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I take adderall,,it's not extended release .I take less than perscribed. Because I don't need two pills.two pills are too much.Two pills feels bad to me. When I take one pill still I often forget to take it.
Anyways. I took ritalin for years , years ago in the early 70s.When I got to be a teen I was taken off the Ritalin.After ritalin my school performance went to straight f's.I think most of it was due to traumatic events,but some of it may have been ADD stuff.I dunno. I find adderall has made my insomniaI have had all my life quite a bit worse,it was bad anyway ...so I find If I want to sleep before the sun comes up,I have to take my pill before 1 pm.If I forget to take it and I find it's past 1 ,I just forget about taking it.
I have PTSD and Dissociative disorder. So my attention problems could be trauma induced. I have had problems with symptoms like ADD all my life.But I do find with the adderall I can control where my attention goes easier because I am more aware of it ,and I don't get as lost or overwhelmed.. and I find I am more aware of my own mental processes and I resolve issues faster rather than getting stuck and shutting down from being overwhelmed..I think adderall has helped some of the stress in a way I don't quite understand. I notice I do cope with multitasking and things in my life better,I startle less.
It's not a life altering difference or big improvement ,but it does make coping a little smoother.Adderall does nothing to fix anything in my life it just helps me reach enough of an equilibrium so the stress and distractions lessen a little and I have room to heal.
I hope to not be taking adderall forever,I hope I can overcome the stuff that is making my life so distracted,so I won't need a pill to help me anymore,I hope soon that I can just fix myself by myself.It's better not to take drugs if you don't have to.
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