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Edited on Wed Sep-01-04 01:12 PM by Heddi
I only ask because death of a parent affects children differently than you're affected by death of a spouse. Same person, different emotional bonds.
You say you and the kids are feeling well at 6 months. I'm sure you're feeling well regarding the death of your wife (my condolances), and I'm sure you mean your kids are adjusting well to their greif and loss, but have you talked to them about the prospect of dating? Having a 'female friend'? Do you know how 'well' they'd take to that?
And "talking about" emotions are different from "actually doing" emotions. I think that if you were to ask your kids if it was okay if you started dating again, they may say yes. However, their attitude might change once you actually start dating someone again.
Don't move too fast. Remember--they lost their mother. You lost your spouse and I'm not trying to diminish ANYONE's feelings, the fact is that they may see your dating as a 'replacement'. THey may end up resenting you for "getting over mom too quick" or feel that you're trying to force THEM to get over their mother's death quicker than they're ready for.
I'd say give it a year. I'm sure the longing for adult companionship and such is a great need you have. But please be sensitive to your children's needs as well. Believe it or not, it's quite traumatic to find that Daddy's New Friend has been spending the night recently, and no matter how much you try to hide it, they're going to find out. Once a year passes, you'll have gone through the year anniversary of death, the first post-death "birthdays", Christmas, holidays, etc. You may find that as certain times come close (anniversaries, holidays, etc), you're not 'doing well' like you thought you were.
Of course, this is assuming that your children are minors and still living at home. I'd still show the same respect if they were older and living outside the home as well, though.
Don't rush things. When the time is right, you'll know. When the person is right, you'll know. I think the worst thing you can do now is SEEK OUT a long term relationship just for the sake of comfortability, for the sake of "getting back to normal"---but it's not going to be normal. It's not going to be the same. Don't force yourself to do something because you think you should, or because you think it's time. Let time take it's own time and things will work out for you at the time they're supposed to happen.
Best wishes to you and your kids through this difficult time.
ON EDIT:
I don't want to pry into your personal life, however I would suggest that you and your children get counceling, both joint and separate, if you already haven't. If you are in therapy, I would suggest that perhaps you talk to the therapist and have him/her bring up the idea of your dating again, to get their opinions when it's brought up in a germaine way, not Daddy hovering over us asking us and we know he wants us to say "YES! That's Great" when deep down inside we really don't want him to.
I also re-read your question and saw that you said it would be about 10 years until your kids are in college, so I'd assume they're between 7-9. That's very very young. They DEFINITELY do not understand that you, as an adult, have needs like love, companionship, sex, tender touches, etc. They will DEFINITELY see a date as a replacement. Please go slowly with this, and LISTEN to them throughout the process. TALK to them. ASK them how they feel. And above all, do NOT expect them to run lovingly into the arms of every person you date. They will be comparing each and every woman you date to their mother. They will see every flaw she has and probably diminish every positive trait she has as well.
They need their dad right now. As much as you need/want companionship, I think that at this point, the emotional needs of your kids should come first. I have known many people who had a parent who died while they kid was young (under 15) who to this day (in their mid 30's) absolutley HATE their surviving parent for "Getting over it" too soon, dating too soon, marrying too soon, and "getting on with life" too soon. Those wounds run deep, and children can't rationlize situations in the same way that adults can..
Your kids need YOU. YOUR undivided love and attention. Don't short change them by dating just yet. That would be cruel to them and cruel to yourself and cruel to any woman who you expected to live in such a tumultuous relationship.
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