Not Heidi
Not Heidi's JournalGaslight? May I talk about this?
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My wife just tried to gaslight me. Is this strictly gaslighting? Or just being a major asshole? Either way, minor incident, major irritant.
Brief background: Since I got* lithium toxicity, I've been craving juice.** I've had a steady supply of orange and grapefruit on hand.
About half an hour ago, I told my wife I was going out to the garage to get some juice.
She: May I have a cup?
Me: Grapefruit or orange?
She: Grapefruit.
I go back to the kitchen to get another glass, then to the garage, then back in with the juice.
As I hand her her juice, she says, "I wanted a soda."
Me: I told you I was going for juice. You asked for a cup.
She: Isn't Squirt grapefruit?
Me: Yes. But you asked for a cup of grapefruit juice.
She: I asked for a Squirt.
Me: *STARES*
She: Since you're still up, would you get me a Squirt, please?
It's triply irritating because of my current mental state. Who pulls that kind of shit on someone who is so unstable? Christ, did I want to lay into her. I'd really, really like to have at her. REALLY.
I dropped it, but I'm still burning. My anxiety has ratcheted up about three notches.
Thoughts?
* "Got"? Did I *get* lithium toxicity? I don't know how to put it. Oh, well.
** I don't know if juice and lithium are related. The timing is curious.
Lithium toxicity
New psych put me on lithium, 300 mg three times daily.
I started getting symptoms I didn't recognize. They were troublesome. Then worrisome. Then I lost touch with myself.
I'd surely like to hear from anyone who has had a similar experience
Tell us about your hometown.
My wife is an East Tennessean, born in Maryville, Blount County and raised in Clinton,* Anderson County. She's as proud to be from Appalachia and Tennessee as anyone you'll meet.
I'm a Southern Californian, born in Santa Monica, Los Angeles County, and raised in Huntington Beach, Orange County. My pride in California is odd to my sisters - 🤷?♀️.**
Cades Cove in the Great Smoky Mountains is Kathy's favorite place on earth. If she predeceases me, that's where I'll spread her ashes. Huntington State Beach and the Bolsa Chica Wetlands (also in Huntington Beach) are my favorite places on earth. Honorable mention to Angels Stadium; I hope my family can find a way to put my ashes the there - preferably at first base.
Kathy and I've been married 22 years. For our first 15 years, we lived in Charles County, Maryland. I fell deeply in love with Maryland and miss it so much that I cry sometimes. I miss it almost as much as I missed California.
We now live in Huntington Beach.
For the longest time I had a desk display of five tiny flags: California, Tennessee, Maryland, rainbow, and USA. I lost it when we moved home to California. (Easy enough to replace, though.)
Thank you for reading this appreciation of hometowns. What's your hometown? (You don't have to have been born there.) What's your favorite thing about it?
* Originally named Burrville, the name was changed when Burr killed Hamilton.
** But then, I -am- the second weirdest member of my family (father's side). 🤪
If you made a bumper sticker, what would it say?
I'm pretty sure I'll get this:
The right does not own patriotism.
Make Stickers is a good site for this.
What would your bumper sticker say? Funny, political, religious . . . ?
Profile Information
Name: K.J. HeidebrechtGender: Female
Hometown: Huntington Beach, CA
Home country: United States
Current location: Fountain Valley, CA
Member since: Wed Jun 19, 2019, 03:15 PM
Number of posts: 1,288
