Veteran Hospital Visit

[Disturbed]

I could go to a nearby Veteran's Hospital and visit with the wounded from Iraq and Afhganistan but I don't feel that I could handle seeing them. I was strongly against these illegal invasions from the start and am still angry that the US forces are still there on behalf of the Multi-Corps,Military-Industrial Complex. I know these invasion were not in the least about bringing democracy to these countries. I would feel bad for the wounded and awkward about meeting them. I realize that most of them were doing their job and probably felt that what they were doing was for my benefit and America's. Still, I can't bring myself to go visit them.

Honestly, I don't feel anythng about the soldiers that have been killed in either of those countries. I can't muster up sympathy or empathy for them even for their families. I know that I should but the feelings just aren't there. Same goes for the people living in those countries, maimed &/or the dead. Guess, I have been deadened/numbed over many years of seeing death on TV, films and zines. I have actually been in rooms with dead people that I had seen alive. I worked in a hospital briefly. I didn't feel anything then either. I have never experienced anyone's death that I care about yet so I don't know how I will react to that.

Am I a freak or do any of the readers feel the same way or similar?