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and felt logic was my one sure virtue. Logic changed. But maybe that's what you mean about being science minded.
There is a saying that when you are ready the teacher will come...I find that true. But the teacher might not be an outer mentor or it might be for a while. For me it was very internal. I wrote a lot because I felt drawn to and was often surprised looking back at what I wrote. It might be to overcome my logic, my natural doubt, that I would often write something before I would read or experience it and experience it before I read about it or heard about it from elsewhere. Because had it come in the other order, if I read about something and then had the experience I'd have thought I had tricked myself into it.
I even used words I was more comfortable with on whatever the quest was. As things unfolded I called the changes or the flow things like "Truth" or "This Energy" or "it". I think I'd have been stifled had I used words I eventually came to understand were synonyms of the words I used, words like Spirit, God or metaphysical kinds of terms. I WROTE those words at times early on, but that was my hand. I didn't think through as I was writing, I just wrote.
The guides came...by chance. I'd be drawn to a book (or to put down a book) or to a place or to a person. A stranger might say something as I was thinking on the subject. The universe cooperates. I went for a year or two thinking "What a coincidence, yet another odd coincidence in a long complex series of coincidences" Other people were noticing them in my life before I was, I laughed them off. "What do you think, it's magic?" They did and they could feel uncomfortable.
As I started to see more of what this was I sometimes ached for a "mentor". Sometimes a person would have a powerful impact, but they were not my a lasting mentor. But I honestly think this is a time when the energies are strong, we are coming into ourselves and we find the center within. A "More than us" us.
I found those who wanted to be my teacher did want to lead me in their direction, did want me...to believe their way. As much as I wanted a guide I wasn't tempted.
I'm not answering well. This is what I'd say. Each path will vary, but first "Know thyself". There might be outside triggers or things that draw you but getting through our own layers is where we find the light, hear that still small (or loud, bossy) voice. When we get out of our own way our way is found, if a step at a time. A teacher will not be able to mislead you if you are open to a sense of truth. I have seen some really smart, searching people who did get caught up in a teacher or leader or whatever they called him.
But pearls of truth can be found everywhere. If you're drawn to a book read it. If you feel to put it down do that. Open to yourself and do what draws you. You might write, commune with nature, do yoga, see a movie, you can find it in a novel, a talk with a stranger, comments of a child, on a radio or TV station you turn on. It is everywhere, but mostly in you.
Sometimes a good start is before you go to sleep, invite spirit or truth to commune with you. We are less resistant in our sleep. Keep your eyes open, look for your own center and observe as you experience.
Does this sound like more of the crap that doesn't make any sense? Sorry. It's late...I know what I mean, but not how to say it well.
And maybe you aren't even talking about spiritual path. Maybe you mean astrology? That's easier. Self taught with mentors along the way now and then. I started looking at that much later and even then it was because someone startled me with it and I wanted to disprove it to myself. I kept testing it... An intriguing art that says something intriguing about our agreement in coming here.
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