God help me I need to get this shit off of my chest...

[EnviroBat]

Just spoke to my ex-girlfriend. We ended things very badly. She just left one afternoon, and wouldn't tell me anything. I was completely lost. It was the most devastating break-up I ever went through. I almost killed myself over it. I'm much better now and with someone new who is really good to me, and I love her very much. There was never any real closure with the ex though. I got my strength back and realized that she screwed up, and that's the way it is.

Fast forward to this morning;
I get a message from the ex that she found out she has/had uterine cancer. She found out about it the day she came back from the doctors. That was about three days before the break-up. She said that she was afraid I couldn't take her being sick. That I wouldn't stand by her, that it would be too much for me. She didn't want me to worry. I really did love this woman with all of my heart. I feel so bad right now. I don't know what to believe. Why would she do such a thing?

I apologize for ranting my life on here. I just feel so fucking bad right now...

[grasswire]

1. how long ago was this breakup?

and how much longer before you found this new love?

You're not alone. Many people here will offer a listening ear.

[kayakjohnny]

2. Wow. That's sad.

What a sad turn of events.

Especially at the holidays.

I hope you all pull through this.

I'm not sure what I would do.

I'm wishing you the best, EnviroBat.

[siligut]

3. Don't apologize, this is upsetting and I don't even know and love her.

I am not sure why she decided to tell you this now. Is that what you are asking? Is she trustworthy? Can you be supportive without feeling rotten all the time?

[PRETZEL]

4. I can understand your feeling bad,

but is it because that now you know why she broke up with you or is that your feeling for her might reemerge now that she's been back in contact with you?

You said that it was her choice to break up and that you didn't know the reason. Now you know and as sad as it is to find out that it was her medical condition, she also chose not to involve you and that leaving the relationship was what she wanted.

Is she looking for closure for herself also?

[astral]

5. I don't think there is a good reason for telling you this now

that you have a new girlfriend. Unless she wants you to forgive her now and take her back and dump the new relationship over it. Right before Christmas is a bad time to blindside you with this news for no reason. But she might just be emotional and not have thought through how this is going to affect you.