The difference between thoughts and intentions

[oxbow]

As I heal, I'm letting go of a lot of negative thoughts and emotions. I've tried to stay positive and hopeful as I go through this time in my life. However, I have to allow myself to be authentic too, to grieve and be myself and feel all of the things that I stuffed down until now.

One of the things that has been bothering me lately is the concept that negativity attracts more of the same, that fearing something enough can bring it to pass. I don't really have a choice right now in how I feel most of the day. I have a lot of fear to grapple with, and I have to face it honestly in order to let it pass.

As I'm doing this work, I keep telling myself that I'll be ok, that my fears won't become reality. I don't have control over my thoughts, but I do control my intentions. And my intentions are to be kind and patient with myself, and for only good things to come my way. I ask God to protect me from my own fears and negativity while I heal, but I still don't feel safe because of this a lot of the time. Can anyone help me understand what it is that I'm not getting here?