I have to tell you something....

[JimmyJazz]

I promised myself that I wouldn't use the lounge to air my personal problems, but I've left myself little choice.

I'm an alcoholic. <----- you have no idea what it took for me to type that, considering I won't talk at meetings :)

I've missed everyone here and want to come back and post, but I can't do that without at least providing some explanation, so now you know. I don't know how much I'll be here, especially in the evenings, but it was nice to post a thread last night. This one isn't so nice - In fact, it's probably one of the most embarrassing moments.

I've been blessed with two beautiful daughters for whom I would die. So, I guess living for them wouldn't be such a bad idea either.

Thanks for reading this - :hi:

[progmom]

1. hey sweetie?

:hug:

proud of you.

[JimmyJazz]

4. thanks.

There's nothing like telling 60,000+ people all at once :)

Talk about "ripping off the band-aid"

[Magrittes Pipe]

2. .

:hug::*:hi:

[JimmyJazz]

11. ha ha ha - that's what it took for me to get a kiss from hedges!

Yowza - you coulda used a little tongue like you did with the Beastman, though. *pouts*

[In_The_Wind]

3. Love you JimmyJazz

Thanks for sharing :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

13. I love you, too.

:hug:

[In_The_Wind]

29. we can do together what we can't do alone

just do - the next best thing and this too will pass :grouphug:

[Sydnie]

5. One step at a time JJ

You just made one of the biggest leaps you will ever have to take.

Next step, share at a meeting. You'll be amazed at how liberating it will be, and you will find some great support in both RL and DU.

Thinking healing vibes for you and yours.

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

56. Thank you for the kind words....

I'm still not so sure about talking in meetings, though. I'm actually something of a private person. No, really - I am --

Thank you for the healing vibes.

[matcom]

6. chin up JJ

:loveya: LOTS!!

[JimmyJazz]

25. Thanks, matcom!

I'm glad to read that your mom is doing better, too! That was a little scary.

[BlondieK143]

7. We're all here for you.

:hug: I love ya sweetie and I'm so proud of you!

[JimmyJazz]

40. Thank you. I love you, too!

:hug:

I loved your picture thread, btw - you've got the warmest, sweetest smile. :)

[BlondieK143]

41. You are too kind!

:hug: You're such a beautiful person, inside and out. I really wish you the best of luck with everything. And I'm here for you, always!

There should be another thread tomorrow, look for it. :)

[johnnie]

8. Don't be ashamed of it JimmyJazz

What you posted is a huge step for yourself. I've dealt with a few different addictions, and it is just part of life.
Just go "one day at a time" and take it easy. I am guessing that you are going in that direction. Either way, just don't mindfuck yourself over things.
:hug:

[GOPisEvil]

9. Hey hon!

:hug: It will be a struggle, but you can do it. One day at a time, right? :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

43. Thanks for the earworm from cheezy sitcom!

Seriously - thanks - :yourock:

[sniffa]

10. wow

:loveya:

beware of those meetings though - it's cuLtish.
we shouLd be your onLy cuLt.

[JimmyJazz]

15. I HATE meetings - I think that's what took me so long.

Contrary to what you might expect, I HATE public speaking. :)

[Magrittes Pipe]

19. Not everybody can go that route.

The strength to face your demons has to come from within. Some people find that strength with the help of others, some through faith, some through sheer stubbornness. But the strength is inside you. You just need to discover it, by whatever means you can. :)

[JimmyJazz]

26. I think sheer stubborness ought to work...either that or I could get

pregnant again....Oh no, wait - NEVERMIND :o

[SarahB]

27. Some one I care for very much has had addiction issues for 25 years.

He hates meetings too and eventually relapsed after 8 sober years. He has found a lot of peace though in therapy and Buddhism which has done wonders within the past year. I don't think there necessarily has to be "one way", but keeping a continuous level of consciousness about everything and learning to allow yourself to feel again (even the pain, perhaps especially the pain).

Again, I wish you nothing but the best.

[JimmyJazz]

38. Thank you, sweetheart.

I will remember that. I think maybe a yoga class or two might do me a world of good. Thanks for the advice and for the kind words. I know you are going through some things yourself, so taking some time out for me means a lot. :hug:

[tavalon]

202. My meetings helped me to save my life.

So, I have warm fuzzy safe feelings for 12 step meetings. My life is no longer insane.

I hope you give the meetings a fair shake. And actually, you just performed the hardest part of starting the healing process here with people you probably feel safer with than your 12 step folks.


As an aside, is there a 12 step group on this forum. That would seem to be a nice compromise.

Lastly, congratulations, this is courageous and necessary. Hello JimmyJazz.

[JimmyJazz]

203. Hello. Thank you. I had no idea there was a program on this forum.

I will check it out and I will look at some of the other sites and groups others have given me as well. I appreciate your post very much.

Donna

[tavalon]

213. Actually, I'm not sure there is but there should be, at least AA

But there are about a half dozen other spring off organizations for other equally devestating addictions. The programs are very similar because no matter the addiction of choice, similar thought processes go into to gear and certain ways of healing apply to all.

[MrScorpio]

12. Your friends are here, JJ, especially me

Stay strong, Babycakes

[JimmyJazz]

28. Thank you, Hot Stuff!

I don't think I'll be visiting your bar anytime soon - maybe I'll start a special one for me and the teens :)

[MrScorpio]

32. Understood

I'll keep a bottle of water for ya when you're ready

[SarahB]

14. I admire your courage.

You can do the things you wonder if you're strong enough to do. :hug:

[Misunderestimator]

16. Hi JJ! Good to see you post!

Your daughters have a great mom... You've got some guts posting this. :hug: :hi:

[JimmyJazz]

17. Guts! Oh no, not me.

I'm actually a big coward, IRL. But thank you, MisU :hug:

[Misunderestimator]

22. You are no coward, JJ...

And this IS real life.... dontcha know? :pals:

[ET Awful]

18. We love you JJ

Take care of yourself (and those two daughers) :).

Don't be embarrassed, be empowered. The mere fact that you posted this means you're taking the right steps.

:hug:

[cassandra uprising]

20. Good to see you back!

Hang in there, we're pulling for you.

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

21. Thank you, darling.

That means a lot to me :hug: :hi:

[radwriter0555]

23. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Addictions are diseases, but

luckily, with the wisdom you apparently have, a disease you're willing to confront head on and deal with.

The weak are those who succomb. The oh-so-strong are those like you who have come forward to deal with their issues head on.

Congratulations!

You and your family are going to be just fine, one day at a time.

[terrya]

24. That's nothing to be embarrassed about...if you're among friends.

Which you most certainly are, honey. And I'm very glad you're back in the Lounge. :-)

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

31. Thanks, Terry! Everyone is being so kind....

I really was only gone for a week! :hug:

[yvr girl]

30. I'm proud of you

I know this was tough, but facing it is really the first step. Don't be afraid to get help.

:hug: :loveya:

[JimmyJazz]

35. Thank you, darling!

My girls deserve to have a mom who's sober. They just do.

And, I love you, too -

BTW - in case you were wondering, RKZ stole your groove. He's like that, you know.

[yvr girl]

37. Your girls deserve it

And you deserve a life without the demons.

[Jara sang]

33. Hey darling,

I'm glad your back, if I can help you in any way, let me know. :pals: :hug: :loveya:

[JimmyJazz]

36. Just keep the funny posts coming - and no more

attempted lounge coups :spank:

[Richardo]

34. Proud of you, JimmyJazz

Hang in there - my dad has been recovering for 30 years now and he's still "one day etc etc."

We're pulling for you. :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

52. 30 years! Wow - great for him.

Since adulthood, my longest time was two nine month stretches. Thanks for the hug and the kind words :hug:

[Jessica]

39. Will be thinking about you ...

And praying you & your daughters get through this together. Stay strong. :hug:

[Mutley]

42. Thank you for posting that

It took a lot of courage. I can see from reading the posts that everyone here is pulling for you, as am I.

[JimmyJazz]

46. Thank you, Mutley

for the kind words. :hug:

BTW - I think you need a few more smilies in your sig line :P

[Mutley]

55. heehee

i could NEVER have enough smilies in my sig line.

[LynneSin]

44. This isn't getting you out of Mikimotos!!

Anyhow, with my healthier eating program, Japanese food is a definately a-ok from my nutritionist, but alcohol will be a big no-no for me for awhile!

:pals: :loveya:

[JimmyJazz]

47. Are you kidding? Now we can MORE often! Think of how much

less expensive the tab will be :D

[LynneSin]

51. Especially now with the halfprice rolls

And I won $56 at Ramsey's party on Saturday (I had the #2 & #3 horses in the pool)

:bounce:

[ChavezSpeakstheTruth]

45. Stay strong, D

you got alot of people in your corner

[JimmyJazz]

48. thanks, puddin'

You know how I feel about you, too - :hug:

[Not_Giving_Up]

49. Glad to see that you're back!

We're here for you anytime you need us. Stay strong...you have good motivation, your girls!

[Debbi801]

50. Stay strong...

You have lots of people rooting for you!!

:hug:

Debbi

[auntAgonist]

53. hey JJ

Lots of folks here rooting for you, including me. Take good care of yourself, stay healthy and fight the battle! You CAN do it.

love
:hug:
kesha

[JimmyJazz]

57. Thank you, kesha!

It will be nice to be healthy - maybe I'll even be able to drop a few pounds in the process :)

[LynzM]

54. Hi JJ

Missed seeing you around here. I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to share that, it's a big step in the right direction. Doing this for your girls (and for yourself!) is a great thing. Glad to see you around :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

59. Hi, Beautiful!

Comfortable? Oh no...not at all - not me. But, it had to be done. Thank you for the kind words :hug:

[Solly Mack]

58. Brave words

DU can be a lifeline and you are loved by many. Take comfort in that and know people are on your side.

I wish you the very best!

[kedrys]

60. Hang in there sweetie!

You're on your way to recovery. You're strong and we all love you. You can do this. Holler if you need anything! :) :hug:

[tjwmason]

61. You've taken the biggest and hardest step

You've admitted the reality.

Your daughters should be terribly proud of their mother - as are we all here in the Lounge.

:hug:

[coffeenap]

62. Congratulations on your "coming out". What a wonderful,

supportive community you have right here. I have never seen such a group of people--look what we did for Andy. I have seen the support your DU friends have given you before, now it will just increase. Alcoholism is tough--you will be tougher!! Your daughters must be so proud.

[flvegan]

63. Including myself, you should have 50 thousand DUers behind you

I subtracted 20 thousand members for freepers, tombstoners, etc.

Huge step you've taken here. Probably one a great many of us could stand to take. Maybe you'll inspire another.

My best wishes for your success in kicking the drink.

[JimmyJazz]

65. Thank you.

Should I ask skinner for a new group? I'm kidding, of course. (Hey, if I can't laugh at myself....)
:o

[flvegan]

70. Well, you ARE his favorite...

[JimmyJazz]

72. LOL -

I seriously doubt that at the moment, but skinner's a good guy - I do know THAT for a fact :D

[lpbk2713]

64. You can make it and you will.

I can relate. I had a problem with binge drinking for a couple of years. I got over it gradually and now I have no desire for anything alcoholic. You'll get through this, I know you will.

:hug:

[On the Road]

66. That Took a Lot of Courage

but honesty is always the best starting point.

Think of the support DU showed for Andy. You have the same level of support here, even if it's not monetary. You can draw on it. Good luck, JJ.

:loveya:

[JimmyJazz]

67. Thank you - again, I'm not seeing it so much as having

courage...And yes, DUers rock the house! I've been reading about Andy and it's nice to know things are going his way - thanks in large part to the generosity of the people on DU. :D

[Lone_Star_Dem]

68. You are loved JJ.

You can do this.

<insert deity of choice>, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference

You are not alone in this, there are so very many others who are fighting the same battle and winning.

I love you even more for your strength and courage. :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

69. Thank you and thank you for the lovely message I had in my

inbox when I woke up this morning :D

It's funny that you sent that because I was thinking about how much I've missed you lately - Every time a pic thread goes up, it reminds me of you for some reason ;)

[xmas74]

71. We all have our problems.

That just makes us human. My problem is that I have struggled w/ an eating disorder on and off since the age of 13. I have gone years w/o purging, then one day life will be too stressful (you get the picture and it's never pretty).
I know that you just have to fight it one day at a time. Just know that there are people here who are fighting similar demons too.
And I still enjoy reading your posts!
:hug:

[redqueen]

73. JJ!

It's so nice to see you around again... I'm glad you're doing okay. You must be doing pretty damn good... you're strong enough to share that.

:hug:

So glad you're back. :)

[tyedyeto]

74. Good on ya!

Admitting you have a problem is a great first step, coming to terms with this disease is the second step. Just be careful of those meetings. I've seen people get very bizarre when they attended them. Like sniffa said previously, it can be very cultish. So go with an open mind and heart.

[JimmyJazz]

80. I will keep those words in mind. Thank you.

The meetings are a little scary, but since I just told 50,000 people my problem, I should be able to handle a couple dozen people at a meeting :)

[tyedyeto]

91. You'll do fine.

I went to a couple of open meetings in support of a friend who had been going to them. She wanted to share that part of her life with me so I could better understand what she was going thru. You only had to speak if you felt comfortable doing that. She came out of it unscathed, but for a while, it looked like she might go down the fundie path. Fortunately she saw the light and came back to us. Nowaways, she still doesn't drink and no longer needs the meetings to keep her away from the 'demon' alcohol.

Just be true to your inner-self and you will be just fine.

[sundog]

75. hang in there

this too shall pass :)

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

88. Thank you, sundog.

you are a mess and I love you. :hug:

[Beware the Beast Man]

76. There are more embarrassing things to admit.

That just took nerves.
We're here for you, JJ.

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

78. I can't think of any at the moment - unless you want me

to tell the story about how I fell out of my chair during a college lecture and rolled down the aisle? :shrug:

Thank you, Beastman. No one here is problem free, so for people to take the time to post to me is very touching. :hug:

[Beware the Beast Man]

79. Now that's embarrassing!

:D

Yet terribly funny.
Sorry. It just is. :P

[JimmyJazz]

81. I know - 20 years later and that story still can make me laugh!

FTR - the chair was broken and when I shifted my weight, the chair tilted and flipped me out. The professor had to let us take a break and when I came back to my seat, someone had taken off their belt and put it around my chair :D

[dolo amber]

77. ...

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

92. ....

:hug: back.

[MadHound]

82. It's OK JJ

We're all here for you, and will help you beat this. We all have our problems, me, I smoke and can't seem to quit. Take it one day at a time, don't be embarrassed, and we'll help you get through. You've taken a big first step, admitting to the problem. Now let's take the others, one day at a time.:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

89. Thank you for your kind words....

I know I'm not the only person on DU with problems, so to have this many people respond to my thread is touching. I just can't find the words to say how I feel right now.

[Midlodemocrat]

83. Wow. That took amazing courage.

Hang in there, JJ. You have friends here and IRL who want you to beat this.

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

84. Yowza! A post from a mod that doesn't

start with "locking" - I'm doing better already :D

I'm sorry for giving you all a rough time lately - there's nothing like making somebody's tough volunteer job even tougher :(

Thanks for the kind words and the :hug:

[Midlodemocrat]

85. Locking.

Just kidding.

Hugs back at you. You have the strength to do this. We are pulling for you!

[JimmyJazz]

86. Oh sure - now people will stop posting in this thread!

:silly:


But, it did make me laugh :D

[Midlodemocrat]

87. LOL. Not locked yet!!!!

[Prisoner_Number_Six]

90. I'm a recovered alcoholic

If someone like ME can walk away from the bottle and turn their life around, ANYBODY can do it!

Have faith, and your strength will do nothing but grow. Just remember to say NO, one drink at a time.

And you have absolutely NOTHING to be embarassed about.

[JimmyJazz]

94. Thank you.

This is not going to be easy for me, but I'll book mark this thread and read it every day.

[flamingyouth]

93. JJ...

:hug:

Be well and take care of yourself.:hug:

[GalleryGod]

95. Good Job, D.

I Still lust-your-gams, Tootsie.

Think of your Girls..always your girls...forever your girls.

:loveya:

[JimmyJazz]

96. thank you, darling!

now, take me to lunch or lose me forever :loveya:

[Kathy in Cambridge]

97. Congratulations

this is a very big step and this is very brave of you. :hug:

i'm here if you need to talk.

[Bunny]

98. Good luck with this.

I wish you the best in your recovery. :hug:

[ScreamingMeemie]

99. I just want to say...

You're never going to be alone, okay? I've got your back, and you can get through this. :loveya:

Laura---who now has to go get a tissue.

[JimmyJazz]

100. I have a pile of tissues on my desk, but they are all sopping wet -

otherwise, I would share. Thank you, Laura.

Thanks to you and everyone else who posted and/or sent me private messages - I no longer feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. :hug:

[Melynn]

101. We love you JimmyJazz

I have to admit in the past I thought that you might have had a drinking problem. I give you credit for having the courage to face your problem and getting help. When times get tough, you can always depend on us. Like I said, we love you JJ. :loveya:

[JimmyJazz]

103. Thank you for the encouragement.

:loveya: back - as I said, I've got this thread book marked and I'm going to read it every day - at least once a day.

[VelmaD]

102. Anytime you need to talk...

you know we're all here for you. You can do this. :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

104. Thank you!

You are such a kind person. :hug:

[curse10]

105. Oh JJ! That is not embarrassing!

This is empowering and I'm happy you are working things out. We will miss all your posts, but you need to care of you. I know you have everyone's support here on DU.

:grouphug:

[Left Is Write]

106. That took courage. Lots of it.

I'll be here any time you need an ear, shoulder, or just a friendly face. ANY time, okay?

Thank you for trusting us enough to share with us.

:hug:

[FuzzySlippers]

107. Hi darlin'

That was very brave! Welcome back!

[JimmyJazz]

111. thank you, dearest Fuzzy!

you helped - A lot :D

[AlCzervik]

108. JJ

It takes a lot of courage to admit you have a problem and i hope you get all the support you need. Don't look back, just work on getting yourself well and you don't need to talk at meetings until you're ready and even then just the fact you go and listen means a lot.
:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

112. It doesn't seem like I'll ever be ready to talk...Oh stop!

I'm being serious. :)

I like to talk about politics IRL, not myself! Thanks for the encouragement. I'm definitely going to need it.

[MissMillie]

109. JJ, please remember

There's nothing to be embarrassed about. Alcoholism is a disease. You're not weak, you're sick.

And we're here for you.

And we're very proud of you for seeking help.

[JimmyJazz]

113. Thank you MissMillie! And, you're in my thoughts these days, too.

I know you are making some healthy lifestyle changes and I applaud you for that as well. :hug:

[blue neen]

110. I'm very proud of you.

You are now facing your illness; admitting it here was a huge step and took courage and determination.

No one here will judge you. Remember the compassion and love that is surrounding you. :grouphug:

[JimmyJazz]

115. Thank you.

Everyone is being so kind and saying "thank you" just seems so lacking - it doesn't even begin to express what I'm feeling right now - but I can't think of anything else, either.

So again, thank you.

[MissB]

114. I'm glad to see you posting again.

And I can't imagine how difficult it was to share a personal issue with us. :hug:

[Mrs.Matcom]

116. JJ

:loveya: :pals: :hug: you can do it!!

[JimmyJazz]

123. With all this love and support!

I don't see how I can fail :D

Thank you. :hi:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

117. Good morning, my dear JimmyJazz! I was so thrilled to see you

posting this morning, that I had to come right over and see what's up!

Making that statement takes so much courage: my hat's off to YOU! You sure do have your priorities straight: living for your daughters is exactly the right idea! They need you around so very much...

We ALL love you! You've helped me in the past, and now maybe I can help you a little. You are a strong, beautiful and (most important) very intelligent young woman...

YOU CAN BEAT THIS! And you will...You are not alone; we all make mistakes, and we will stand with you forever. Hang tough, my dear, and yes, take it one day at a time...

I always look forward to your posts...that week seemed endless!

:grouphug:


:loveya:

[texas1928]

118. You have taken the first step.

And you know you have people who care about you here, and will help you. I will be thinking of you and holding you in my thoughts and prayers.

[Fenris]

119. Very courageous of you, JimmyJazz

:hug:

I hope you get the help you need.

[JimmyJazz]

129. Thank you, Fenris!

You have been very kind :hug:

Oh and - great pic of you in the Clash t-shirt :)

[nothingshocksmeanymore]

120. Take care of yourself first

I hope you beat this. :thumbsup:

[miss_kitty]

121. yo girl

glad to see ya! I hope you are having an excellent Monday.

My Grampa quit for my mom and his wife while I was in utero. My mom had her dad sober for the last 11 years of his life, and my sister, brother and I never saw grampa drunk. My mom had probably never seen him sober until she was 27. And his wife, who issued the edict ("It's me or the booze-decide which you want more.") stuck with him forever. :)

One Story, Many Happy Endings.

:hi:

[JimmyJazz]

131. Thank you. I love hearing success stories - it gives

me that much more encouragement.

BTW - can I have Joe back? :o

[miss_kitty]

135. Sure!

Consider him yours again!

[belladonna]

122. I know how hard that must have been for you

But I'm so glad you did it :hug:

Just remember, this is a tight knit group here at DU and we'll all be there to support you and help you along as you deal with this.

[JimmyJazz]

125. Thank you. It was hard, but not as hard as getting

banned would have been :)

bella - your post means a lot to me because I know you have been so ill lately. Thank you and I hope you are on the road to feeling better soon :hug:

[belladonna]

132. Thanks, sweetie

My fiance came home Friday and kept me in bed all weekend... and no, this ain't a sex thread :P

He just laid down the law and made me rest and took care of me. I'm feeling MUCH better today, thanks to him :loveya:

You've got a tough road ahead of you, so just keep trying to remember that we're all here for you, okay? You need anything, feel free to PM me anytime :hug:

[GOPBasher]

124. JimmyJazz, I don't think we know each other, but

Congrats on getting this far, admitting it. And you have nothing to be embarrased about -- it's a biological tendency that is very difficult to get over. When you get over it, you'll have something to be proud of! :hi:

[JimmyJazz]

133. Thank you.

I don't think we know each other either, which makes the fact that you took the time to post this that much more special. :hi:

[GOPBasher]

137. Your welcome. :-) n/t

[fluffernutter]

126. ((JJ))

:hug: i'm right here for ya, sweetie. you are a beautiful person and are doing the right thing. hugs, love and peaceful thoughts to you, sweetheart.

[lumberingbear]

127. We love you JJ!!!

[JimmyJazz]

139. Your smilie and your sig line brought a smile to my face!

thank you! :hug:

[Wapsie B]

128. I just saw this

after logging in. All I have to say JJ is that you're not alone in this struggle. We're here for you. You can beat this.

[JimmyJazz]

140. thank you AGAIN!

You have been so unbelievably nice to me. Reading this thread has been an amazing experience :)

[RevolutionaryActs]

130. JJ?

:hug: :loveya: :hug:

I love you. :)

[JimmyJazz]

141. I love you back, Muffin!

:loveya: :loveya: :loveya:

WAY more than my louis vitton neon pink carry on bag!

[RevolutionaryActs]

143. Hell yes! I beat the luggage!

:woohoo:



:silly:

[RagingInMiami]

134. Hey JJ

It might be a cliche, but there's a lot of truth in the saying about the first step is admitting you have a problem. There's no shame in being honest.

I do hope you find the courage and strength to conquer this. There's nothing to be embarrassed about.

And I suggest printing this thread out (after everybody gets a chance to reply) and hanging it up somewhere where you can see it everyday to remind you that you are not alone.


Good luck.

[JimmyJazz]

142. It's already been book marked for my daily perusal!

It means more to me than I can possibly express here. Thanks. :)

[progressoid]

136. Wow. Just wow.

I've been staring at the screen for about 30 minutes; astounded by your courage.

Yer swimming in the good vibes now! Here's some more....
:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

[JimmyJazz]

144. Again, it's not courage. I no longer have a choice.

I can't even go back and read my original post! I just keep scrolling down to the last response :)

Thank you for the hugs! I NEED them!

[Debi]

138. Any support I can provide from Iowa

I am as 'here' for you as I can be!

:hi:

You are in my thoughts.

[JimmyJazz]

145. Thank you for the post and thank you for the private message.

Both mean a lot to me. I feel like I'm being so cliche in my responses, but I am overwhelmed by everyone's kindness. :hug:

[Debi]

147. Just take care of you.

You'll find that when you do that everything else just falls into place :bounce:

[BikeWriter]

146. I'm an alcoholic too, Sweety...

It's an illness, just like any other. It's all in how we cope with it. :)

[JimmyJazz]

148. Thanks for telling me that. I appreciate it more than

I'm able to express. :hug:

[BikeWriter]

156. You're welcome, Doll! :-)

:hug:

[RandomKoolzip]

149. Wow...that took some guts.

Good luck, JJ. Having had many a family member with substance abuse problems, I can tell you that it's a hard road, but it's worth it to get help. I'm so happy that you're getting some assistance here....

Come back to us when you can, okay? :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

150. Thanks, "Randy"

and thanks for the hug.

I'll be back soon, I hope. I've missed everyone very much, including that DS1 dude with the comma fetish :silly:

[Lisa0825]

151. Alternatives to AA

Here is a site with input on alternatives to AA. Many groups have online support. See this link for several links: http://www.smartrecovery.org/links.htm

Also, I recommend the book The Truth About Addiction and Recovery. Other good books listed here: http://www.moderation.org/books.shtml

[JimmyJazz]

154. Thank you very much! I will check out the sites and the book.

I've also got a few very helpful things on my bookshelf.

[Susang]

152. Good luck, JJ

You might want to check out Rational Recovery if AA isn't your thing. I know a couple people it helped out quite a bit.

Hope things go better for you soon. :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

153. Thank you. I think I will check that out.

Insurance will cover some individual counseling, but certainly nothing for the long term.

And, things are already getting better :hug: thank you.

[the Princess]

155. You are amazing

How brave to air your soul here.

Take care of yourself - for yourself and your daughters.

You're gonna be fine and you will stay sober - I have no doubt! :)

[JimmyJazz]

159. Piffle - I'm not amazing at all, but thank you.

I appreciate your kind words very much. :)

Oh, and you forgot to post a gratuitous picture of Joe <----- I'll let it go this time, but next time....whoa, LOOK OUT! ;)

[the Princess]

171. OOPS! Here ya go!

[bobthedrummer]

157. I'm an alcoholic too, and my dad died from it.

:hi:

[JimmyJazz]

158. I think I saw you post about that one time not too long ago.

I think it was an anniversary for you maybe? :hi:

[bobthedrummer]

161. My recovery began June 18th, 1981 JJ.

[SOteric]

160. Aw, darlin'

Give us a big hug You're amoung friends here. Weird friends, but friends nonetheless.

[JimmyJazz]

162. How could I not laugh at the expression on that Smiley's face?

And, as far as people here being weird, well - so am I :D

:hi: Thank you, sweetie.

[WilliamPitt]

163. For you

:hug:

[JimmyJazz]

165. YOWZA! I can't believe this is what it took to get a kiss

from hedges and a post from you! And a very sick, sick picture to boot :P

Please tell me that that is the product of good photoshopping.

[gardenista]

164. Keep showing up at meetings.

And try a few different locations until you find a meeting that's right for you.

You are doing the right thing for yourself and your daughters.

Hope you can also get a sponsor soon. It makes a world of difference.

PM me if you want to talk. I've been there, and have been clean, sober and happy for 15 years. You can do it.

[JimmyJazz]

167. Thank you. I just might take you up on that!

some others have given me some good reading suggestions and some web sites, too.

Congratulations on 15 years of sobriety. :hi:

[gardenista]

172. Best advice I can give is

Make sobriety your top priority, and take the rest of it one day at a time, even if it's really more like one minute at a time.

Keep asking yoursef, "What is the next right thing to do?"

Soon you are stringing together a few good hours, then you are stringing together a few good days, and then, before you know it, you have a few good weeks and months behind you. Then you start to get some real-world benefits, as your friends and family realize that you can be trusted, and are really there for them.

At least that was my experience, and although I sometimes miss the idea of lounging around with a nice glass of wine, sparkling water with some juice in it is just as good, if not better.

Hang in there, and keep making it your top priority, whether or not you decide on AA or any other program. Keep trying. Keep remembering your priority, and keep thinking of why you are doing this.

[mark414]

166. miss jimmyjazz...

B-) :7 :P :* ;) :D :) :silly: :hi: :hug: :loveya:

i have a few family members who have gone through this...you are a strong woman, you will get through it; i believe in ya

[JimmyJazz]

168. Thank you, sweetheart!

I love the smilie collection (thanks for omitting the *toast* one)

:hi:

Next time, include your picture - that always brings a smile to my face :D

[Mrs_Beastman]

169. We have been wondering where you were

addictions suck. Thank God we all have them so we can understand eachother and be there for eachother. :hug:

[Lavender Brown]

170. Hey JJ

:hug:

[bigwillq]

173. Admitting it is the first step!

Be proud who have admitted it to yourself and now (hopefully) you can begin the process of fixing the problem.


Stay strong JJ! I know you can overcome this!
If there's anything your little friends at DU can do to help you heal, please let us know.

Love ya lots. Need you to get better so you can keep on posting. You make me crack up!:loveya: :hug: :pals:

[JimmyJazz]

174. Thanks, bigwillq! You know I just love you to pieces!

:hug: and :*

:loveya:

Just send me lots of pm's and all that good stuff. :hi:

[Dastard Stepchild]

175. Oh my...

I thought that I hadn't seen your name in awhile. I don't think we ever really chatted one on one, but I visibly took note of your absence, even though we're not actually acquianted.
My best to you as you...well.. as you live each day. My best to me as well, in that respect. :)

:hug:

[Redstone]

176. You can't solve a problem

until you admit you have one.

You've taken step one. Congratulations.

You're on your way.

We're all pulling for you, you know that.

Redstone

[JimmyJazz]

177. Thanks so much.

I am completely overwhelmed by all the support and the kind words.

:) DU is a pretty amazing place.

[Shananigans]

178. I love you, JJ!

:loveya: Let me know if I can do anything!

*hugz*

[Bossy Monkey]

179. You stood up. You took the first step. You will prevail. nt

[Nikia]

180. Congrats on taking the first step

My friend, D, has been sober for six years now. He did it for his daughters too.
We are all here for you. It's hard to be courageous sometimes, but you have motivation. You can defeat this addiction because your daughters are more important than alcohol.

[sparky_in_ma]

181. This is a wonderful post

Anytime someone saves a life, including theirs, it's a great day. Anytime you want to chat, I'll be here.:woohoo: :hug: :bounce:

[JimmyJazz]

185. You are such a total sweetie!

:hug:

I WILL be in touch. In fact, you'll be sick of me :)

[JohnKleeb]

182. Well youre on the right step to recovery by admitting it

My dad's been a recovering one for nearly a half year now. BTW that took courage of you. Good luck and I hope it works out for you, assuming that you're quitting.

[shesemsmom]

183. You just took a big step

I think it goes one day at a time!!!

[JimmyJazz]

184. Thank you. I think that sounds like a really good plan!

:)

[shesemsmom]

186. I am here for you and

I know the others are to. Hang in!!!

[n2mark]

188. I'm proud of you

you don't know me and I don't know you but you have taken a huge step. You will be okay, afterall the DU family is supporting you. I admire people who can admit they have a problem and does something about it. As for speaking in a group, you just did. You took a big step today. If you could do this today, you can do it in your group. Go for it! You can do it! Just pretend you are talking to DU. Just remember the people in your group has the same problem, they are there to be a support system to you. One day at a time? How about just taking a few minutes at a time? Please have a support system to contact.

[n2mark]

189. I'm proud of you

you don't know me and I don't know you but you have taken a huge step. You will be okay, afterall the DU family is supporting you. I admire people who can admit they have a problem and does something about it. As for speaking in a group, you just did. You took a big step today. If you could do this today, you can do it in your group. Go for it! You can do it! Just pretend you are talking to DU. Just remember the people in your group has the same problem, they are there to be a support system to you. One day at a time? How about just taking a few minutes at a time? Please have a support system to contact.

[JimmyJazz]

193. Thank you so much. I have read many of your posts and don't

feel as if you are a total stranger to me. And, your words make really, really good sense. :)

[Sugar Smack]

187. Here's a hug from me, JJ-

We all love ya. :hug:

[Texasgal]

190. I don't know you personally

but I have read many of your posts and have always enjoyed reading them.

I have the up most respect for you and your admission, with this you will go far and you will beat what's got you.

I hope you know, that even complete strangers... like me are rallying behind you.

Good luck, and be well. :hug:

[SCRUBDASHRUB]

194. You are courageous, Jimmy Jazz. Best to you in your recovery.

You can do this! We're behind you all the way!

:kick:

[MrSandman]

191. Words fail...

Godspeed on your continuing recovery.

There are no problems which cannot be conquered through sober thought.--bad pun, but true words.

I do believe that you can gain a lot from listening at meetings, too. It is the support rather than the cataharsis that is important.



:hug:

on edit: You didn't have to tell us. Thank you for sharing...s

[tjdee]

192. Thanks for letting us all know...

because you didn't have to.

Don't know too much about how hard it is to fight what you're fighting, but I'm sure you know how to kick ass.

:hi:

[jukes]

195. the hardest thing

is overcoming denial. you've taken a major step towards recovery.

get a sponsor & keep in touch w/ him/her.


if you need someone to talk to, please PM me, JJ. i know a lot about substance abuse and i'm a pretty good listener.


we care, sister.

[JimmyJazz]

199. You know I will keep in touch with you, darling.

:hi: And, I will pm you. Thank you.

[WindRavenX]

196. Dude, as the daughter of two VERY in denial alcoholics...

...thank you for simply saying "I'm an alcoholic".
I've got your back, if you ever need me to kick ass for you! :hug: :hug: :hug:
You're an AWESOME person and you are loved by MANY MANY people here!

[JimmyJazz]

201. Well then, I'll be here for you as well...

okay? :pals:

Seriously - you know how I feel about you.

[TroubleMan]

197. Good luck, we'll all be rooting for you

nt.

[CrownPrinceBandar]

198. Not only do I admire you for your musical taste..............

now I admire you for your courage.

Welcome back, JJ.

[JimmyJazz]

200. My musical taste is actually extremely varied and eclectic...

but thank you. As far as having courage, well that remains to be seen, but thank you for that as well.

[motely36]

204. Sweetie, you are in my prayers

I know I haven't been around for a while, but I had to say :hi: and let you know I am thinking about you. Let me know if you need to talk. Believe me, I know how hard it is to share at meetings. Just take it slowly.

I love ya!

:bounce: :loveya: :loveya: :loveya: :loveya: :loveya: :pals:

[JimmyJazz]

206. OMG! I have been thinking about you often! You have no idea!

I recently read the "dare or dare" thread in which you feature prominently! :hi:

You are such a sight for sore eyes!

[WI_DEM]

205. You know we love you

[JimmyJazz]

208. Thank you.

:pals:

[fleabert]

207. congrats on your post, and the work you have already done.

It took a lot of guts to take the steps to go to a meeting, and to post this here. Keep your chin up, and consider all of the Lounge as your sponsor, we are here for you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~good vibes~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

209. Thanks so much.

DUers RAWK! Everyone has been so nice to me - I can't tell you how amazing this feels. Again, I feel a little weird that my thread was kicked now, in the middle of some very funny posts - that matcom is nutso :D

[KitchenWitch]

210. I, too, am in recovery

as I told you in a PM.

There are several here who have responded who are...Kewl!

I will also check out the twelve step forum here...

[mike_c]

211. JJ, I found this thread a day late...

...but wanted to add my best wishes nonetheless. I've seen family members struggle with alcoholism, both in recovery and not, and I've gotten to know some pretty amazing folks in the recovery community. There's a lot of support there, and they WILL be there for you when you need them. Go to meetings every night. Hang in there-- this thread is an amazing outpouring of support!

[ElsewheresDaughter]

212. hold onto serenity by holding tight to your beautiful daughters! LOVE