For 2 seconds just now i forgot my mom was dead. I was trying to get

[GreenPartyVoter]

my dad to start listening to Mike Malloy from 10pm to midnight on a regular basis, but it occurred to me that maybe that would annoy mom.

Then I remembered that nothing is going to annoy her anymore. *baseball bat to the gut*

I hate when that happens :cry:

[MissB]

1. I'm so sorry.

:hug:

[Left Is Write]

2. :(

:hug:

[Demeter]

3. It's been nearly 7 years

since I lost my mom to smoking, and it never gets any better. On the other hand, it doesn't get any worse, either. I guess I'm just stuck in time.

[GreenPartyVoter]

5. I am sorry *hugs* Lost my MIL 7 years ago to cancer, and it doesn't

hurt as ... i dunno "loud", but there still are plenty of times when I feel mad or sad that she wasn't here to see her grandsons do something cute or funny.

[flamingyouth]

4. I'm so sorry, love

Bad, awful, scary feeling. :cry:

[GreenPartyVoter]

7. Scary is when I am afraid the amnesia will last just long enough for

me to call school and ask for her, prompting her former colleagues to think I have gone round the bend.

[flamingyouth]

9. They wouldn't think that

They would just feel so bad for you if that happened (which it probably won't). Take care tonight. :hug:

[LeftyMom]

6. Sorry for your loss

I've had a few similar moments since my Grandmother passed away in February. Earlier this week I was thinking about her birthday later this month and thinking about what to get her, I remembered I didn't need to. :(

[GreenPartyVoter]

8. Yeah, that sucks :^( I have been thinking of what flowers to buy

to plant on her grave, but I think when the time comes to do it it will be very hard to actually do it.

[mtnester]

19. I have found that decorating my Mom's grave to be the most comforting

thing I have done for myself. Sometimes it is hard, but all the fussing over it makes it somewhat distracting from the real pain...kind of weird but it helps me.

[bleedingheart]

10. I remember when I was a kid ...after my dad died..

I would have days where I was expecting him to come home from work...those moments were horrible...

[GreenPartyVoter]

11. :^( I can't even imagine. My mom lost her folks young too. and I know

she carried a lot of scars from that.

[bleedingheart]

13. I remember sneaking into my mom's room after it happened

to make sure she was still breathing...it makes me teary thinking about it.

It is just hard at any age to lose a parent...

[candle_bright]

12. I'm so sorry.

It really is hard to get used to it, and accept it.

My father passed away 2 years ago, and I still catch myself talking about him in the present tense. Then I have to change "is" to "was."

Very hard.

[Nay]

14. Good heavens, you poor thing.

I did this for a couple of years after my mom died and it killed me every time. My sympathies. It really hurts.

[supernova]

15. (((GreenPartyVoter))))

So sorry for your loss. It does hurt more than any thing else. I understand completely. I lost my mom almost nine years ago now and I still think of her and how much I miss her. :-(

:hug: :pals:

[Lisa0825]

16. It's been 4.5 years for me....

and she still appears in my dreams on a weekly basis. I'll be dreaming about something, and she'll say something, and even in my dreams I realize, hey, she's dead. And then the dream comes to a halt, and I start to wake a little, and go back to sleep. I HATE realizing it. I wish I could just have my dreams and stay asleep, but every time she's in my dream, it bothers me, because in the dream, I remember she's gone.

[mtnester]

17. I still think of things and either head toward the phone or pick it up to

dial my mom, and I lost her last June.

I found this got worse the longer it was since her passing....for me, this is the equivelent of someone throwing a cement block at my chest at about 100 MPH and it acutally hitting me...that is the only way I can describe it when I have to go "shit, Mom's dead...you can't call her!"

Sometimes, when this happens to me, I flop to the floor and wail like a baby.

One day it will get better, so they tell me...but it is the WORST thing to have happened to me in my 45 years on this planet.

On edit - I think when people lose a loved one suddenly and unexpectedly, this may happen more than folks who have some warning? (the phone thing) Let me know.

[brook]

21. It took a few...

years for me. I lost my Dad suddenly and 3 years later, my Mom who I had taken care of for over a year. I'd been in the habit of calling them every Sunday. Like you, I'd get that "they're dead, I can't call" gut-wrench and I'd weep. Gradually, I realized that I could talk to them anytime, anywhere - and I do, even though it's been 25 years now. I miss them still...and writing this has brought tears to my eyes.

:hug: to all.

[skygazer]

18. I'm so sorry

I know that feeling well - every time it's like the first time. That jolting realization. :hug:

I'm very sorry for your loss. My mother died 30 years ago - I still miss her.

[fudge stripe cookays]

20. I'm so sorry GPV.

I lost my dad 25 years ago yesterday, and April Fool's Day has been really difficult for me ever since.

My dad died of cancer as well. $%^&ing smoking. I wish he could know what his selfish habit did to our family after he died. It's been completely torn in two.

Big hugs to you. :hug:
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