Do you ever weaken?

[Cuban_Liberal]

I went to a funeral this afternoon for a son's friend who was killed in Iraq last week, and it saddened me so much that I think my heart may break. Like a recurrent nightmare, I sat there in my pew and watched Duane and Amber suffering the same agony and heartbreak that I watched my own sister and brother-in-law go through just last summer; at the cemetery, I watched Duane hold Amber as 'Taps' blew on the warm air, and later as a Marine handed her the folded flag with the words "On behalf of a grateful nation.".

Don't get me wrong here--- I'm not having a 'crisis of faith', not per se; no, what I'm feeling is more of a 'What was the point?'. I want to know, and I want to believe that God has some purpose that I simply don't understand yet, but... I cannot fathom what it must be. I know that not a sparrow falls that He does not see, so it's not a matter of God not knowing or not caring, but I just want to know why...

Sorry for rambling, but I just needed to get this off my chest.

:hug:

[elshiva]

1. I am so sorry Cuban_Liberal. I'm crying.

I have no idea of your loss.
This person's life, in so many ways had purpose. The point I guess of his dying is that he felt it was his duty to serve his country. I know you probably have been told that...
I hate, hate this stupid war so much! That's what seems to have no purpose except, oil,oil,oil and it's so sick.

[DemBones DemBones]

2. Words from Pablo Neruda

"Nothing, not even victory,
will erase the terrible hole of blood:
nothing, neither the sea,
nor the passing of sand and time,
nor the geranium burning
over the grave."