Reply #12: Some of these are actually positive.

[LaurenG]

I'll take:
6) Absolute determination, courage, and sacrifice, unbending will, intensely brave silent strenuous effort.
12) The annihilation of the established order and of the enduring structures symbolizing that order.
23) A sense of the irrevocable end of an era; the destruction of the established order of existence, the end of
24) A greatly intensified and deepened maturation of a person or a culture, leaving its puer dream and entering a
25) The galvanizing of the will, a sense of stern purposefulness, grim determination.

Number 6 and 25 are telling us something, the galvanizing of the will is seriously underused in many of us. IIRC Will is a first ray quality and is often neglected due to not knowing how to use it.

Will Desire formulated so clearly and carried so powerfully to an intelligent climax that the mode of its materialisation is grasped with such accuracy and energised with such intent that the result is inescapable. Pure will is only possible to a coordinated thinker, to truly self-conscious entities; the basis of the One Life which synthesises all groups; the unity of love and intention; the energy of the soul expressing itself as direction, progress and conformity to the Plan; monadic essence qualified by "fixed determination" which is identified with the Will or Purpose of the planetary Logos; the highest divine aspect which the initiate finally manifests, prior to entering upon the Way of Higher Evolution; active intelligent purpose, lovingly applied. (see Way, Love, Purpose)

Will-Purpose The steely, brittle, determined, dynamic will of the devoted aspirant must change into the steadfast, calm purpose of the soul working through the disciple. The soul is fluid in adjustment but undeviating in aim; quality of the first Ray. (see Rays)

http://www.souledout.org/souledoutglossary.html

Anyway, I feel heavy and serious but thankfully the anger has taken it's leave at least for now. Oh yippy (not)to the rest of those. :( Thanks Rick.