I am going to admit something that will probably get me branded a monster.

[Pacifist Patriot]

There are days I wish I had never had children.

I am not talking about the days when they are being particularly bratty. Or the days I have to forego something I would prefer to do because I have the obligation to take them somewhere. Or the days I am sick and can barely drag myself out of bed to handle routine parenting duties. Or the nights I'd rather be sleeping but they have other ideas.

I love my children and would be devastated if I lost them. They are all precious. But there are days I literally grieve for what I have brought them into and what they will be facing in the future. I have been reading the Daniel Quinn books which have the power to depress and uplift at the same time.

And then I wake up to this.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/7951838.stm

More dire news about my children's future and more of the same hubris that thinks we can fix it by trying to subdue this planet and its resources rather than change our way of thinking and consequently our behavior.