Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this group!

[Maraya1969]

I just checked in here and can totally relate to much of what is being said. I have been berating myself for months now because I just don't want to go places. I am not depressed because I WAS depressed and I feel it has lifted.

People have stopped calling me because I am never around anymore. That pisses me off because we used to be able to talk on the phone before so why not now? Most of my social interaction took place with people from AA. And it REALLY pisses me off that they push me to go to meetings all the time even though I have not drank in 27 years! Meetings not are like Chinese water torture to me now. Hearing the same thing over and over I could frigging scream. I know I have to go once in a while to check in and "keep it green" but damn!

And my personality is soooo varied. I am bipolar also so I have had plenty of times where I went everywhere and was the life of the party. I still am not shy around people and I can make a conversation with a stranger easily. But if I am in a gathering and I want to go I go - goodbyes annoy me.

And the people across the street are having a fiesta now and the bass in their music is driving me nuts. I actually like going outside and hearing their music because it makes me feel like I am in Mexico and it is not loud. But the base seems to waft right into my house. When someone pulls up to me at a stop lite and has their music blaring and the earth is shaking from it I want to get out of my car and choke them.

I took the test for highly sensitive people and I passed with flying colors.

But there is this sense that I should be somewhere and that I am getting lonely. I am so confused.

[bemildred]

1. You need a few good friends.

Then you need to take care of those friendships, so they are there when you need them.
It doesn't have to be all that onerous.

I know what you mean about the noise and driving and all that. It about drives me
bonkers at times, but I console myself with the knowledge that my life doesn't suck
like I know theirs must, to need all that distraction.

Congrats on 27 years alcohol free, something to be proud of, and welcome to the
loner's group. As you can tell by now, it's slow here at times.