The_jackalope
The_jackalope's JournalThank you all for your warm wishes.
There is no sadness in the Jackalope home today. Instead there is a spirit of quiet celebration and joy. We both feel a profound sense of completion.
The journey that we began 45 years ago at a smoke-filled hippie party has wound its idiosyncratic way through friendship and decades of separation, and culminated in a seven-year explosion of unconditional love when we re-united in 2010.
We have done everything that needed doing; we have left no thoughts unspoken. We have forgiven everyone whether they needed it or not; we have told all our loved ones how much we love them. We have said our good-byes, no more words are needed. The look in her eyes tells me that we are truly one soul.
When we look into each other's' eyes for the last time, as the doctor empties his syringe, it will be with full consciousness and the certain knowledge that neither of us is really going anywhere.
The time is set.
Mrs. Jackalope has had two independent medical assessments as required by law, and has been ruled eligible to receive medical assistance in dying. She will have the procedure on Tuesday, after the mandatory 10-day waiting period has expired. The consulting physicians were kind, empathetic, and caring beyond our expectations. They are doing everything in their power to ensure her a peaceful, pain-free death. The home care nurses who have come every day are similarly dedicated to her comfort. The entire palliative care system has performed in the highest traditions of compassion at every turn.
She and I have been meditating tonight on the amount of horror and misery that exists in the world. In contrast, the degree of privilege represented by our experience is breathtaking and humbling. That it is available without cost or question to an ordinary, impoverished middle class couple scrubs away the grimy crust of cynicism, to reveal the best of humanity.
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