Reply #14: Still working on regaining my footing ...

[Myrina]

... Spirit has obviously led me to this moment in my life for a reason ... having left my previous job with "no net", I landed a 1 year temp contract 2 weeks ago. It's a decent gig that's alot more 'mentally healthy' than the environment I left, but it only pays at half my previous salary.

BUT my 'new boss' is an MSW on the side with solid connections in the local NonProfit community. She loves my idea; is willing to help me write up grant proposals/articles of incorporation/bylaws AND act as recruiter/'supervisor' for eventual volunteers (she suggested MSW students from her Alma Mater and transitional residents who may need 'community service' credits).

AND, I've been in regular email contact with one of the Directors from the National Org who is willing to mentor me in setup and get me connected with other regional arms, and potentially lend the National's name and credibility to my fundraising/grant applications.

SO why am I asking for prayers? Because I am still battling depression and feelings of hopelessness, and most days swing between panic about losing my house/needing to find a 'real job' that restores my previous salary ... to more Spiritual feelings of "Let it go and you'll be ok". I never know when the panic is going to strike/the tears will start, and I am so very tired of having lived in this state of perpetual stress (I've been on my own since I was 17; no family, no spouse, few friends, no money but all the responsibilities and decisions) for the last 30 years.

So I would appreciate, not only prayers and light that my Nonprofit will come into being so that when this contract ends next March, I can switch to full time community work at a living-salary, but any suggestions anyone might have/references to self-help sorts of things where I can work on 'changing my mantra' so I can begin to take things in small bites - one hour/day at a time - and start healing from all those years of hurt and sadness and stress.

And please know that I am sending whatever white light and positive energy I have to spare back to everyone in the ASAH room. O8)

:grouphug: Thanks!!