Reply #162: At first it was unbearable

[Blissfulbride]

I stayed up all election night to see the results. I think I went into shock when Ohio went to shrub. Next day I was scheduled to see the doctor, the nurse was shocked that my blood pressure -- usually so normal -- was way high and asked if anything was bothering me. Yeah the next four years.

I had the usual signs of depression. I cried often, fortunately my husband was very supportive. I decided to go to the internet newsgroups for like minded people. They weren't out there. They were here and on other websites. That really helped, knowing I wasn't the only one who was angry, hurt and scared. I developed three goals which are in descending order:

1) overturn the election and get Kerry into office;
if I can't make that happen then
2) expose a scandal such as election fraud by the repubs that will make * look illegitimate again
if I can't make that happen then
3) correct the election process so that the repugs can't steal another election.

However, my hope for any of these has dimmed.

I donated to the glibs to make the recount happen and that made me really happy -- a condition I haven't known since my wedding 8 yrs ago. Then I saw that start to erode with Blackwell and his crap.

I have trouble getting to sleep since the election and have to take pills to make it happen. I thought it was my illness, but no, after reading all these accounts, I'll bet it's the election.

I'm glad I don't have kids, or I'd be even more worried than I am. I don't watch the news any more cuz I don't want to be reminded that moron is in the White House. I'm careful who I talk to about the election, becuz *ies are everywhere. I'm too afraid to put a sign in my window or sticker on my car even though I live on the liberal lakefront of Chicago. I've written and emailed politicians about the fraud, doing what I can in a passive manner because I'm afraid of confrontation with a *ie. Getting stressed out doesn't help my medical condition. My husband has been out of work for a year now and I don't expect his prospects will get any better for quite a while.

I'm starting to come to terms with the reality of being stuck with the shrub and hope that there is enough opposition and controversy so that he can't get his policies through.

I honestly miss Kerry. I really wanted him for president. I grieved for the loss of his dignity and intelligence and Edwards' enthusiasm that would have been so beneficial to this country and the world.

I deeply worry about our country's future and the repression of our freedoms. And then I try not to think about it.

I pray the electoral vote will not be certified by congress, but know the outcome of that won't get him out of office. It will probably take a lot of time to expose this fraud.
And quietly keep hoping. And emailing.

To all of you who responded to this thread, I wish you well. I pray we have the courage to act when needed and to somehow get through these next 4 years. Just remember that 53+ (don't forget the ones who were disallowed from voting) million Americans were on our side. The side that was grounded in reality. The very reality that now frightens and confronts our future and that of your children.

And thank DU for being there for me and these others. I don't post much, but I read the forums almost everyday.

Good luck. Stay strong. Stay connected. May God(dess) bless.O8)