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I work nights now days; 10pm to 7am. It took me a long time to get used to it and I still need a 24 ounce Super Gulp of coffee to get me started every night. But I guess I'm used to it now. I no longer have to take a nap in the middle of my route.
I've struggled a long time trying to find peace of mind. That's not an easy task for a lot of people, and when you throw in a severe mental illness on top of it, well, finding peace seems impossible at times. I'm haunted by the past more than anything. My current life is paradise compared to my past. You won't find many truckers who compare their lives to paradise. A lot of truckers do not like what they do for a living. They got into trucking when they were poor and had nowhere else to go to make a decent living. They aren't poor now, but they can't get out of trucking because they can't replace the income anywhere else.
Anyway, I was going to talk about peace- peace in the world and peace of mind. If you've done even a little research on U.S. foreign policy, you probably know why a lot of people in the world don't like us. The solution to that problem seems easy to me. At least it was until we got involved with Afghanistan and Iraq. Once we work our way out of those messes, we need to stop trying to rule the world. Simple as that.
On a personal level, the same principle is at work: The only people we can ethically control are ourselves. If you go around trying to control and manipulate people, you aren't going to be on too many Christmas card lists. I wish people would behave the way that I want them to, but the only thing I should really be concerned about is controlling my own behavior.
I get worked up all the time out there on the road by people doing stupid stuff, either because they are ignorant or are fucking with me on purpose. The best thing to do is for me to let it go. I can think of a couple of things I could do to scare the crap out of people. That is not the way to peace.
Worrying about things that cannot be undone is also not the way to peace- peace of mind anyway. I should just be happy that I'm alive and experiencing the same reality as most normal people. The odds were heaily stacked against me, but I won. I wish you all peace- in the world outside and in the world inside your head.
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