weird symptoms

[undergroundpanther]

I have complex pstd and dissociative identity disorder.

I have some weirdness going on lately. I have been having the symptoms of panic(sans the nausea thankfully) I sweat like a horse,my heart is pounding and I am dizzy,shaky.Sounds like a panic attack..I have most of the physical symptoms,but whatever emotional components are just not there.I am calm as this happens.
My emotions are deadened,and totally out of synch with my body freaking out.It makes no sense.I wake up at night wet with sweat shaky and my heart pounding like a night terror,but I have no memory of what I was dreaming,and again the emotional part is missing.

Has anyone else dealt with this sort of thing?

[redqueen]

1. I used to have something similar... but not quite the same.

I spent years in that deadened state, and during that time, if I encountered a trigger, I would have that response you mentioned. Heart racing, breaking a sweat... and I could feel the adrenaline surging... when this would happen, I initially wouldn't feel any emotion in connection to it, but soon after I would get very angry, raging almost. So for me there was an emotional component, it was just delayed.

[HereSince1628]

2. Yes. That's often how I experience dissociation-- and in that state, amid chaos I'm numb

Much of the time I'm actually the cause of the chaos.

I find dissociation and depersonalization, in particular, extraordinarily upsetting. My reaction to finding myself outside of myself is one of the aspects of my BPD that leaves me afraid of myself.

My therapist says there is no real treatment for dissociation. So my work is to recognize and find ways to step off the path that takes me into the emotional storms that end in dissociation and 'inappropriate' efforts to end it.

It's an unworldly feeling that truly "makes me nuts."

Good luck with it.

[Maraya1969]

3. I have the unreality too and you are right that it often comes after I allow

myself to be agitated for a long time without trying to talk myself down or using the tools I have been given to combat it.

The only thing that helps for me is doing something completely unemotional like counting the tiles on the floor or counting back wards from 1,000 by Sevens or looking for prime numbers.

It also helps when I pull out my jewelry making stuff and start wiring with beads. It takes a lot of concentration and both hands to do it so it helps keep my mind off of me.

[Hatchling]

4. I have the same dx myself.

Have you had your blood pressure checked recently?

Also, I would wake up in the middle of the night like that. I thought it was night terrors, but it turned out to be sleep apnea.

Sometimes our symptoms really are physical symptoms not just our minds freaking us out.