Hearts Wide Open

[OneGrassRoot]

So, most people seem to agree that the world as we've known it is rapidly changing. How we perceive these changes varies from person to person, of course. Heck, how we perceive it individually can vary from hour to hour. ;)

I think those of us here are in agreement that the more hearts are genuinely opened, the greater the potential for a more graceful collective awakening.

I've been thinking about what it means to have an "open heart" a lot lately. I had a minor "aha/duh" moment when I thought about how the heart itself has an electromagnetic field. There is a physical, measurable aspect to the human heart, not simply thinking of it as acts of kindness, being more loving, etc.

Since Mother Earth is shifting as far as magnetics in measurable ways, imagine how the human heart field -- if done as a collective -- can shift physical manifestations. I think it's fascinating to consider. To truly live from the heart is a much deeper, more profound concept that it appears on the surface.

(Drunvalo speaks of this in his book "Living from the Heart" -- there are YouTube clips of the same.)

Finding our "sacred heart space" isn't easy for many. In the midst of a crisis very recently, I was rather stunned to find myself in my sacred heart space. I'm not good at meditating (I tend to go to sleep...:rofl:...and thus receive most guidance from dreams instead, which have been lacking of late), but found myself in this pure loving space that was amazing and while there received a very clear message from my son.

I'll share more later about this and how it involves the children, but I'm still trying to absorb it myself and want to get back to that meditative space for more guidance (haven't been able to since that first time :()

As someone who has always felt that words hold incredible energy and power, though the intention behind them is what is key, I go through cycles in which certain words and phrases are like an obsession. They come into my mind out of the blue and then just won't leave.

Hearts Wide Open has been one such phrase for the last year.

We recognize that tragedy and calamity have the potential to open hearts and awaken minds, but can you think of practical positive day-to-day activities or gestures -- which may serve the same purpose? Especially if done as a large group, with focused intent? Something more specific than "random acts of kindness."

Many wonderful projects and ideas to move us forward can take hold and manifest much faster the more people open their hearts and can "see" the infinite potential Humanity as a whole, and we as individuals, possess.

I have a few ideas but invite you to share how you would create a Hearts Wide Open movement...large-scale, small...doesn't matter.

:hi:

:grouphug:

[Mnemosyne]

1. I opened my heart, once again, today for my sister.

She is schizophrenic I believe, though she claims it's PTSD. She called almost incoherent and asked me to help her go to a hospital for help. I called the crisis-line when I got to her house, the hospital is 35 miles away and I cannot drive much anymore at night due to cataracts in both eyes and next thing I knew she tried to shove me down the stairs telling me to leave, saying cruel and hateful things about me. She kept shoving me around the house. She kept staring at the butcher block of knifes to intimidate me. She attacked her husband before with one, I was truly frightened.

I called her estranged husband to come get my 3 year old niece. She would not let me take her home with me and further escalation of her delusions, paranoia and aggressiveness were the last thing needed at that point. He said do not leave her alone with her, which I would never do with the rage and delusions she was experiencing. So I waited and experienced horrible verbal abuse for almost 3 hours while waiting for him.

I have done all I can for her and cannot save her. I thought if I loved her enough, took enough abuse to help her, it would show her how loved she is and help her get better, whatever she needed. :cry:

I have two other sisters screwing with her mind; telling her I was going to kill Mom and she had to protect her from me. She claims sisters left her bullets for her gun so she could kill my daughter and myself. Whether they did this or not, I do not know, quite likely they did - they are faux news zombies. They are using her illness to manipulate her, possibly into shooting me or my daughter. I am more concerned that shoot, kill and guns were flowing through her mind about us. How can someone treat a sick loved one in such a way? :cry:

It was horrible and excruciatingly painful, and still very hard to leave when her husband arrived. She convinced crisis that she isn't suicidal and they wouldn't come because of that, though they heard her screaming and rambling on at me.

I cannot continue to be verbally abused by her any longer, the last 8 years have been beyond stressful dealing with her. so much I have developed a painful heart arrhythmia of some kind.

I took her to the hospital last week after spending the day before just being there to help her get through. She became her "actress" self and fooled the attending shrink into believing she just needed some corrected medication from her shrink, which she refuses to take for more than a month or so, sometimes only a couple days. I am so afraid I will lose her forever and it seems there is nothing I can do, other than love her from afar to protect myself.

My heart is so broken, but I will survive, as I always do, and open my heart the next time it's needed. I just love her so much and worry that the next suicide attempt will be her last. She has died several times in last 7 years. She is a walking miracle and a time bomb. My heart hurts...

Sorry to hijack the thread with my pain, OGR, just managed to actually focus enough to write this and there is no one to talk to now. Thank you for being here. :hug:

I did screw up on the advice given in the Star Codes from White Tara for today - took two Valiums and a lorazepam and need a nap badly now.

Thanks for listening! :hug:

[MorningGlow]

2. ...

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Mnemosyne]

7. I am so worried, but trying to give it to the Universe.

Just so afraid for her and her three children that 15, 13 (the boys) and the little one, 3.

Thank you, MG, :hug:

[Kookaburra]

3. Oh honey

:hug: :hug: :hug:

I'm sending you light to help you through this. Bless you for trying to save your sister. You are an angel on this planet.

[Mnemosyne]

8. Kookaburra, bless you for the light.

I will probably go again if she calls, but not sure there is anything I really can do anymore, it's been a very long and painful road to here.

:hug:

[OneGrassRoot]

4. Bless your heart.....

{{{{{{{ Mnemosyne }}}}}}}

I am so very, very sorry you're going through this. It's heartbreaking, especially since a child is caught in the midst of the chaos and because you obviously love your sister dearly.

I've had a similar experience with a loved one and, for the sake of your own sanity, I strongly suggest allowing yourself to set loving boundaries. If you are destroyed, it won't help anyone. I'm sure your sister knows that, if or when she is ready to accept help, you'll be there. On some level she knows the truth about your love.

On a practical level, however, it seems as though you've done all you can; until your sister chooses to get help, there isn't a thing you can do since it sounds like the laws are not on your side as far as mental health issues (I encountered the same).

It's disturbing about the child though. Is she with her father?

I'm speechless about what your other sisters are doing. :cry:

Again, I am so very, very sorry. Please be gentle with yourself and know you have done all you can. Take care of you. We're here to listen.

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[Mnemosyne]

9. OGR, sadly there are three children involved. My nephews are fifteen and thirteen years old.

I appreciate your experience and wisdom. :hug: Some just cannot fathom the pain of watching such an ill loved one suffer without being in it. ASAH members are an exception. :grouphug:

I have severe mixed bi-polar, I deal well when stress is a bit less, and putting the boundaries on her is partly what enraged her so much, after her guilt, shame and sorrow left.

Her suffering is so painful to feel and watch. I have chosen to protect myself for once and am determined about following through with many boundaries that I have never used with people before. Heart on sleeve over-helper here. :blush:

I know she does know my love and faith in her, she called. And I so agree, and finally understand that my love can only give her small comfort until she is receptive.

I told her that as much as I love her I cannot allow her to be abusive to me any longer. Sometimes we can only love from a distance when there is little left to be done.

My little pistol niece is with her father, a good and loving man to have spent 4 years being verbally, emotionally and physically abused by her illness. The others had told her he was only with her for her inheritance and drilled it into her poor twisted mind. Pure projection on their part. I learn more of their betrayal weekly. The lies are so horrible, but they are saying I did what they did themselves, abused and bullied their dying mother in the last few years of her life and continued during the last 6 weeks of her life. It was a nightmare, ongoing.

I am trying to balance out and be the Buddha :evilgrin: Detachment, with deep love, may be all I have to survive this until the estate is final.

Thanks for the love, OGR. :cry::hug::cry:

ASAH has the kindest and some of the most empathetic and compassionate souls I have encountered on this planet. :grouphug:

[Proud_Lefty]

5. I just can't imagine what it's like

Much love to you and to your sister. Wish I understood why these kinds of thing happen, but I just don't.

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Mnemosyne]

10. Thank you for the kind words, PL. We were all

exposed to chronic low-level mercury from 1965 to 1985. My sisters were in-utero in 1968, 1970 and 1973, the worst time for exposure. I did thousands of hours of research into effects and behaviors from mercury poisoning/toxicity, and it explained my family. Mad Hatter's disease.

Of course, I'm the "crazy" one in the family, so they all demeaned and discounted my research. But I know what it does and my family is the direct result. Something has been very wrong with them for many years. No compassion or empathy. Empathy is just pity to them.

:hug::hug::hug:

[Proud_Lefty]

13. That's the typical mode of operation

To blame others for their own shortcomings. I've seen it a zillion times and more than half of those have been directed against me. Just remember the truth, remember your heart, love unconditionally and this will pass. Just hope things start calmly down soon before too much damage can be done.

Much love!

[Mnemosyne]

16. How can people be so blind to their own cruelty and hatred? I was raised on the Golden Rule, as were

my sisters, well half-sisters, whatever that means. Never figured out which half though! What goes around, comes around was also a very common phrase in our family. Karma.

I don't know how to love any other way than unconditionally. I'm a just big naive child for the most part. Why does it have to hurt so much to love though, I wonder?

Thanks for the love, PL. It matters so much, especially today. :hug:

[Melissa G]

6. {{{{{{{ Mnemosyne }}}}}}}

Painful times. :hug: You can only give what you have to give. I find it is also good to only do what is mine to do.
In my frame of reference, God does everything. We are all in the embrace of the infinite. Prayers for you and yours. :grouphug:

[Mnemosyne]

11. Wise words, Mellisa. So great to see you!

I am a slow learner, but am catching on more quickly all the time. :evilgrin:

Rick and I had a meeting a few weeks ago and it has been full speed ahead since, breaking the old way and reaching for the new. Breath-taking, and sometimes heart-breaking changes in my life recently.

"I can only do what is mine to do", thank you for these wise words. :hug::hug::hug:

[WhiteTara]

23. Wow. What a difficult day!

I know that is an understatement. Big Hugs :hug:

In my life, I have had to cut all the toxic members of my birth family out of my life, which included all of my mother's other children.
After the initial couple of years of deep pain, I am happier and feel more at peace. The drama and hurt was much too much for me.

I hope you find your peace.

[Sanity Claws]

24. Yes, a very difficult day

[Mnemosyne]

12. Didn't mean to high-jack your thread, OGR! This thread is a living example of open hearts working

and caring. One heart at a time...

Beautiful souls of love here. Thanks to you all! :cry::grouphug::cry:

[OneGrassRoot]

14. No such thing as hijacking here, Dear One!

More :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: for you!

:grouphug:

[Mnemosyne]

18. OGR, you all have filled my heart and eased my pain through such loving energy.

I'm not used to being the recipient of such caring. :cry::grouphug::cry::grouphug::cry::grouphug:

May the Universe bless all of you for restoring some of my faith in human kindness! :grouphug:

[OneGrassRoot]

19. ...

A sincere heartfelt hug from across the miles. There are so many wonderful souls "out there." You're one of them, Mnemosyne. Those with cold, closed hearts seem to overshadow the many more warm-hearted, open-hearted people out there.

I believe that can change. :)

I'm repeating myself, but I'll suggest once more: Please be gentle with yourself, Mnemosyne. Take care of you.

[Mnemosyne]

20. Change can and is coming soon! How exciting to live in such a time!

I so love your heart, OGR! :hug:

And I am slowly learning to be gentler with myself. My life has been such fast and blazing changes since I talked with Rick a few weeks ago. He pulls no punches! :rofl:

Again, thank you so much for the love and caring, it saved my day. :grouphug:

[japple]

15. This is a beautiful thread. The way it progressed is truly

wonderful. Mnemosyne, so happy you felt comfortable enough here to bare your soul and talk about your family situation. Asking the Universe to send light, love, and peace to you, your sister and her children, as well as the rest of your family. :hug: :hug: :hug:

[Mnemosyne]

17. I have never experienced such love and caring sent my way before, in my 52 years.

All of you here are pure love and there is so little of that left in the world.:cry::grouphug:

Thank you for such kind words of support and loving energy, japple! :hug:

[laylah]

21. I, too, am working on opening

my heart up. These past 10 years have been so very hard, with one betrayal after another. I am choosing to believe those betrayals are my stepping stones.

I have NO ideas for you, as I muddle through my day trying to find ideas for ME; however, I will ponder.

Love you, OGR, et al :hug: :loveya:

Jenn

[japple]

22. OGR, I have trouble meditating, too. Like you, I usually fall off to

sleep. Your statement

...can you think of practical positive day-to-day activities or gestures -- which may serve the same purpose? Especially if done as a large group, with focused intent? Something more specific than "random acts of kindness."

is one I have often thought of and had intentions of putting into practice. For a long time, I have been thinking that whenever I have a disagreement with someone or hear someone express hateful, negative thoughts, I should send loving energies to them, but then I get so caught up in my thoughts and feelings that I never remember to do it. Maybe it would help if I wrote it on a card and carried it in my pocket. Or maybe if I kept a list of those people that I should send loving thoughts to, I would take it out at night and say a prayer for them or send loving energies in their direction.

Well, now that you've got me thinking about it, I'm going to try it. I bought a pack of colored index cards for a project that never materialized and today I wondered what to do with them. Now I know.