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So fucking what? I am drunk anyway. I am having a hard time believing that a guy so sexy. so intuitive would get stock on believing that my main goal in life would be to deceived him. Here I am quite polite. His words were: you want to get fuckd... go to the Bar.
What touched him: my openness and vulnerability, he turned it around in suspicion and insults. Tonight I kept pushing him with my words. I did not want to get too much under his spell without knowing who he really was.
Too bad for him, he couldn't and wouldn't deal with me. It was much easier for him to believe that I was a lier and a teaser.
Fuck! It is so sad.
Passion, mutual understanding being thrown away cause one of the partner is scared.
WTF . Better knowing it tonight after 3 weeks than in 3 years when I will have cried my heart out because of a possessive violent man.
But I swear to you I would have loved to have a longer relationship with him. He woke me up: sexually, sensually, emotionally.
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