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My feeling on the matter, as a confirmed Catholic, is that I was not indoctrinated into something, but rather introduced to a side of life that wouldn't otherwise be present. Of course, by "side of life" I mean just one form of the spiritual side of things.
I guess the short answer is that I'm "Catholic" because I'm "nothing else".
I don't wholeheartedly reject religion, however as we've seen, it's gotten to the point where it's become this fight to see who can p*ss the most and claim some form of supposed supremacy -- not a tenet which any Jesus/Gautama/Buddha/Mohammed ever subscribed to. (Hear that, Freeper idiots?) Rather, religion has become this thing that people wear like (almost literally) a suit of armor, or a mace or halberd -- a defense, or offensive weapon with which to attack the "unsaved". Especially in America, it's a way for the sheeple to feel like part of something when nothing else suffices and nothing else satisifes. By becoming one with a "sect" (Catholic, Protestant, Jewish, Baptist) they become part of a "team" fighting the other "teams", and, not surprisingly, when masses of people get together like this, it reinforces in them the idea that they should not spend any time working on themselves to better themselves in their day-to-day lives -- where it matters the most -- as opposed to some supposed afterlife -- where it won't matter. The Golden Rule trumps the golden coffin any day of the week.
Religion has become a joke, an irrelevance -- and, more than anything, beyond any masturbation, abortion, or stem cell research -- this is what REALLY p*sses off the hierarchies of Mitred Old White Clergymen.
And how could it be anything but, in this culture of "American Idol", Wal-Mart, dumb Hollywood pap, Botox, and the pornography of violence? There's nothing devout or holy about our way of life.
In truth, I am probably pantheistic, for there are many religions, and I am interested in all of them (except for, not surprisingly, the various strains of white, homegrown religions such as Southern Baptists and various forms of Protestantism). I'm talking about Zen, Sufism, Buddhism, Taoism, and Islam.
I hardly go to church, but I'll tell you, it isn't because I'm a "bad Catholic". It's because I can't stand what going to church has become. For starters, it's not about being holy, silent, reflective, meditative, or penitent. It's about going to something that's non-religious, looks like a complete shopping mall, and is filled with pseudo-redemptive mumbo jumbo (plus a healthy helping of "give us money" and the usual tut-tutting in circumspect language about what makes you a good Catholic). (That and the fact that I've heard these missalettes a million times. The stories not only don't change, but they rerun them every year at the same time, kind of like the Bible on HBO in its early days.) I don't find it particularly religious, and yet many of the religious experiences of my youth are memories that I will have with me, in finding the quiet sanctity and beauty of being part of a religion. I think there is great culture in the Catholic church, and medieval culture in general, and the symbolism suits me. I submit myself occasionally to its sacraments, but do not live my life in fear of confession or in going to some Hell -- which, I might add, is a historical creation, not a literal place to go to. In fact, I consider this life to be Hell much of the time, for many people.
To give you an example, last summer, when I was in Dublin for a vacation, I attended Christchurch Cathedral -- perhaps one of the oldest cathedrals in Western religion -- for an Evensong service. It was quite simple and very much like going to see one of the world's foremost operas or philharmonic orchestras. There was a minimum of boisterousness, preaching, and proclamatin', and just quiet dignity amongst the lectors and the choristers. They sung absolutely beautifully, and it was a calm service, evocative of what religion truly is about -- the slowing down and quiet reflecting on the world's beauties and awes -- not about telling you how bad you are. I have to say, it was quite a refreshing experience.
So that's what I mean when I speak of religion.
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