Reply #12: May I add recognition here as well...

[DemExpat]

That was beautiful how you described it... "I feel worthy to breath."

One of the last times that I experienced a looming full-blown panic attack while riding a city bus about 10 years ago, I made a conscious decision, out of a rebellious stance, to NOT fall into that trap again, that, Goddammit, I HAVE A RIGHT TO BE HERE RIDING COMFORTABLY IN THIS BUS AMONG OTHER PEOPLE!!!!!!

I swear, this was a breakthrough moment for me, as, along with breathing techniques and Homeopathy as a support, I seem to have tamed the Panic Monster and can now do most of the things I want to do in public life comfortably and relatively calmly. :D

Feeling worthy to breathe....to BE....to take part - yes, I know this feeling and the absence of this feeling as well.

:hug:

DemEx