Reply #194: Just walks away......

[jaime_176]

That sounds like my daughter, my son's condition was more severe. But they both tried really hard and are the most terrific persons. I really like who they are as well as love them. A neice has some of the symptoms of autism as well, and her daughter sounds like she may have autism, too. As for myself, I'm somewhere on that autistic spectrum, and have had to take medications for some of the symptoms. Only then can I function in the so-called "normal" otherworld. I used to feel, when I was younger, that I lived inside my head...it was so hard for others to drag me out. I tried to pass....it was so difficult... and so painful...until I took medication and I could actually carry on a conversation, and wasn't driven frenetically by severe panic...because I could not hold onto the "constants" of a world that fluctuated wildly as I attempted to grasp the relative significance of anything at all. Somehow, medication has taken the pain away, that pain of "too much" and a continually referendum in my mind on what I should or should not attend to, and an appreciable difficulty in attending to anything that was not of my repetitive allurement of the moment. Noise is pain, touch is pain, Light is pain.....do you get those feelings? I'm glad your daughter has you to help her Mr_Spock. I didn't take any medication until after I was 35. Finally, I felt as if my feelings, my emotions and thoughts were inside of me rather than me being inside my emotions and feelings. I finally gained a small, no a significant degree of control. A lot of people are negative about medication. I am not lazy. It helps make me more functionally able to exist in this world.