Reply #93: thank you, you three.

[seabeyond]

i am at peace. there are the what if's and once a person can get beyond the what if's there is the peace. it was really hard the first couple years. we moved into her house and she is just everywhere all the time. very comforting. i think it must be hardest on my father when he comes here for all our celebrations, hard, but knowing this place is where all the family still comes to celebrate

every spring her flowers still come up.

suicide is a tricky thing. my father talked about it this morning with the football son. he wont admit my mom did. he told us a story. i went to the morgue to find out. it has taught me a lot of huge lessons in my life. allows me to truly be empathitic to others pain. how fragile we can be. the blessing, my mom and i were so close there is not the..... i didnt say. we said everything and often

happy holidays to you all. and thanks