May 29, 2020

so you are trained as a First Responder,

And someone in your immediate care becomes unresponsive, and you do NOTHING? Just spitballing here from an old man.


Koz

May 18, 2020

update,,an asshole helped

Well, gang, my chaos is being taken away from me. And I am starting to figure it out. Mrs K,who has cancer, and has fought it, and Tess,my hcp daughter, made a decision a few months ago to move. All I am gonna say is,, since 7 days ago, because our move date is coming quick,,June 6. We have placed our pets to new homes. Very carefully selected homes. and now Mrs K is seeing,,we made right choice. She deals with herself, I try to fight my drinking. Last 3 days have been fantastic. I dont feel anger anymore. Daughter is happy, we can BBQ on back deck and eat there without our Canine family. Both Mrs K and I overreached with our animals. We lost our focus,, I actually had a few drinks yesterday, and a few more today. And I feel different. I cannot find the dissent, the anger, I am cooking again, and understanding what I was fighting when I drink. ( present tense intentional.) I am thrilled. I for the first time in years,,understand me. Im not so far gone that I cannot see what happens day to day. I for the first time in 14 years, understand, I do not need the wine,rum or any. I just need Mrs K and Tess. And Mrs K is listening,talking, Tess is happy and not yelling. I will end this with, keep listening and keep your brain open, you'll get there.

And to Mr Timewise, who answered my posts with so many big,bad ass statements,so simple to type.

Live my life, my friend,,you are nothing.

I appreciate you all ,,but not Mr Timewise..who has no clue what we are going through.

Koz

May 17, 2020

a personal note to Pres. Obama,

Dear Sir,
I am no one in particular, I know my politics, I know my life. And I would like to share a personal feeling to you given those facts.

I watched you speak yesterday, I have seen and read your tweets these past few weeks. Quite frankly, they lifted me up. Even made me smile on some political websites I visit.

I understand that there are certain unwritten rules given your former position. I would offer that your position as an American is still fully intact.

Sir, I needed to hear your words yesterday, as I am sure many did.

I, as an equal American to yourself, will be selfish in my request. I need to hear sanity and compassion regularly. I ask, and even a bit of beg you,, please do not be silent. I need to hear you, America needs to hear you. Please use your position as an American and continue on your current path.

There more than a few of us who NEED it.

Respectfully,

Koz

May 16, 2020

May 29, 2015

5 years ago on May 29,,,who has aged better? I know the answer,,lol







Koz

May 12, 2020

Article on vote by mail, that makes me stop, and ask,

It is a medium length read. Something is wrong with the page as I cannot copy/paste snips, and the comment link is nonactive. I read this article a number of times already, and I still view it as a projection from our "friends" on the other side.

https://www.rawstory.com/2020/05/red-states-expand-voting-by-mail-ignoring-trump-and-right-wing-think-tanks/

From the references to Bush/Gore (Supreme court settling), To Kobach from Kansas stating that "fraud in VBM(vote by mail) occurs in a vast majority of states,except here, where I took measures to protect", to the point that many individuals, including Postal employees would be handling ballots.
The story made me pause, and wonder why are R's supporting this? are they projection what they would do? As Trump is quoted in the article from April, "Mail ballots are a very dangerous thing for this country, because they're cheaters"

As I said, the page appears to be glitched somehow regarding copy paste and comments. But, I would appreciate some of the views from those of us here, as the article did give me some pause on something I thought my mind had a grip on.

I come back to a thought of, R's cannot control millions of people who stand in line to vote, as easily as it could control hundreds of thousands of envelopes.

Maybe i am missing something as I am only on my first pot of coffee.

Koz

May 10, 2020

I feel Im losing the battle.

The virus,the shut down, moving, cleaning,cooking,talk to no one, just sit in this jail that we call a home everyday. It is affecting Mrs K as well as Tess. I just want to scream sometimes. The wine is back. At least not the hard stuff I keep saying. I just feel empty.
I just want to step back and reset. I want to feel SOMETHING except dread each day. Im backing off reading news as it is even more depressing. I just want to feel happy again.

end of pseudo rant, I just needed to get a few things out of my head. Im tired


Koz

May 3, 2020

welp CR 19 is strong

I do sing once in awhile,I do play a bit of piano,,well.. Mrs K and I were sitting and she was listening to my frustration, and seems we wrote a song. once we wrote the words I sang. She loved it even though I had no music,,the song we call THe music rules... I want to send it to someone who can refine it,, so I look to DUrs.. I wil not post it, I will not pst the audio of what we did... Im just sitting her with Mrs K and we are saying,,,this is good ,it could be so much better. and we don't know who to turn to.


KOz