Adam Lanza’s Father, in First Public Comments, Says ‘You Can’t Get Any More Evil’

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64. I admit to aching at the a despair based on "it must be something I did or didn't do"

It's a trip into self-injurying guilt of someone who feels there must be something that he might have/could have/should have done that would have changed the course of events, but who had not traction to move things, and who had no real capacity to comprehend the world view of a son with increasingly dysfunctional interface with reality.

An overwhelming majority of Americans don't want a mentally ill person living next door, or working on their shift/team. For families endowed with a mentally ill member there is little compassion from society at large, and a staggering amount of personal doubt.

Hindsight of those intimate with psychological illness isn't 20-20. It's something of the 20-400 of a carnival mirror, the motion of events is true, but what is seen is twisted no matter how true the reflection.