We lost my little brother this morning

[Kolesar]

He had flu like symptoms for days and he was just staying in his room and waiting it out. He had been on anti-seizure medication for a year and might have been on other medications. He quit antidepressants a few years ago.

Youth brought him dyslexia and epilepsy. He was bullied. His learning disabilities and social phobia made his work prospects poor, but he toughed it out at jobs earning barely over minimum wage. Living with family helped. There was no money in the budget for good medicine. His orthopedic surgery three years ago was paid by hospital "foundation" funds; that's a bad way to run a health care system. I don't recall where he got treated when he did get treated. There certainly weren't a lot of doctors who had a lot of time for him, so he didn't go in. I suspect a drug interaction killed him.

Gone at 51. My mother grieves.

I am the one in ten
A number on a list
I am the one in ten
Even though I don`t exist
Nobody knows me
Though I`m always there
A statistic, a reminder
Of a world that doesn`t care
--UB40

I know the people on this forum care, though. I've seen it on "the threads". Thanks for your thoughts.

[NMDemDist2]

1. I'm so sorry for your loss

[Moostache]

259. I am sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry to hear of the struggles that your family has had to endure and continues to endure under the heartache of losing a dear member prematurely and for all the wrong reasons.

I hope that as time eases the raw sense of loss that you will be strengthened by the memories of good times and loving moments that will flood you in better days ahead.

Be strong for yourself and for your family and the memory of your brother and know that in no small way, the anguish of your loss helps give resolve to those of us who will continue to fight to prevent this in the future. We MUST do better, and I am so sorry we didn't do it in time to help you at this hour.

[cynatnite]

2. I am so sorry. n/t

[LiberalLoner]

3. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I will fight all my life for good health care for all. I'm just so sorry.

[frazzled]

4. So deeply sorry for your loss.

A tragedy beyond measure.

[Burma Jones]

5. I am sorry that this happened to your family........and others

Peace

[Marrah_G]

6. I'm really sorry for your loss

and I can't imagine the pain your family is going through.

[riverwalker]

7. so sorry for your loss

you are in our thoughts.

[redroof]

8. bummer....

n/t

[dipsydoodle]

9. Sorry to hear that.

My thoughts are with your family.

I'd always thought those lyrics were "A statistical reminder of world that doesn't care".....next time I hear that I'll think of you and your younger brother..

[BumRushDaShow]

10. Your post really made me sad

I grieve with you and am sending you consoling thoughts on your loss.

[Laura PourMeADrink]

11. Sincere condolences !

[Lone_Star_Dem]

12. My thoughts are with you and your family.

I'm sorry for everything your brother went through, and what you, and the rest of his loved ones, are still going through.

[warrior1]

13. I'm so sorry for your lost.

[SidDithers]

14. ...

Sid

[MadrasT]

15. I am so sorry for your loss.

[niyad]

16. so very sorry for your loss. our deepest sympathies to you and your loved ones.

[Warpy]

17. I'm so sorry for your loss and especially for your Mom

There is no pain like that of losing a child.

He might have died from a seizure, also, not that it makes things any better, especially if he couldn't afford the right drugs.

And you're right, this is no way to run a health care system. It maximizes sheer cruelty in order to make a few men rich.

[Kolesar]

98. A seizure--depend on Warpy to bring science into it

She knows everything!
Really. I am always impressed.

[FredStembottom]

18. So terribly sad, Kolesar...

...so many of us are watching sick friends and family go without health care.
I hope others can hold on a couple more years.....

I am truly feeling your pain....

[jsr]

19. My deepest condolences

to you and your family.

[hedgehog]

20. Oh, I am so sorry for your loss! No one should lose a child, ever!

[HappyMe]

21. Oh! I am so sorry.

[glinda]

22. I am deeply sorry for your loss of your brother.

[ann---]

23. My sincere sympathy

to you and your family.

[Chorophyll]

24. I'm so sorry for your loss, Kolesar.

May all who mourn your brother be comforted.

[goclark]

25. K and R ~ I am so sorry

I was crying after I read your post

[laruemtt]

26. i am so sorry, Kolesar.

[TuxedoKat]

27. I"m so sorry

for the loss of your beloved brother. I have a brother about that age who suffered bullying and dyslexia too and worry about him. (((HUGS)))

[Kolesar]

94. I had an arm broken and tooth knocked out in the schoolyard

Your brother could have PTSD. You could council him in that perspective, if you know what I mean.

[Tikki]

28. I am so sorry....

Strong loving vibes to your family and a strong hug for the family.

As a mother, I feel her grief.


Tikki

[madokie]

29. Sending thoughts your way

I couldn't imagine how you feel, all I can do is offer my condolences, I'm sorry

[ceile]

30. so sorry...

[Whisp]

31. so sorry, Kolesar...

...

[myrna minx]

32. My heart is with you and yours. I am so sorry for your loss.

[Arctic Dave]

33. Condolences.

[madamesilverspurs]

34. Hurting for you!

Prayers for you and your family.


-

[silvershadow]

35. I am sorry for your loss. You and the family are in my thoughts and prayers.

[Daphne08]

36. My condolences to you and your family.

[dixiegrrrrl]

37. Very sorry for your loss

and most sorry for the lousy health care system that he had to cope with.

[NRaleighLiberal]

38. very, very sorry for your loss.

[uppityperson]

39. aw damn, I am so sorry.

hugs to you and yours. Nothing I can say will help much, but condolences to you.

[kentuck]

40. My sympathies, Kolesar

Sorry to hear of your loss.

[leftynyc]

41. I'm so very sorry for your loss (n/t)

[Maraya1969]

42. I am so sorry for you and your family's loss.

I wish I had magic words but I don't. So so sorry.

[sinkingfeeling]

43. I'm so sorry for your family's loss. I can't not image the grief a mother feels at losing a child.

[SalviaBlue]

44. I'm so sorry.

I lost my little sister last year. She was 54, two years younger thn me. It was devastating.

[JustAnotherGen]

45. I'm so sorry

I can't imagine losing my brother. He is my rock.

[lunatica]

46. It's really tough to lose a sibling

Hugs to you and your family.

[Robyn66]

47. I am so sorry for your loss

I cant imagine what you and your family are going through, but you are in my thoughts.

[snappyturtle]

48. Deepest sympathy Kolesar to you and your family.

[msanthrope]

49. I am so very sorry for your loss. You and yours are in my thoughts. nt

[badtoworse]

50. My deepest condolences; I lost my little brother at 45.

That was 15 years ago and I still miss him terribly. I know what you are going through.

[ProSense]

51. My deepest condolences. n/t

[KitSileya]

52. I am so sorry for your loss.

How horrible. My condolences to you, your mother, and the rest of your family.

[Odin2005]

53. Oh no! I'm so sorry!

[polly7]

54. Kolesar, I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother.

Wishing you and yours strength and comfort in one another.

[barbtries]

55. i'm so sorry,

for your entire family, your mother and especially your brother having to suffer so much. this should NEVER happen in a so called civilized society. we have fallen so far.
i wish peace and love to you and yours.

[Tippy]

56. Thoughts and prayers coming your way

[PADemD]

57. So sorry for your loss.

May he rest in peace.

[cate94]

58. I am so sorry for your loss

My thoughts are with you and your family.

[MerryBlooms]

59. My sincere condolences.

[Roy Rolling]

60. Deepest sympathies

Take some confort in knowing we all feel the pain of your loss, and wish you and your family the best.

[ashling]

61. I am so sorry

I lost my "little" brother to AIDS some years ago. You are in my thoughts.

[berni_mccoy]

62. .

[rustydog]

63. My heart aches for you

[DFW]

64. Sorry to hear of this befalling you

It's never easy, and the pain lasts.

[Whovian]

65. Just to let you know a tear is rolling down a cheek for your loss from me at the moment.

I feel your loss.

[Sienna86]

66. I'm so sorry

I hope that others following him will have an easier path in receiving the medical care they need.

[Auntie Bush]

67. So sorry you lost your little brother.

Possibly he is happier now that he doesn't have to deal with bullys, medical problems, depression and life's many challenges. He's at peace now and I hope you can find peace too in the near future. God bless you and your whole family...especially your mother!

[Emit]

68. I am so, so sorry for your loss, Kolesar. May your little brother rest in peace.

Hang in there ~ sending good thoughts your way

[mfcorey1]

69. Condolences

[DesertRat]

70. I am so sorry

You and your mother are in my prayers. Peace.

[joeybee12]

71. I am so sorry to hear this...thoughts are with you and your family

[southernyankeebelle]

72. I don't know you. Words can't express the pain you and your family must be going through.

We expect to loose our parents yet when a parent out lives their child its just unthinkable. I cry for your mother especially for that is truly a pain that makes you question faith. I know when my youngest sibling died at the age of 40 it was heartbreaking for my siblings and I. After all we helped raise him. He was 4 when our dad died and there isn't a day that goes by I don't think of him and my parents. I pray your brother is in a better place. Nothing I really say will make it better but time. Good lucky and god bless you and your family.

[secondwind]

73. He may have been 51, but he will forever be your little brother. {{hugs}}

[Liberalynn]

74. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family

[Surya Gayatri]

75. Comfort and courage to you and your family...

[Faux pas]

76. Healing vibes to you and your family...

[nolabear]

77. I'm so sorry. I wish you all whatever peace you can find. And him, rest.

[skeewee08]

78. Sorry for your loss

[grantcart]

79. That is a terrible combination of conditions to battle. I am sure that you

gave both him and your mother a lot of comfort.

Best Wishes.

[mazzarro]

80. I am truly sorry

My condolences to you and your family. The more reason to change this deplorable medical system.

[ProfessionalLeftist]

81. I am so sorry.

[SoapBox]

82. It's been a bad time recently...

First, I'm sorry about you losing your brother. I HATE death...and the older I get (ok, 50 something) there are getting
to more friends, relatives, even just "personalities" passing...I HATE death.

So over Labor Day weekend, one of my Mom's sisters passed away...Mom lives with us and is 91...the sister was 87...diagnoised
with cancer, in every organ and lymph node...dead in a week.

It's been a long few days for Mom.

[redqueen]

83. I'm so, so sorry...

[renate]

84. I'm so sorry

He must have been an amazing person, to have gone through so much and to keep on going. I'm sorry his life was so tough, and I am so sorry for your loss.

[LittlestStar]

85. I am so sorry

[LoisB]

86. Thoughts and hugs to you and your family. So sorry for the loss of your brother.

[Grey]

87. This is so sad, give your Mom a hug.

[PotatoChip]

88. I'm so sorry for your loss.

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family at this very sad time.

[bigwillq]

89. I am very sorry for your loss.

[agtcovert]

90. So sorry.

[H2O Man]

91. There are no words

suitable at a time like this ..... though the outpouring of compassion that the DU "family" is expressing on this thread communicates the compassion that speaks louder than words.

I've lost family & friends, including a brother. The circumstances that you described certainly add to the pain. I'm glad that you took the time to write it down to share here on this forum. That is a sign of strength.

While I know all too well that individuals deal with grief differently, I'd like to say that it is okay to have both times of strength and of weakness in these times. And, should you want, I'm always here to talk to.

Your friend,
Patrick

[July]

92. I'm very sorry, Kolesar.

We do care. Be good to yourself at this difficult time. Condolences to you, your mother, and all of your family.

[cordelia]

93. I am so very, very sorry for your loss.

[Dorian Gray]

95. My heart goes out to you

and your family. My deepest condolences.

[GreenPartyVoter]

96. Oh, God. I am so very, very sorry! *hugs* You are right. This is a bad way to run

a health care system. (If you can even call it that anymore.)

[Arugula Latte]

97. ...

[catbyte]

99. I am so very sorry. I am sitting here in tears

Bless you brother and bless your family.

Diane
Anishinaabe in MI

[snacker]

100. I am so sorry.

Sending loving thoughts to you and your family.

[mindfulNJ]

101. So so sorry

It sounds like he had a very loving brother and family...so very sorry for your loss.

[madrchsod]

102. he will always be with you...

[crim son]

103. This breaks my heart.

Please accept my condolences, and my anger that anybody or any family should have to suffer such a loss because our healthcare system is seriously broken.

[Vidar]

104. My condolences for you loss.

[sarge43]

105. Condolences Kolesar

May your brother stand in the light and find peace.

May you and your family have strength and comfort.

[Gore1FL]

106. I am so sorry for your loss n/t

[fun n serious]

107. Nothing I can say..

willl make you feel better but I'm here to listen and support you emotionaly in this rough time.

[MannyGoldstein]

108. My heart is with you

Peace to all.

[JohnnyLib2]

109. My deepest sympathy

[Smilo]

110. Please accept my condolences

May time bring you peace and good memories.

I thought this poem by Nancy Byrd Turner may bring you a little peace now.

Death Is A Door
- Nancy Byrd Turner

Death is only an old door
Set in a garden wall
On gentle hinges it gives, at dusk
When the thrushes call.

Along the lintel are green leaves
Beyond the light lies still;
Very willing and weary feet
Go over that sill.

There is nothing to trouble any heart;
Nothing to hurt at all.
Death is only a quiet door.
In an old wall.

[LaydeeBug]

111. I am so sorry. There are no words. nt

[Mz Pip]

112. I am so very sorry

My thoughts are with you and your family.

[broadcaster75201]

113. So very very sorry. n/t

nt

[riderinthestorm]

114. Oh Kolesar, I am so, so sorry.

And ANGRY!!!!

" There was no money in the budget for good medicine." This should NEVER be happening, EVER!

[Aeroette]

115. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[magical thyme]

116. My condolences to you and your family on your loss

May your little brother rest in peace.

[KT2000]

117. I am so sorry

Peace to you and your family.

[chknltl]

118. .

.









.
My moment of silence for your brother. I lost my little brother when he was only 18 at the peak of health. That was over a quarter century ago. We still miss him.

[appleannie1]

119. He was like my son "special" and therefore held a special place in your heart. My heart goes

out to you and your mom.

[FailureToCommunicate]

120. Sounds like your brother fought bravely against rotten odds. May you have

the strength to continue to 'be there' for your mom.

I lost my younger brother to pancreatic cancer a few years ago... It was tough on all the other brothers, but our mother took it the hardest, of course.

I am so sorry for your loss, Kolesar

[mopinko]

121. oh, i am so sorry. grief mixed with anger is so hard to overcome.

hoping your family finds their way to peace.

[onecent]

122. My thoughts are with you and your family. You are correct,

there are so many people in DU that care....

It infuriates me that because of our inferior medical system and because of our greed of the
rich that your brother was not able to get appropriate care.

I am a senior citizen, almost 70, and hope I live to see a huge improvement in our medical situation. I don't
expect it, but I still dream for it.

May God Bless you and see you through this difficult time.

[slackmaster]

123. That's terrible Kolesar. I am sorry for your loss.

[xxqqqzme]

124. DU is an amazing family

during trying times. Thank you for allowing us to share some of your grief. I am so sorry to hear of your brother's passing. Your mother gets an extra hug from me.

[Greybnk48]

125. My heartfelt condolences, Kolesar.

I'm sorry for your loss.

[PA Democrat]

126. I'm so sorry for your loss, Kolesar.

I wish our country placed a higher priority on helping people like your brother.

[azurnoir]

127. my condolences for your loss

may your little brother find peace and happiness

[japple]

128. May the Universe bring you peace and comfort in this time of sorrow.

[maddiemom]

129. Sincerely sorry. Hope your sharing helps, along with the support of others.

[WilliamPitt]

130. (((hug)))

[sdfernando]

131. So deeply sorry for your loss

I can't even imagine what you and your family are going thru but know that people here on DU care!

Universal Health Care NOW!

[nadinbrzezinski]

132. hugs and may you and your mother know peace

[B Calm]

133. It has to be vary hard on your mother. Parents are

suppose to die before the kids. My condolences to you and your family!

[Bossy Monkey]

134. So very sorry. All sympathies to you and all your family, especially your mom n/t

[abelenkpe]

135. I am so sorry for your loss

[AnneD]

136. Sad to hear...

as someone in the health care field I can say this is not uncommon and a sorry way to run healthcare. The AHCA is not and never was enough. We need universal care. PERIOD. End of story.

[Rider3]

137. My condolences

I hope you and your family can find peace in this hard time. We need a national healthcare system that is NOT for profit and takes care of all citizens.

[blm]

138. (( ))

.

[intheozone]

139. Very sorry to hear of your loss. People at DU do care. nt

[classof56]

140. Such a tragedy, and a pain that from my experience never really heals.

Take care, stay strong and blessings to you and your family.

[NotThisTime]

141. I'm so sorry for your loss and for what your entire family has had to go through. We all matter to

somebody, every one of us.

[brer cat]

142. May he pass in peace to a better place

where his pain and suffering will be over. My deepest sympathy for your loss.

[Bluerthanblue]

143. I'm so very sorry..

.... wishing you comfort and peace.

blu

[Sophiegirl]

144. Join me in a moment of silence for a clearly loved individual.

. . .

[bluesbassman]

145. Sorry for your loss Kolesar.

Peace and comfort to you and your family.

[rurallib]

146. Our sincerest condolences

let us hope that that those who were fortunate enough to have met him learned from his example.

[bananas]

147. Sorry (((hugs))) nt

[progressivebydesign]

148. My sympathies are with you and your family. I'm so sorry.. n/t

[ileus]

149. Sorry for your loss.

[pacalo]

150. My heart aches for your loss.

Especially for your mother. I'm familiar with the helpless feeling toward the circumstances you described that your mother surely must have experienced throughout your brother's difficult life. Give her a hug for me.

I hope there's a special place in heaven for your brother, where he will find eternal joy & peace.

[AzSweet]

151. There really are no words..

except I'm so sorry, and my thoughts are with you and yours.....

[Digit]

152. I am sorry to hear of your loss

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

[we can do it]

153. So sorry for your loss

[clydefrand]

154. I am so sorry for you and our family.

This is a sad day for you and for all of us.

[Jack Rabbit]

155. ()

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[intaglio]

156. May his memory drive you and others to greater things n/t

[yardwork]

157. I am so sorry for your loss.

And I am angry that our healthcare system is such as it is. Too many gone.

[DrewFlorida]

158. RIP little brother, sincere sympathy to you and your loved ones!

[StarryNite]

159. So very sorry for your loss.

[tosh]

160. I'm so, so sorry for your loss (( ))

[virgdem]

161. My deepest sympathy to you for your loss...

n/t

[JitterbugPerfume]

162. I am so very sorry

[Skittles]

163. so, so sorry Kolesar

[klook]

164. Little Angel, Little Brother

I'm really sorry to hear about this. When I read your post I thought of this beautiful song by Lucinda Williams (probably not at all similar to your brother's situation, but the vibe of the song reminds me of how you might be feeling):

Little Angel, Little Brother
Lucinda Williams

Your R & B records, your music books
Your sense of humor and your rugged good looks
I see you now at the piano
Your back a slow curve
Playing Ray Charles and Fats Domino
While I sang all the words
Little angel, little brother

Your bad habits and your attitude
Your restless ways and your solitude
I see you leaning your lanky frame
Just inside the door
A figure behind the kitchen screen
Staring down at the floor
Little angel, little brother

(SOLO)

Little angel little brother
Your passion for Shakespeare and your paperbacks
Your chess pieces and your wisecracks
I see you sleeping in the car
Curled up on the back seat
Parked outside of a bar
An empty bottle at your feet
Little angel, little brother

Your R & B records your music books
Your sense of humor and your rugged good looks
I see you now at the piano
Your back a slow curve
Playing Ray Charles and Fats Domino
While I sang all the words
Little angel, little brother
Little angel, little brother of mine

Peace to you and your Mom.

[rock]

165. So sorry for your loss

My condolences.

[calimary]

166. Oh No!

I'm so sorry to hear this. As a mom, this has got to be the most horrible thing to go through - having to bury one of your children. Your kids are supposed to bury YOU. NOT the other way around.

My heart is with her - and with you.

Thank you for sharing this difficult moment. When my mom died six years ago, I posted about it, kinda half-heartedly. It was late at night and I couldn't sleep and I just posted a one-liner about it. I was met with an almost instant DELUGE of compassion and sympathy and condolence. I couldn't believe it. It was BEYOND touching and comforting. It meant more than I can even say, and I've maybe met two DUers in my whole life, and I barely know most of the others - mainly from their posts and our internet conversations. STILL meant more than I'll ever be able to articulate. Made me cry more than even her passing did. Hers was expected, though. She'd been going steadily downhill for months, sick for years, just made it to her 90th birthday, she'd had a full, active life, and we knew it was coming. And it was still kinda rough even with all the cliches - "at least she isn't in pain anymore," "she's in a better place," "but she had a great life," and so forth.

This, with your family, I can only imagine, is SO MUCH tougher.

Not gonna offer cliches. I don't know if they even help - except for the intention of the giver. Just know we're here, we empathize, you're not alone, we will share your pain and we will buoy you up. Many shoulders will make the burden a tiny bit easier to bear.

[Granny M]

167. So sorry for your loss. My sympathy to you and the family. nt

[TBF]

168. I'm so sorry.

I won't stop fighting until we have Medicare for all. Your brother (and family) went through so much - at the very least he should have been able to have the medical care and medicine he needed.

[xchrom]

169. may Peace be with you and your family at this very difficult time. nt

[FedUpWithIt All]

170. I'm so sorry Kolesar. My deepest sympathies to your family.

My heart hurts for you all.

[emilyg]

171. My heart goes out to

you and your family.

[Spitfire of ATJ]

172. I'm so sorry to hear this.

These days it seems we are losing people to legal drugs more than from street drugs but the difference is we are being told we have no choice but to become addicts. The deaths seem to come suddenly and with little or no warning.

I'm one of the few people I know who's not on ANYTHING.

[DearHeart]

173. I'm so sorry for the loss of your brother!

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

[olegramps]

174. My deepest sympathy for your loss.

[silverweb]

175. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

[font color="navy" face="Verdana"]There are no words that are enough. No one should have to struggle through life without good health care. My thoughts are with you and your family, especially your mother.

[reflection]

176. .

[Raksha]

177. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[patrice]

178. Everything is far and long gone by . . .

Everything is far
and long gone by.
I think that the star
glittering above me
has been dead for a million years.
I think there were tears
in the car I heard pass
and something terrible was said.
A clock has stopped striking in the house
across the road . . .
When did it start? . . .
I would like to step out of my heart
and go walking beneath the enormous sky.
I would like to pray.
And surely of all the stars that perished
long ago,
one still exists.
I think that I know
which one it is -
which one, at the end of its
beam in the sky,
stands like a white city . . .

Lament - by R.M. Rilke

Please accept my good wishes, Kolesar, and offer my support to your mother.

[blueamy66]

179. So sorry for your loss.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Amy

[JRLeft]

180. Sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine what it feels like to lose a sibling.

[davidwparker]

181. Sorry for your loss. RIP.

[a kennedy]

182. I'm so sorry.....

[Liberal_in_LA]

183. sorry for your loss

[CaliforniaPeggy]

184. Gone too soon.......I am so sorry, my dear Kolesar...

[NEOhiodemocrat]

185. So very sorry for your loss Kolesar

You and your family must be devastated.

[vlyons]

186. I'm very sorry that you lost your brother

I lost my brother 11 years ago, and I still have this odd sense that I want to pick up the phone and call him. Let's hope we can get this access to decent health care problem solved so that more people with medical problems can be treated with ongoing care. Ditto a better education system for all kids, not just rich kids.

[gademocrat7]

187. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

May your brother rest in peace.

[KBlagburn]

188. I am so sorry, I lost my only brother.....

several years ago. He was a year older than me and was always the protector. I truly lost a part of me and will never be whole again. I am truly grieving with you. My heart goes with you. But know this. His spirit will always be with you. I speak the truth.
I don't post a lot here but I was moved to respond to this post.

[bobburgster]

189. Ugh, so sorry to hear of your loss...

May you find strength
In the love of family
And in the warm embrace
Of friends.

[riverbendviewgal]

190. I am so sorry. I send a big hug to you

I lost my son and husband 18 months apart in 99 and 2001...they had cancer and were diagnosed 2 months from each other.

No matter how fast or slow and if you are prepared or not of losing the ones you love. You are never prepared and you will have a gaping hole for a long time. As the years go bye it gets smaller but a sound, a smell, a song , a picture , a memory will bring back the big gap...but it closes faster. Be with your family and share hugs and memories. Your brother will always with you. He left his footprints on your heart.

I find comfort with this poem. Perhaps you would too.

i am with you still
by angel_sukhs

I give you this , one thought to keep
I am with you still, I do not sleep

I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am a diamond glints on snow,
I am the sunlight on the ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain

When u awaken in the morning hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush…
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.

Do not think of me as gone
I am with you still
In each new dawn

[locks]

191. We will never forget

Our grieving lessens with the years but we never forget and are always thankful for the joy a child or sibling brought us. And we honor them by living and working to help all children have better lives.

[malaise]

192. You know there is nothing as painful as losing the

younger siblings.

Deepest sympathy to you and your family.

[heaven05]

193. condolences

may he be at peace

[freshwest]

194. Sorry, know this story well. RIP, glad he was in your loving home at the end.

[emsimon33]

195. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family

[Mac1949]

196. Sorry for your loss.

I never know what else to say at times like this. Wish I could come up with something more comforting.

[Mr. Sabbath]

197. God Bless

I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

[Paxman]

198. Sorry for your loss.

Condolences to your family.

[Solly Mack]

199. I'm so sorry.

[AverageJoe90]

200. Sorry about your bro, Kolesar.......nt ='(

[JDPriestly]

201. I'm so sorry. Flu-like symptoms. A call to urgent care might have helped.

But without proper insurance, you can't call urgent care.

[secondvariety]

202. Sorry for your loss..

Peace be with you.

[Heather MC]

203. My Condolences to you and your family

I know how hard it is to lose a brother! I hope he finds peace in death that he didn't have in life.

[OhioChick]

204. My condolences are with you and yours

[babylonsister]

205. Kolesar, my deepest condolences to you and

your family. That's really sad; just know we're sharing your grief, and I hope it helps even a little bit.

[WinkyDink]

206. You have my sincere sympathy, {{{Kolesar}}}. Peace.

[spanone]

207. that hurts. lost my little sister a few years back....age 46

[Bonhomme Richard]

208. I am sorry for your loss. n/t

[Phentex]

209. I'm so sorry...

I wish he could have had better care and you are right about the present health care system.

I'm so sorry for the pain you are going through.

[bobthedrummer]

210. Take time to grieve too, Kolesar, mindful of the imbalances here in the USA healthcare mess.

[graywarrior]

211. So, so sad.

My deepest condolences.

[aquart]

212. He was supposed to be there with you in your old age.

I'm so sorry he won't be there.

[michreject]

213. Sorry for your loss. nt

[ornotna]

214. My condolences to your family and you

So young. Sad.

[rDigital]

215. I'm very sorry to hear of your loss, K. It's never easy. Family is everything. nt

[FrenchieCat]

216. I'm sorry to hear about your little brother.....

as 51 is sooo young!

[mother earth]

217. Deepest sympathy to you and your mom, Kolesar. We need better, a whole lot better...

[sabrina 1]

218. This is so sad.

That poem made me cry. Hugs to your mom and to the rest of your family.

[Terra Alta]

219. I'm so sorry for you and your family.

[WillyT]

220. (((((((Kolesar And Family)))))))

Peace...

[senseandsensibility]

221. Heartbreaking.

Your eulogy of your brother is very moving, and I am so sorry for your loss.

[turtlerescue1]

222. There are no words...

[GoddessOfGuinness]

223. I'm so sorry...

...especially that he suffered so much during his too-short life.

[Still Blue in PDX]

224. I am so, so sorry.

My heart aches for you, him and the rest of your family.

[fascisthunter]

225. I'm sorry for your loss

[MissDeeds]

226. I'm so very sorry for your loss, Kolesar

I hope you and your family know there are many of us who are thinking of you today, and sending best wishes for strength and peace your way.

[magic59]

227. My deepest sympathies to you and yours

I hope that someday we can live in a country where all life is treated precious instead of just another commodity.
Life is cheap when you have a health care system dictated by profit.

[arthritisR_US]

228. I am so sorry for your loss...

The pain you must be in breaks my heart

[NashvilleLefty]

229. So, so sorry. Sending out good thoughts

and vibes to you and your family.

[Swede Atlanta]

230. Sincere condolences....

And we call ourselves "exceptional". Yes, exceptional if you have unlimited money but as a society we leave so many behind.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[wendylaroux]

231. So very sorry--We do care

We care about each and every person who has died from lack of health care. This is so wrong,so sad. Love to you and your family.

[montana_hazeleyes]

232. So very sorry. n/t

[DonRedwood]

233. Sending you good thoughts from the west coast.

[noiretextatique]

234. My deepest condolences, Kolesar

losing a sibling is difficult...i know from experience. losing a younger sibling is even more difficult...i know that from experience also. prayers to you and your family.

[NNN0LHI]

235. deepest condolences

[Flaxbee]

236. I'm so sorry, Kolestar.

I do care, and wish this had not happened. Peaceful passing to your brother, and hopefully some peace to you and your family and those who knew and loved your brother. for you and your mom.

[nmbluesky]

237. I'm so sorry your loss.

We are thinking about you.

[Historic NY]

238. My condolences to you and your family.

[Lifelong Protester]

239. I want to add my condolences

people here don't know you but DO care...

[JoyBugaloo]

240. So sorry for your loss...

[pkdu]

241. Thoughts and prayers Kolesar... And make sure there is an autopsy to address your suspicions nt

[Nevilledog]

242. I'm so sorry.

Peace for you and your family.

[PAMod]

243. My heartfelt condolences to you and your mother, Kolesar.

[Raine]

244. I'm so sorry

much sympathy to you, your family and all who loved him.

[Alduin]

245. My condolences, Kolesar.

[applegrove]

246. So sorry.

[Honeycombe8]

247. Add me to the crowd of the sorrowful for your loss. Hopefully, there will be another meeting.

Some don't believe that. I don't know. But who says it isn't so? It has given me comfort.

[samsingh]

248. sorry for your loss.

[eqfan592]

249. My condolences. (nt)

[geckosfeet]

250. I'm sorry for your loss.

[liberallibral]

251. Very sorry for your loss.....

[gateley]

252. I am so very sorry

I will hold you and him in my heart.

[mia]

253. RIP Little Brother

May all of you feel the warm wishes expressed here.

[Bigredhunk]

254. We Care

We're all with you.

[progressoid]

255. I lost my big brother at that age.

Still too young.

It's hard enough on a sibling but no parent should have to endure that.

[DeSwiss]

256. I am sorry for your loss.....

...but know that energy can never be destroyed, only transmuted. And it always seeks to return to The Source.

[imanamerican63]

257. My prayers for your family.

May your family find the strength to overcome grieve and heal in time.

[sueh]

258. I'm so sorry. (((hugs))

[midnight]

260. I suspect your more right about a drug reaction than you probably can guess... So sorry that our

health care is for profit and not for healing... Some day we will wake up and demand it...

[donheld]

261. Words fail.

[crunch60]

262. My condolences, my prayers are with you and your family for the loss of your brother,

may he rest in peace.

[lonestarnot]

263. I'm sorry for your loss and wish this world had been better to your brother.

[spin]

264. A tragic loss. My heart goes out to your and your family. (n/t)

[JI7]

265. i'm so sorry

i will think of your brother tonight . and hopefully in the future we will have a system that will help others like him .

[Democat]

266. Sorry for your loss

He is in my thoughts.

[Silver Gaia]

267. Kolesar, I am so sorry.

I lost my own younger brother in a very similar way in 2006. He was just 49. I know this pain, too. My heart goes out to you.

[Ken Burch]

268. So sorry this has happened.

When the healthcare system puts profits before health, things like this will keep happening...and people like your brother will continue to be taken from this world too early.

It is your loss. It is OUR loss. Know that people stand with you in your grief and your rage.

Please tell your mother we're thinking of her as well.

[area51]

269. I'm so sorry.

[datadiva]

270. So sorry for your loss.

This is why we need Obama and Obamacare.

[TorchTheWitch]

271. I'm so very sorry

[Ghost Dog]

272. Social Phobia/Social Anxiety

http://www.socialphobia.org/
http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/

How can other people be so insensitive?

Deep sympathy, Kolesar.

[era veteran]

273. We are so sad for your loss

[qanda]

274. So sorry for your loss

Saying a prayer for you today.

[rondorajon520]

275. Spam deleted by tkmorris (MIR Team)

[Kolesar]

282. I have found that talking it out with somebody usually helps with depression

Talk to your family members. You could reveal some insight that will put you at ease going forward. Part of grief is trying to figure out where the wrongness was. You can do that in a measured way without it becoming an obsession. I wish I could find a more nuanced word than obsession, but I know what it is like to feel haunted by a harm.

Thank you for sharing this. I have to get on with some things. Hang in there.

[PotatoChip]

288. I am so sorry for your loss as well.

I can't imagine the pain both you and the OP must be in.

Fwiw, you both might benefit by checking out DU's Bereavement Group. I've never posted there myself, but have read some of the posts in that forum. It seems like a very supportive place for people going through what must be some unbearable grief. Hopefully you may find some comfort there.

Here is a link in case you are interested: http://www.democraticunderground.com/?com=forum&id=1234

Btw- Welcome to DU. And again, I am so sorry... I wish I knew what else to say...

[Ilsa]

276. I am very sorry for your loss.

I feel so sad for you and your family.

[Mutt22]

277. I am so sorry for your loss

and my sincere condolences go out to you and your family.

[Lilyeye]

278. My condolences to you and to your family and may your brother RIP.

[DainBramaged]

279. .......

[Kolesar]

280. Great Spirit, Maker of All Life--let's hear from James Fenimore Cooper

...the grand American author. These lines were delivered excellently by Russel Means in Michael Mann's remake 20 years ago.

Great Spirit, Maker of All Life. A warrior goes to you swift and straight as an arrow shot into the sun. Welcome him and let him take his place at the council fire of my people. He is Uncas, my son. Tell them to be patient and ask death for speed; for they are all there but one - I, Chingachgook - Last of the Mohicans.

I don't know if that is Cooper, verbatim, but it's my favorite line in the film. Last of the Mohicans was one of the first dates for me and my lovely wife.

If you are ever in Pittsburgh, PA, visit the Heinz History Center for an excellent account of the that period when the conflict on our frontier led to a world war on the European continent. http://www.heinzhistorycenter.org/

We don't yet have the autopsy report, but I wanted to share that prose. My mother is yet in a stunned state. I lost another brother four years ago in October. He was the one who filled up the campus newspaper with anti-Bush rants. You would have loved him. I have another brother who has been permanently disabled for 25 years due to a car accident. We are a crushed tribe.

Thanks for your warm wishes and advice, everybody. I read every post and took solace. There is wisdom here. Peace, and work for social justice.

[VenusRising]

281. I'm so sorry for your loss.

I hope the love and good times you shared carry you through this difficult time.

[sellitman]

283. Hugs

May your memories of the good times with your brother burn bright forever.

[sonias]

284. My condolences Kolesar

My condolences to your whole family. May your brother rest in peace.

[oliverrams1]

285. I am so sorry

I will pray for the healing of hearts for you and your family.

[tavalon]

286. I'm so sorry for you and your family

That is just so sad and wrong.

[GigiMommy]

287. My heart goes out to you and your family.

My deepest sympathies to your Mother, you and your family. I'm so so sorry.