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Showing Original Post only (View all)I am not posting this for the purpose of getting either sympathy or suggestions. I just think [View all]
that maybe it will comfort someone just to know they are not alone in their feelings of helplessness, irrelevancy and despair.
I think I remember at least thinking that I mattered; that by words and actions I could have some positive impact on the way the world works. That not only no longer seems true, it seems embarrassingly naive---even stupid.
People I respect and admire---the folks who do their best to live honorably and generously---so often seem to be losing to "the bad guys". Lies seem more profitable than truth and kindness is considered weakness. Tolerance and civility are ridiculed and punished while bigotry and vulgarity are praised and rewarded. After three score and a dozen years of trying to "do the right thing", I feel like a fool.
Apparently, those who laugh at my ignorance and ridicule my values have been right all along.
I will turn in now and try not to think of anything. If tomorrow comes, I'll find some way to deal with it.