Checking in. How is everybody doing?

[RandySF]

The anxiety is gone but, damn, it's a grind. I want to eat out. I want to go see a movie. Heck, I want to go to the office. I know it's all trivial next to the mortal threat facing all of us, but I want my old life back!

[brewens]

1. I don't want mucha nothin' at all, but I will take another toke! :)

[Aristus]

2. Tired, but all right.

Another two COVID results today, one negative, one positive. The infected patient is asymptomatic and doing well. I hope it stays that way.

Looking forward to the weekend...

[Afromania]

3. I just want to go out without having to run decontamination protocols when I get home.

[sinkingfeeling]

4. Terrible. I've fallen into a deep depression, crying constantly.

It's not the Covid-19 isolation. It's losing my country and everything I spent 60+ years working for.

[Hermit-The-Prog]

12. I hear you, but we ain't done yet.

There are at least two generations who appear to be opening their eyes to the (until now, stealth) attacks on our systems. That momentum could be a juggernaut by November.

[SheltieLover]

24. This!👆

If the media will wake up & do its job. Not everyone has cable or internet.

[live love laugh]

23. I'm sorry.

[SheltieLover]

33. Yale is offering their popular "The Science of Well-Being" FREE

Here is the link:

https://www.coursera.org/learn/the-science-of-well-being?utm_source=gg&utm_medium=sem&utm_content=09-ScienceofWellBeing-US&campaignid=9728548210&adgroupid=99699672436&device=m&keyword=science%20of%20well%20being%20yale&matchtype=b&network=g&devicemodel=&adpostion=&creativeid=428321686708&hide_mobile_promo&gclid=Cj0KCQjwhtT1BRCiARIsAGlY51ItOk4kkBivY6CRQXngJfV7ZE9cwfo0SzsarK4ejJ7wUbkb4-oPU3saAvDsEALw_wcB

It is really great stuff!

Can you channel your saf, angry energy into a positive activity?

Just some thoughts...

[vercetti2021]

5. Pissed off randy

How about you?

[RandySF]

6. I feel tired all the time.

[vercetti2021]

10. That's for sure

Working inside of a store while every fucking dumbass sneezing into the air without covering. Yep tired alright

[I_UndergroundPanther]

22. I'm tired alot too

[bluestarone]

7. Doing ok here. BUT

GOD-DAMIT wish we would get just ONE fucking court victory that is FUCKING FINAL!! (NO more fucking appeals)

[SheltieLover]

29. I agree!

I think he has compromat on all of them. 🤬

[msongs]

8. not much changed here on a day to day basis, just less involvement nt

[Newest Reality]

9. For me...

The past is crystal clear since it is completely gone.

The future is always fresh, new and spontaneous; indeterminate potential.

The now is between two temporal concepts without beginning or end. All that is is what appears to be happening right now and then it vanishes. Now is not a place or time.

"You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometime, you just mind find, you get what you need." That's perfection, just as it is. The rest is just ideas, habits, associations, overlays that spread out over nothing and have no basis at all when carefully investigated. Like the inner dialog that ruminates in fear and scripts more suffering.

Freedom. Peace. This.

Row, row, row your boat, gently down the stream. Merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream. I woke up having dreamed I was a butterfly and then wondered if I was a butterfly dreaming it is a human.

Much ado about nothing.

[Siwsan]

11. The solitude is most definitely getting to me.

The novelty of 8 weeks with just Sophie Stinky Toes (my little tuxedo cat) for company is wearing really, really thin. I want to get together with my family and head to our local brewery where we can drink some good, local beer, chow down on some Flint City Tacos and listen to some great local musicians. Our favorite brewery has a big outdoor area with a firepit with plenty of room.

Then there's the help I need with this property. Most important, right now, is to get the garden tilled so I can start planting by Memorial Day. I want everyone to come by so I can boss them around, for a while, and then cook them a really, really spectacular meal.

Well, Sophie Stinky toes has let me know I need to shift the computer so she can sit on my lap and purr. She's a high maintenance moggy.

[LeftInTX]

21. Some pest control guy was soliticiting at my door today...

This is Texas and pest control is a thing, but really???

[Caliman73]

13. Same here. Going stir crazy. And also...

I have to go out because of my job. I have gone out sporadically, and have usually been able to resolve issues over the phone. Today was the first day in many weeks were I was out actually having to meet face to face with people. I had on my N95 Mask and gloves with my hand sanitizer etc... following all of the safety protocols. It was tough. I feel drained. I have to go back out on Monday and am a bit hesitant. I feel I have lost a step.

I also noticed that more people are out and about around here, and this is California, which has been one of the more strict Shelter in Place states. I would love to just resume "normal activities" just before the SIP order, we had started doing more family outings to fun places.

During the initial stages of the SIP, I developed some respiratory symptoms, but not any specific COVID-19 symptoms, because of my job and a high risk condition, I was able to get tested and came back negative. I was given medications for the symptoms and possible bacterial infection. It cleared, but it was stressful.

The thing that gets me most however, is that a major part of our governmental system is hopelessly corrupt and incompetent. If President Obama was still in office, or if Hillary Clinton had won in 2016, it is doubtful we would be in this situation, but even if the worst had happened and we were in a similar situation, we could at least rest assured that we had calm, competent, and compassionate leadership to guide us through.

[peacebuzzard]

14. I am overeating. and its not salad,

I crave the fatty, not very good for you, stuff.
I read, I write, do nerdy activities, I no longer travel for my job.
I have absolutely no desire to go anywhere and I do not miss the life that was before.
Except for the income, but I value health over the rona exposures.

[live love laugh]

25. Yeah I made fudge yesterday for the first time. Delicious but not what I need.

Oh well, YOLO.

[csziggy]

15. My husband and I are doing pretty good

He misses his Thursday bridge game and Wednesday D&D. I miss him being gone those nights! The days he has to take our friend to the doctor are a bit of a relief - and a life saver for the friend who had yet another heart attack last week and another bypass that saved him, again.

We really have not been able to isolate even though we do stay home, most of the time. We're nearing the completion of the addition to our house, so most weeks there are crews here working. This week was nice - good weather and no one here at all. Tomorrow people will be here to do some of the grading around the addition. Next week is icynene insulation, electrical and drywall, so back to lots of people in and out.

I can't wait until the construction is finished and we have the luxury of getting all our stuff out of storage, sorting through it all, and getting the house in order! That will keep me at home, while my husband and a helper haul stuff home. The helper is as cautious as we are - he is caretaker to a paraplegic so does not want to take the virus home to him.

[mercuryblues]

16. I'm getting stir crazy

Yesterday we ordered pizza (first time in 2 months) so we could go for a drive. We've been cooking so much we are sick of our own cooking. Usually we go to the bar order a pizza to go and have a beer while we're waiting.

[Kilgore]

17. Gorgeous weather in SW WA

Put the boat in the water yesterday and me and my sweetheart have been fishing and just relaxing. The plan for the weekend is to anchor at one of the islands on the lower Columbia and spend the night. Hopefully there will be some fish to grill😁

Our county has had a whopping three cases and really other than the barber and restaurant being closed, nothing much has changed.

[Initech]

18. Going extremely stir crazy but otherwise hanging in there.

[LeftInTX]

19. I'm like that too...it's a grind

I still have anxiety because I'm alone too much.

I miss going to the store...it's so weird ordering groceries online. I remember in November a friend of mine, served some tea and someone asked her where she got it and she said, "Amazon". I responded, "Well you can buy it at HEB". I don't like ordering groceries online. Now my friend is an old hat at this and it is second nature to her, and I struggle with it.

I certainly won't be ordering a watermelon curbside..I'm a master thumper- LOL Watermelons have been at the store since early April.

[Hekate]

20. Doing okay, as long as I don't think too deeply about either my country or my very adult kids...

There was a lovely column by Mary McNamara in the LA Times several days ago. She basically said she didn't want to hear from people who had virtuously cleaned out all their closets or finally finished War and Peace.

She and her family had retreated to books and movies they loved already, knew how they came out -- nothing dark and existential whatsover. She mentioned Harry Potter, all of it. She also mentioned that Umbridge is a fascist, a very true observation.

She made me feel better -- I myself am re-reading the 30 or so Discworld novels by Terry Pratchett, and yes, I know exactly how they turn out. At this point in our country's history, a world carried on the backs of 4 elephants riding thru space on the back of a turtle, makes more sense that the one I'm living in.

Tomorrow there's going to be an extended-family baby birthday party for the 1-year old. Cake and steaks. We are skipping it -- and that really sucks.

Stay safe and healthy, RandySF.

[pwb]

26. I put my wants aside. My needs are even hard to come by.

I won't be attending any of those things you mentioned. I will stay put for my family. I'm Alright. thanks RSF. Acquaintance losses are rising daily. Be well RSF.

[ChazII]

27. Today is a very depressing day.

I am missing my son but I am glad that he passed before this hell of a virus took over our lives. Yesterday day was okay it is the grief roller coaster that we all go through when we lose a loved one.

[Stuart G]

28. I am doing ok, but very tired. Tired of this unbelieveable fool who lies all the time.

I feel worn out.

[DFW]

30. The old life back....and it was just less than 12 weeks ago, too.......

Things started getting weird over here around the first week in March. My wife was in Israel, and almost couldn't get back. I was in Barcelona and almost couldn't get back. I'm usually in a different country every day, and I haven't left the borders of Germany since March 15th. It's almost forced retirement, and I hadn't planned on retiring for another 12 years.

Like you said, trivial compared to dying of this ugly bug, but a new reality that was forced on us, and it takes some real getting used to.

[tblue37]

31. Since I retired last year, this IS my old life. I am a natural recluse, but I have taught

college for 42 years, so I was constantly dealing with large numbers of people.

I am enjoying my time alone, reading all the time.

[smirkymonkey]

32. I'm pretty much fine, as long as I can get supplies and food delivered.

The only thing that bothers me is Trump and the republicans destroying this nation on a daily basis. That's pretty much the only thing I get upset about. I sometimes feel guilty about how lazy I have gotten, but that will pass eventually. It's just inertia.

[BigDemVoter]

34. Same here. I work in a hospital in San Francisco, but we are NOT busy, and we

have maybe 5 Covid patients in house which is nothing. I am so tired of this, and I get worried that we will all get complacent, especially with the lovely weather.

I agree with you 100% about wanting a life back. If I'm not at work, I'm at home, and it DOES start grinding on my nerves. I have been truly grouchy today, and I'm embarrassed, because i don't want to be ugly to anybody simply because I'm in a bad mood!

And there is the additional business that I'm being trivial when other people are really facing some awful things-- I have a job and I'm healthy, and none of my family members or friends are sick. Thank you, RandySF, for helping me to put things in perspective!

[marlakay]

35. We are treating to curbside

From great Italian restaurant in our area tonight.

I opened a bottle of Merlot to go with it.

We might eat outside it's a hot summer like day.

[Freddie]

36. Back to my retirement routine

After 7 weeks at home, I’m watching the grandkids again, son-in-law went back to work (construction), daughter WFH. I go to their house.
Kids have gotten some bad habits since no school. Can’t pry the 5 year old from his tablet. The 9 year old has ADHD and getting her to do online schoolwork is not fun. She’d be playing games on her phone all day too. The toddler changed a lot in 7 weeks - she’s a real kid now, not a baby anymore. But while keeping her amused and out of trouble, it’s too easy to let the big ones be on screens all day. Yesterday was gorgeous out, they rode their bikes for half an hour and came back in, right to their devices. I know their parents fall into the same habits with the kids. Last summer they went to a camp program, lots of field trips, 3 days a week. None of that now. Going to be a long summer.

[samplegirl]

37. Depressed

Insomnia, anxiety off and on. Lonely. Loss of motivation.
I thought today was Thursday instead of Friday.
Miss my friends, grandkids and family.
Miss just going to the grocery store.
Fear, worry and and tired of the news some days.

[mnhtnbb]

38. Yes, I want to eat out!

So sick of eating out of my freezer. There are plenty of restaurants open for take out or delivery near me, but I don't want to eat in my apartment!

I have been walking the dog 3 or 4 times a day through it all. So we do get outside for fresh air, which helps. Only do grocery store trips about every 2 weeks and I go very early in the morning to avoid being around many other people. Living on the 17 the floor of a high rise apartment building means riding the elevator any time I go out, so I don't go more than I have to, because riding the elevator feels a bit like playing Russian roulette.

As a result of this pandemic, I've decided to change my living situation. I've been happy in my downtown apartment, walking to the ballet, concerts, great restaurants. Even after things begin to open up, I'm not going to want to sit in a theatre until there is treatment for the coronavirus beyond supportive care. And I doubt that is going to happen within the next several years. So, I'm buying a house. Well, actually having a house built in an over 55 community. It won't be ready until December at the earliest, but in the meantime it gives me something to anticipate. I am already playing with design and decorating ideas. Going to nest. Have a small patio garden with a fountain.

So now I have to stay well so I can move into my new house at the end of the year.

[Ms. Toad]

39. Cranky that my c diff picked this time to come back.

Spent all day yesterday tending to GI cramps and waiting for the inevitable fever that shows up along with it. It did not disappoint. Now - if I'm lucky, s bouldiarii will crowd it back into the teeny corner it normally occupies.