Reply #18: well...

[donotpassgo]

When we were together she was totally honest. She told me things about herself that I'm sure she hadn't told anything. It was in the final days and after that she wasn't on the level with me.

I know she isn't EVER coming back to stay, but I sleep in the same bed we slept in everyday. I still take care of the cat (our proxy child), she's in my film which I have been editing since she left. And she lives in my best friend home town so I hear about her all the time. The last thing she told me before she left was "I love you". This is why Its been so hard for me.

Direct confrontation has never been my thing...I told her to keep Friday open so I could take her out and I'm sure I'll have a better understanding of her mindset, but today is a different story.