I'm so fucked up right now

[HEyHEY]

I don't mean drunk. Just the events of today.

I'm upset, angry, a most of all - I'm scared. It's a terrible feeling. I feel like I'm about to throw up, or like someone just died. There's also a depression coming along with this. Not to mention a sense of helplessness.

I can't seem to get ahead financially, and this recent shit (My car's engine blowing) isn't going to help that. I think I'm going to have to look for a new job no matter what comes of this whole thing. I need more money.

[Placebo]

1. I hear ya..

I start college in 2 weeks and I'm already depressed about the fact that I had to take out loans, and get a job and not having money etc...

LIFE SUCKS, i hate money :grr:

[Tandalayo_Scheisskopf]

2. There is no honor...

In remaining in a job that does not pay you enough to live and deal with life's vicissitudes. Nor does it make any sense.

Time for a change.

[flamingyouth]

3. I'm sorry, Jeremy

Life can be overwhelming at times. Maybe you'd be happier if you moved back home to Vancouver? I don't know if that's the best advice, but still....

[HEyHEY]

7. well

I'll have to see, I think maybe I should move back and see what I can do financially. But, if I get this possible gig in radio, it'll pay more and I can live at the family cabin rent free for a bit, which will help.

You know though, I think I just need to get out of this town, the loneliness is killer. I sometimes wake up scared like I'm falling and there's no one to catch me.
Today my friend Tracy came over for dinner after driving me back to my town. It was only the second guest I've had in my apartment in the seven months I've been there. And for a little while, it felt good. Just to have someone to visit.

I know I have to leave this town. I don't want to (for professional reasons) but things are becomng too desparate.

[flamingyouth]

8. I know, I can tell how unhappy you are there

I almost ended up in Walla Walla after college, working for the paper there, but I turned it down. I just don't think I could cope with small-town life.

Although I still think you're sitting on a gold mine of crazy-ass stories from your time in both places!

Good luck to you!:grouphug:

[acmavm]

4. Don't panic, it won't help. Believe me when I say that there are millions

in the same boat as you right now.

I wish I had some magic words of encouragement, but naturally, I don't. And I frequently have to talk myself our of panic attacks, and I think that it sounds like what you're going through. Scared, sick to the point of feeling nauseous, a horrible sense of being lost with no where to turn and no where to go.

Take some really deep breaths and tell yourself that you can get through this mess. Dispair is paralyzing, hope is what will get you through.

[CrownPrinceBandar]

5. Join the club, brother.................

I got dental work that desperately needs done and don't know where I'm going to come up with the cash.

[Maestro]

6. Sorry to hear

I hate living paycheck to paycheck. My school district gave us a paultry 3% raise, the first in three years, but my insurance with them just went from $113.00 to $434.00. How great! Not to mention that taxes in my area are continually rising. It is very difficult to stay ahead. I hope things work out. Watch the credit card debt and get that car fixed. You need realiable transportation.

[Shananigans]

9. Hon, I totally know where you are coming from...

I am starting to feel that too. I just can't seem to get ahead. My student loan bills are piling up and between rent, car payment and such I am just barely scraping by.

Although I live in a city with a huge population, I am still feeling pretty lonely. I have a very active social life (doesn't help when it comes to bill paying, either), and a great group of friends, but I can't help but still feel lonely.

Tonight is just one of those nights where I just feel like crying for no reason... my car didn't break down, I didn't lose my job, nothing happened at all. I just feel sad.

[newdealer]

10. a doctor's opinion

While it won't solve the particular problems you face, I'd highly recommend seeing a doctor for the panic and depression. There are good meds out there to help with you anxiety, and depression. I've been helped a lot by anti-anxiety, and antidepressant meds. They don't solve your problems, but they can help you cope.

"I feel like I'm about to throw up, or like someone just died. There's also a depression coming along with this. Not to mention a sense of helplessness."

That's a common feeling. I know, I had it.

I hope this helps

[alphafemale]

11. Our car's transmission went into death throes the day after we moved.

As if moving isn't enough of a money draining rather-not in itself.

Sometimes life has an especially cruel sense of humor and timing.

But at least we're both still here to bitch about it.