I had a really bad day in L.A. Now I know what it's like.

[MiniMandaRuth]

Today, I wore a very cute shirt. It's blue with big bold white letters:

Everybody loves a nerd.

Under it is the picture of the candy nerd. Which, I think that they're pretty yummy. I also think that nerdy guys a pretty cool, and I'm one of the biggest nerds you will ever, EVER meet.

So, I was just walking around today, heading to random classes. I started to notice that everyone (Or at least a lot of people) were staring at me. A few were whispering to each other. Since I am kind of controversial I am used to it, but I still felt a little uncomfortable (My best friend was home sick today, and she is usually the one who always backs me up)

So, I head to my second class (L.A) and I'm just sitting in my desk, writing down everything I'm supposed to do for the day. I noticed a few of the P.J.As (Popular Jack Asses) were whispering to each other, and they were getting a little louder, then they were laughing. I paid it no attention until one pointed at me. I sat up straight and shook my head.

Then, someone said something like this:

"Never wear that shirt again.

Me: Why?

Boy: Because no one likes you.

Me: And they like you... why?

Boy: It's stupid. It's gay.

Personally, my blood boils when anyone calls anything gay in a derogatory fashion.

Me: *Long pause* No comment.

Boy: What's with all this 'No Comment' crap? You think you're so cool and mature. You're such a show off. You think that you're all cool and you're gonna go to college and stuff. You're so dumb. You run into walls.

Me: I can write. I can play the saxophone. I can play piano. I can sing.

Boy: What does that mean? Just like that stupid shirt you wore last year.... what was that? *Looks around at others, and they nod and being to laugh.*

Me: Refresh my memory.

Boy: That stupid 'Kerry Me' shirt. What the heck is that supposed to mean? Are you so stupid that you can't spell 'Marry Me'? Or are you just a loser?

ME: *Shock*

Boy: So don't wear that shirt again, it makes you look stupid.

Me: *Shock* ...

Boy: You're a stupid nerd.

Me: *Shock* ... *Tears build in eyes*

Then, a lot of people laughed at me.

No one stood up for me. I couldn't say anything. I wanted to cry.

Then the teacher came in, and i just didn't want to say anything. I wanted to go into the bathroom and cry but I couldn't do that. I just couldn't do that.

I was wowed by the comment that my history teacher made about Bush and cronyism, but... this time, I just could think of anything.

After that happened, and we all left class, a few people came up to me and said how mean that was. The boy I like didn't laugh, but he didn't say anything, either.

That was a low moment. I like my homemade 'Kerry Me' shirt I wore last year, I just hate it when people can't even say anything nice.

A lot of people did like my shirt, though.

In choir, a girl started making fun of me, and my teacher sent her to processing with her little group because they were harassing me and making rude comments.

I really feel sorry for people that aren't graced with what I have. I have a reasonable amount of self confidence when it comes to being 'out-there' and a good deal of friends that will stick by me. I guess today I got a dose of what it feels like for them everyday.

I didn't mention it to my friends at the lunch table. I just kept to myself for the rest of the day.

i was going to wear my Zelda shirt tomorrow, I just don't want anymore trouble.

:-(