Reply #37: Thanks for all the replies, people...

[JohnnyCougar]

I guess I can say at least I am trying. Every time I come on here and complain, it means that I at least made an attempt. :)

It is really the first time in my life that I have had to meet girls "from scratch" instead of from friends, since I am now out of my home city. It's a lot harder piquing the interest of a total stranger that has not already had a chance to get to know you in a non-pressure situation. Perhaps there is nothing wrong with me, and it is just the fact that I have never really done things this way before. I guess I just need practice. Every time I screw up, though, I try to learn something new. Sometimes things are out of my control, but sometimes they aren't.

So I just need to learn from my mistakes. It sucks being the only one in my grad program without a significant other (out of like 12 people). It's been a year and a half since I moved to Chicago, and still no luck. But like everything, I can't be afraid of failing. And I have to stop listening to my pessimistic friends who treat failure like it is the end of the world.

Fuck it...tonight is a new night!