I'd like to share a song with you.

[moriah]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UhjG47gtMCo&feature=related

I know the pieces fit cause I watched them fall away
Mildewed and smoldering, fundamental differing,
Pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
Disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
The light that fueled our fire then has burned a hole between us so
We cannot see to reach an end crippling our communication.

I know the pieces fit cause I watched them tumble down
No fault, none to blame it doesn't mean I don't desire to
Point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over.
To bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication.

The poetry that comes from the squaring off between,
And the circling is worth it.
Finding beauty in the dissonance.

There was a time that the pieces fit, but I watched them fall away.
Mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting
Ive done the the math enough to know the dangers of a second guessing
Doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication

Cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion between supposed lovers

And I know the pieces fit.

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On Tuesday the man I love ended our five year relationship. He had been lying to me for months preparing to move out. I suspected something was wrong and tried to talk to him about it, but I never thought he would do this behind my back without talking to me, until during a routine credit inquiry I saw that he had opened cable service. I asked him about it and he lied. I dreamed that he left me a Dear Jane letter and told him and asked him if he would tell me if he was unhappy, and he said yes. I asked, he said no.

I haven't been this hurt in a long time.

I would appreciate any vibes people have to offer -- I will be okay, I know that, I am a survivor, I am strong. But this hurts.