Reply #130: well, you see, the other thing is...

[TRYPHO]

If I hadn't have gone there would have been a lot of concepts that I would never have fathomed by myself. They are very clever, deep, and useful concepts. The thing is though, that "non-addicts" (nearly said "normal people") can go along, learn some stuff, then get on with their lives. Those that are "addicted" by nature seem to struggle with just living - they need "more" or "other".

As I said my brother was in GA - I used to love gambling with him, at the bookies or playing poker online. There was real cameraderie. The shame is he couldn't handle it - found losing frustrating - and winning was never BIG enough. Whereas I do it for fun, just for the pleasure of it. I don't get sucked in - frankly I don't really try and win - I'm crap! (well, I'm alright, but I'm working a not-for-profit gambling strategy currently).

So, he's in the fellowship, and the sis in the fellowship. And then I plod long wondering how come my wierdo-parents didn't ruin me :-)

Now, I've been entirely selfish getting my own angst off my chest, I hope my sharing has added some benefit to the thread and the OP in particular - the shame is you can't really get updates here.

Take care of yourselves people, the balance of electrochemicals in your brain depends heavily on whether you've eaten enough chocolate or caffiene to cope with tomorrow.

TRYPHO