OldBaldy1701E
OldBaldy1701E's JournalWhy does someone have to go insane before other will believe them (WARNING possible trigger)
When they say, "Hey, I am really suffering here and may need some help"? It seems that today, a person has to do something completely crazy in order to get attention. This has the opposite effect and garners the wrong kind of attention. It is a sad statement on our society when someone is in need of assistance and no one can find it within themselves to help. Personally, I am tired of being alone and of no use or worth to anyone else. I had dreams. I had goals. They weren't crazy. But, they became so for some reason. I don't think it is too much to ask that a person be able to pursue a living that makes them happy (as long as it is not evil or malicious). Yet, our society seems to feel that any pursuit other than the pursuit of wealth and power is a waste of time. Well, if I am a waste of time, then let me go. (By the way, this only applies to the 'unwashed masses'... if you have money, you can get plenty of help. Of course, only a small percentage of us have that kind of money, so that 'help' might as well not exist.)
(I suppose I should stop posting on anonymous message boards as well. All I am doing is wasting others time. No one here can help me either, so it is silly to even bring it up.)
Thank you, Thank you!
To whomever gifted me with hearts, you are a wonderful person(s) and I can only hope to be worthy of them.
I give up
I have now made my third attempt to post a topic with a picture and for the third time it didn't work. I will relegate myself to just replying to things I guess. This should not be so difficult.
The Cold Consequences
I just recently returned from walking around my block. Now that I live in Minnesota, that can be quite the trek. But, I had to do it. You see, earlier today I had some spicy fried chicken. (Darn Cub.) And today was a 'walk' day. As some of you know, I am three months out of quadruple bypass surgery. So, fried chicken is a no no. This only doubles the reason for walking. This is Minnesota folks, and it is a balmy 19F at the moment. (Around here, that is outside weather.) As an old southerner, I am not built for such conditions. However, sixteen years of land surveying did 'toughen' me up some. (Yeah... I just learned what to wear and what to do). So, I set out. Let me tell you, it is freaking cold out there. And, it was no fun plodding along that icy sidewalk. But, I had to do it. I needed to do it. I have gained a decent chunk of weight since I moved up here and I had long ago planned to start. But, the chest tightness also started. Since then, I have made little progress. Now, I have to. Now, my spouse needs me more than ever. I froze to death for over 40 minutes, but I did it. My face feels like I shaved it with a year old razor, but I did it.
I tell this story to make a point. (D'uh). There were consequences to that walk. It was cold. It was late in the day, so it was colder than it had been earlier. But, I am not a child anymore. I am a responsible adult. And, as a responsible adult, I know when the time comes to take the consequences of my actions. When I make a mistake, I take responsibility for it. As Americans, we are about to have a socio-economic shift in our culture that will be leaving a decidedly corrupt regime behind. Those former office holders and their enablers have done some things that require being held responsible for. There has been talk of 'healing' and 'moving on' and I agree that we need both. But, neither will happen until we see some consequences for the evil fostered by those former office holders and those who did their bidding. And, not just a bit of theatre, but somer real accountability. My opinion is that if we do not see these things, our culture will shift in a direction that will make the past four years look like a toddler's birthday party. I don't want that. Do you?
A most Blessed Samhain to ye all
May the positive Spirits watch over you and the negative ones find something else to do!
Vote Them All Out! (WARNING: graphic content)
You are darn tootin' I went out on my first day of freedom and voted.
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I have now retuned from the most horrible week I can imagine
Last Monday, I went to a cardiologist to do what I thought was a second attempt to take a stress test because the last one had to stop due to the very symptoms I was there to have examined. They did not do a stress test this time, but instead hooked me up to an EKG machine. After looking at the readout, the doc told me I needed to immediately go into the hospital because he felt I HAD to have an angiogram to see what was really going on, which they scheduled for the next morning. They did the angiogram and that afternoon, I was informed that I had blockage in all four major veins and had to have open heart surgery to perform a quadruple bypass, which was scheduled for the next day. Wednesday arrived, and I had the operation, and was put into ICU until Thursday, when I was transferred to a main floor, where I languished until yesterday evening, when I was finally discharged. I am now home, and dealing with a place that is so not ready for the level of 'gimp' that I am now. Add to that the fact that I live with two other people who take 'slob' to new depths every single day, especially the owner. I want to just pull the stitches out and rip out this thing and get it over with. Anyway, this past week has been something I would not wish on anyone, and it ain't looking to get any better. Please get out and vote. Please try to be kind to your fellow human being because you have no idea what is going on in his/her life. I know it is pointless in today's climate to expect anyone to be respectful and understanding, because there is no profit in it, but I can dream my last days away with that ideal. (The fact that it is an 'ideal' is probably the most frightening thing I can imagine, but this past week has give that thought a run for the money, let me tell you.)
So I have a forum question...
I would like some feedback on my last ( as in I am physically unable to do this anymore) effort. It is not for the faint of heart, as it covers my failed life and spews more than a little venom at what I think were factors in that failure. The release spans several musical styles, from rock to show tunes. Is it okay if I post one of them here for opinion? I am not seeking recognition, just some input on the tune and the message it delivers. (This one certainly applies to the current administration as well).
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Home
I almost tear up when I see pictures of home. Gods, I miss it.
I wanted to post a pic but cannot seem to find the way to do it.
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Well, that settles it.
My beloved honey was just fired from his mid-level job that was our only real source of income. I have not worked in 7 years now due to all kinds of physical and mental issues, and now he is also unemployed. There was no warning about this, as his position seemed like it was too necessary. Joke's on us! The irony is that I was actually trying to get help. Help... what a joke in this climate. We are facing a real chance of seeing a Mad Max-style scenario. People like me are doomed. Hold your loved ones close. Stay safe. You younger folks hang in there. Looks like you will be inheriting this mess a lot sooner than you may have thought.
