Halp! A cross post of pathetic whingeing (mine)

[MorningGlow]

I am ridiculously and pathetically freaking out over something trivial. Ugh! x(

http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_mesg&forum=105&topic_id=9793884&mesg_id=9793884

[murielm99]

1. Courage, MG!

I freak out over ridiculous things all the time. I think it is partly from being a Virgo, and partly from being raised by an overly critical, narcissistic mother. I will never be good enough for her. I have to be good enough for ME!

You don't ever have to go back to that FB page if you don't want to.

Notice that you received a lot of positive feedback there in the Lounge. You don't have to ask to join any group here at DU. You are one of us without all the drama.

:hug:

[MorningGlow]

3. Thanks, Muriel!

I went back there and noticed that one of my exes is one of the two page admins. YEAHHHH I don't think I'm getting approved anytime soon.
:rofl:

I think I'll be disappointed if I get shut out, but I don't think it's about whether those guys still like me or don't like me (ooh a lesson! a lesson! I'm learning!); instead, it's about how I have a tendency to burn bridges.

One of my oldest friends put it a good way once--she said I live my life in boxes. When one phase of my life is over, I pack it all up into a box, seal the box, and put it away. Then I start a whole new phase of my life. I don't hang onto anything of the past, and my life phases don't overlap--not even a little bit. But the thing is that I sometimes wish I weren't so cut-and-dried about ditching my past. Sometimes I want to be the person who stays in touch with all sorts of people from all the different "lives" in my past.

So if nobody from this phase remembers me, or if they only remember the bad things I'd done back then when I was young and stupid, then it'll seem to be (to me, anyway) another indication that I'm not supposed to stay friends with folks from my past. Most of the time I'm okay with it, but I really envy people who are able to do that. If that makes sense. :shrug:

[murielm99]

5. It makes sense.

I can understand why you move on after one phase is over.

Nobody likes rejection, either, and I think you were worried about that, even if you do burn bridges.

[eilen]

6. I'm kind of like that

I don't have any childhood friends. I move on from a phase to another. Probably d/t growing up and moving somewhere else every 2 years. It's only been the last 10 years or so I have been stable/one place, same friends for this time. Now I have grown attached to my town. I used to be up for moving anywhere else anytime. It was a lot more intense when I was younger, in my 20's --had backpack, will travel etc. I never had a serious job that was worth sticking around for etc. 20 years later, Not so much anymore.

[Celebration]

2. you, being

HUMAN. :)

All is well.

[MorningGlow]

4. Awww

Got me all teary, that did. Thanks, C. :hug:

[MorningGlow]

7. UPDATE

So I checked on the group page today. I was DENIED. I'll try not to weep. :P

[MorningGlow]

8. UPDATE 2

Okay, this is ridiculous. Not only was I denied, but the admin who denied me (an ex BF) has since GONE INTO HIDING, making himself invisible on the info page for the group AND in our mutual friend's list (where he resided quite happily--and visibly--while we have both been friends with her for almost a year).

:wtf: He thinks I'm looking for HIM? LOLOLOL! I don't give a rip about this guy! We only dated for about three months and had a lame breakup, then I never bothered with him again. And that was almost TWENTY YEARS AGO!

Wow. Wow wow wow. Somebody needs to get over himself, I think! :rofl:

I must admit that when I asked to join the group, I had no idea this would come of it. What the HECK!

[I Have A Dream]

10. Wow. That's rather weird.

Yeah, you're better off not having that drama in your life.

Sorry though if it hurts a bit. :hug:

[MorningGlow]

11. I agree--I don't need that kind of nonsense in my life

I left middle school decades ago. :P

I'm just disappointed that I'm being denied the chance to reconnect with my former coworkers. But I've been friending one or two on an individual basis--I guess that's going to have to do, until the ex puts a pin in his ego. :P

[Avalux]

9. The consequences of Facebook!

I'm actually glad you were denied, so you don't have those people complicating your life. I don't have a Facebook page and never will; I see it as more harmful than beneficial.

[MorningGlow]

12. I think there are more benefits than drawbacks to FB, actually

It's given me the opportunity to stay abreast of what's going on with other branches of my family, both in town and across the country. And I have reconnected with some long-lost high school and college friends--that's FANTASTIC.

It's just that, every once in a while, you run across a looney-tune like this, and it leaves a bad taste in your mouth.