Reply #9: It isn't scary...

[varkam]

because I think people will become too attached to me (who knows, maybe when I start doing it that will be my biggest fear). Right now I just hope I'm good enough. The pessimistic part of who I am feels like I'm going to go, find out I suck at helping people, then have to completely retool my career plans. The last part isn't what scares me, but I just don't want to suck at helping people--it's what I want to do with my life. It's what I've wanted to do since I was 15 or 16 or so.

I think I probably need to stop worrying about what's going to happen after EKU and start worrying about EKU itself. I'm sure it's going to be hard enough for me to make it through without second guessing myself at the same time.

On a side note, I'm sorry to hear about your dysthymia. If you're looking for support then this is a good place to find it. And us R/T folks tend to take off the horns and hang up the pitchfork when we come here :)