Life sometimes seems just a series of acts we force ourselves to stage to satisfy the point in life where we are at the time.
I think middle age bring somewhat of a state of desperation when we realize our lives are not infinite, time is running out, and so we begin to push the process of life-building harder. That may include disregarding the feeling and needs of others in our path, but that can also backfire if they revolt, and we must always be conscious of the emotional effects of our actions. It seems few people are these days, which adds up to a slow degradation of our nation's sanity and morals.
Personally, I lost a big gap in my life from alcoholism and had a lot of catching up to do after the age of 43. I damn near killed myself running hard for a couple of corporations, and to the point where my health deteriorated and caught up with me.
Looking back, I allowed crass and highly-ambitious managers to push me way too hard and at a salary much too low. I doubt if any of them have a single regret. I regret allowing it to happen. Such is the life of an introvert and highly-sensitive person.
Just remember when that which your intuition tells you comes true, the result may be also have been driven by the fear of others of losing their jobs, positions or advancements. We're all pretty good at faking a happy face when our incomes depends on it.
I'm a firm believer in being most true to my natural, genetic nature and personality type. However, I also accept that I will need to pull myself temporarily away from that natural state to survive and to build a home and family - if that's what I want. But, there can be serious mental problems as a result such as depression and anger issues.
Best of luck and thanks for sharing!......
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