of higher learning, even albeit a product of one, The oceans radical change in pH, nothing soaks because the box has her convinced to vote for the likes of Newt fuckwad Gingrich or whatever red one runs. I assure you the televisionus mesmerizing rays do not enter my own home, haven't since RayGun totally deleveled that playground, and never will in the unwilling and pervasive fashion it bombards and sickens me with on nearly a daily basis when intervening with my mom's problems.
Yet it stirs so much anger at the Kock brothers, and other 1 percenter's efforts to cause this. The number of misinformed, delusional or downright militant hoardes are just palpable here in a way that disturbs my dreams. Tomorrow I leave it behind me in my rear view mirror. Hare Krishna, Hare Rama. Namaste.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Wed Feb 12, 2014, 09:59 AM (2 replies)

Finally, thanks to the ACA implementation, the ancillary medical job market is thriving again. BUT..

Shocked, I tells ya, shocked many of my patients would be to find out how much of my life has been spent by this caregiver sleeping on park benches as a student, and my car when the damn repugnants control our government offices and wrecks the job market.
I'm 54 years old now, and not able to physically handle these economic downswings upon which my travel job is dependent. Since this last period of unemployment, despite having a good financial resume until shortly after the GWB years, my health has suffered, I have no retirement funds or even a hope to be able to save up one again thanks to the long unemployment periods I've had between job assignments and still retire at the age of 64 I had planned on.
Thanks to my republican parents who are reaping now what they have sowed over the years for non-support of their gay son since 16 years of age since I ran away from them to survive on the streets, the financial fluctuations I've experienced for myself with the tide of economic conditions and employment availability, This last stretch of austerity I've had to live through has been a devastating one. I don't bounce back as easily as I did, health-wise or financially from scraping for every penny between jobs.
2016 is truly going to be a turning point for me should any REPUGlican control happen again. I cannot survive another period like the GWB years and after, period. I will give up my whole life's plan, sell my home and maybe move to Sao Paulo. I'm working on learning Portuguese just in case.
Sorry if sometimes I'm redundant in my thoughts here. Finally, I'm going back to work soon, and maybe able to get back on track. But with my life and retirement plans totally blown, no possibility now of recovering ability to retire at 64 as planned, still only now have an empty piece of property with no home on it thanx to this, I can't even think straight anymore. I certainly have learned a hard lesson, and most certainly will take whatever money I can save over the next couple years, revoke my U.S. citizenry, sell my home and move out of the U.S. should any republican control like the GWB years happen again.
Frankly, the more I look at Sao Paolo and other places along the Brazilian coast, nationalized heathcare for citizenry there...
Posted by nightscanner59 | Fri Jan 24, 2014, 11:13 AM (5 replies)
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