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Name: Johnathan
Gender: Male
Hometown: do I have a home?
Home country: USA
Current location: San Franciso Bay Area
Member since: Sun Aug 15, 2010, 04:05 PM
Number of posts: 802

About Me

As a 16 y.o. runaway from extreme peer bullying and parental neglect; specifically after being \"outed\" in a redneck town, it was one fat, boisterous idiot of a preacher who instrumented the lynch mob who literally \"ran me out of town\". This was precisely the hateful crap he was stirring that caused incidental mob mentality that I know nearly a whole certain town is horrified to look back upon. Fred Phelps himself was invited, and drove all the way there to head up this riot. It was like something out of a horror flick: invited to a \"party in my honor\", that was quickly revealed to be a hatefest, with Fred Phelps himself at the helm. From the moment I walked in the door he lit into an in-my-face spitting litany of my evils with family and community members teasing and touting \"praise cheezus\" all around. I left with a whole crowd chasing me down the street. I only stayed home long enough that evening to pack a backpack and head out, never to return. This was after many other pronounced anti-gay incidents that were escalating in severity. I\'ve spent my whole life attempting to live down that moment. If I could sue every one of the idiots who took part in that dipshit scenario I would not hesitate for one second. Odd conflict with me is, being very, very lucky to have run across a gay pedophile (if you will, he had more genuine humanitarian interest in getting me off the street than playing with my pee-pee) who sheltered, fed and street-schooled me till I was nearly 18. December 2009 I was doored off my bicycle in what was highly suspected as an anti-gay crime. Reason being I kept having drive by \"Faggot\" yelled at my home, then the same spray painted on it, within a couple months of this happening. I cannot identify my attackers. It came unexpectedly, so suddenly, and I was too dazed only to realized I was being repeatedly kicked in the head. It took a sort of hypnosis and drug enhanced therapy to recall what I could at a University PTSD study I participated in: but during that EMDR-like sessions I realized that I had been kicked in the head something on the order of 100 times by my attackers, I could smell strong whiskey and they were laughing and making homophobic comments. I\'m a radiologic technologist with over 20 years experience in CT and Xray. Unfortunately I have limitations to my physical ability to perform my chosen profession, due to pinched nerves in my neck. Insurance companies have rejected me for all plans. I have taken what Xray assignments I can. I\'m fortunate not to have lost most of my cognitive abilities, but I\'m not who I was before this occurence, by any long shot. I can no longer ride a bicycle or a motorcycle due to chronic dizziness. I\'ve had dozens of chronic ear infections since. My right eye still has a partially detached retina. I\'ve been opiate free for 6 months now, but still have some days I have trouble with old fractures. I am documented TBI case now basically multiple post concussive syndrome. I still want to work, and live much like I did before this happened but it is very difficult. I have difficulty sometimes forming sentences verbally in proper syntax, and have to go kind of slowly at this. I refuse to become dependent on SSDI though, because I still don\'t really have a home. I sold the house there in Arizona, still have some ranch property in Radiator Springs! But this fucked up all my plans for building a home there. Its still a campout. I\'ve finally paid off over 10,000 dollars worth of debt this attack caused me. State of Arizona refused me victims of crime compensation. (R) bastards. I\'m living on the edge of homelessness still. Only a few places have been understanding of my limitations, however, which are not severe, but ever present. I\'m hoping to go back to one of the best jobs I\'ve had, but things aren\'t as lucrative for rad techs as they were years ago. Albeit my past is bitter, has made some mediocrity seem sweet ever since.

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I'm going to bite at this, having had a personal experience

with the master of hate himself Fred Phelps. My family lived in a redneck community where I got outed. I had made the mistake of telling someone I thought was a close friend, at 14 years old, that when I grew up I wanted to marry another man.
Life went straight to shit for me from that day until I ran away from that hell at 16 for my own survival.
And Fred F@cking Phelps was part of the problem. As some of his extended family lived in the town I went to school, I was "invited to a party in my honor". I smelled a rat when my Phelps friend said his uncle wanted to meet and talk to me, but curiosity killed my cat. I went at the appointed time.
It was an absolute hate-fest. A ceremony of laughter and vile, idiotic and ritualistic derogatory "condemning my soul to hell". There was nothing even remotely "christian" about this gathering, to my remote understanding of it. Just Fred spitting in my face as he yelled about my being a child of satan at the top of his lungs as the family gathered all around chimed in with holy epithets. Needless to say I made my way out the door in less than a minute.
Fred Phelp's family also saw to it that my life at that school would become unbearable from then on. I cannot even count the times that "faggot" replaced my name. I had bruises, cuts and fractures from being pushed, kicked, hit, shoved, tripped and tortured daily. And as far as everyone in that town was concerned, the "city slicker" that their parents warned them all not to associate with became the devil himself to burn.
When I finally made it all the way to San Francisco, I found a freeway bridge to sleep out of the rain, and eat the damaged package of Lorna Doone cookies I'd dug out of a dumpster on the way. I was filthy, hungry, totally alone and felt as though I was the only one in the world like me, as far as I knew. To this day I don't know what drew me to go to San Francisco, but it turned out to be my lifesaver at the kindly hands of an aged pedophile who eventually took me in.
I contemplated suicide, Freds unholy words echoing to me, convinced that perhaps the world would do better without this "faggot".
No I cannot imagine how horrible a full Phelps upbrining would be, compared to my parents who neglected my needs, the abusive part probably would have left me hanging from a rope from a freeway overpass just south of here.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Sat Jun 27, 2015, 01:25 PM (2 replies)

I lost a job in California early 90's when corporate LGBT anti-discrimination was barely a glimmer

As well as one housing situation in late 80's Texas when a landlord made discovery of us two males inhabiting a one bedroom apartment.
More recently, and most disgustingly, was a rather blatant crusade by a new manager at a hospital I worked at in Arizona to rid our department of my gay self and one transgender individual. She succeeded, and I'll tell you why. The unapologetically greedy red streak of political Scroogery in Arizona has made draconian cuts to the EOC there. Our complaint was filed, only to get the response that only the most egregious of sexual harassment and gender pay discrepancy cases can be handled by the EOC that has been cut dramatically. They were apologetic that they could no longer protect anyone from practically anything else. I have since dropped my professional licensure in Arizona, and will never work there again until this turns around. To this day the parent corporation of that hospital, based in Memphis, Tennessee, still refuses to list LGBT as a protected class on their policies.
Texas is not the only state that will likely turn blue in a decade or so. Native Arizonans are getting really, really fed up with being shafted by these antediluvian crazies, but they have a problem with thousands of snowbirds that flock yearly to Arizona, and keep their voter registration there also so they can get to Quartzsite in time for the November "big event". It skews the whole picture far redder than it would be without them. Some elections would have swung the other way if it weren't for the retiree Fox-noise addicted hoardes that come from Idaho, Montana and the snowy likes.
And it makes me madder than hell to hear right wing f*cktards tell me my rights are not being violated. Especially when they vomit up their recent meme of "you are free to marry someone of the opposite sex just like everyone else". I used to fight this garbage on their own turf, right on their crazy red-meat sites such as Fox Nation.
Until I got banned there. Go figure...
Same town where my partner of the time and I got kicked out of our home, he went to interview at a new fast food restaurant called "Chick-Fil-A". Not only did the idiotic phonetic pronunciation of their name stand as a turn off, but my partner certainly did not spare any energy slamming the door on the way out from the interview, where he was asked personal questions about his sexuality as part of the interview process.
And the red-meat crowd wonders why we're militant.

Posted by nightscanner59 | Sat Jun 20, 2015, 07:46 PM (0 replies)

Comments and advice welcome: Re: bringing my gay pakistani friend to the U.S.

My friend who just turned adult age in Pakistan wants out... who can blame him? The tricky balance here is he does not want any of his family to know about his preferences, that could put them in danger even in his absence. I'm bringing him here on a visitor's visa then apply for asylum. He's also coming to check out City College's engineering program for a start in college. I've already made contact with a law firm who has had success in such cases.
I think we're doing this right under the circumstances. He is so living in fear there. It's strictly a platonic interest for me, myself being partially disabled he's willing to help me manage my home so I can keep working until we can get ourselves set up to support him in school. I know he'll need to take some ESL classes part time for a year or so before starting a serious program anyway, he's got basic english down albeit a bit broken and accented.
Resources are short for me, so I've had to take this one step at a time.
I'm not giving a lot of details here. I know there are some antediluvian lurkers around this site that would love to take the wrecking ball to our lives.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Wed Jun 17, 2015, 03:16 PM (3 replies)
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