I feel the pain of those of lost one who passed alone and their family's that are grieving because..
they were not able to be there...
last Sunday early morning, my beloved wife had a stroke. She has a history of Minigenome tumors in her brain and has battled them for 16 years... 2 operations, 1 radiation, and at present time, Gene therapy, so her life has been filled with many doctors and hospitals. Every time, she recovers and every time, the tumor returns. This battle has been brutal.
So, Sunday she had a stroke, went to the hospital, and found out she had a blood clot. They removed the most of the clot, but were unable to get it all....because of the stroke, her left side of her body will is paralyzed and she is now entering physical rehabilitation. With all the chaos of the last few days, We get her into a Rehabilitation hospital...on the first day, we are told that the hospital is restricting any visitors due to COVID-19, which means I can no longer see my wife and help her in her recovery as I have done for the last 16 years.
I felt hopeless....I cant help my wife in her time of need.....
Now I know how all these millions for my fellow Americans are feeling at this present moment as their love ones are being care for, yet we cant see them.... It is so heartbreaking. I feel their pain as if it was my own, because it is my pain too.
I know that the doctors and nurses are doing everything they can, the hero's this country can look up to as witnessed these last 4 days by me and their care for my wife... I know that even if I can't be there to help in my wife's recovery, these people will do what ever it takes to heal her.
For those grieving, I want you all to know that millions of us feel your pain deep down into our souls as we experience that very same pain you are. We are all here for each other, as we wonder through this nightmare of COVID.....And for the love of God...WEAR A MASK!
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We lost my mother to CoVid this morning. This day has felt light years long. What hurts most is that we couldn't be there. I can only send you hugs, and wish that there was more that I could say or do. Sending true best wishes for your wife's recovery.
I had a chance to see my mom before she passed (back in July) but only because a staff person mistakenly TOLD us we could visit, but only 2 per day. (It turns out she was allowed 2 visitors, but only the 2 that were on the visitors list--which was my dad and my sister.) When my other sister and I got there, they let us in anyway. (I think this was because the nursing home had been Covid-free for several weeks.)
My mom passed the day after I got to see her.
A blessing and a curse. I got to say good-bye, and to thank her for being such a great Mom. But every now and then I dream of her on her death bed (not a pleasant memory).
I wish for you nothing but good memories of you mom, and a path to peace in such a horrible situation.
Virtual hugs.
It is hard enough to lose a loved one. Losing that last bit precious time with them is the worst.
We couldn't be there to provide any support, comfort, or love while she passed. Thank you for caring.
You speak for so many who are currently having similar experiences and for those who will have to face this same thing in the future. I hope your wife gets to go home to you soon.
And I’m sorry for both you and your wife that you can’t be together in this trying time.
a stroke, let me first say - I am so sorry you are going through this confusing and hurtful event at such an awful time in our history. Your post tears my heart out. This is so very hard. Please, make sure you have some kind of support around you if possible, even if it is (because covid) just someone to talk to on the phone and share your worry and grief. You must take care of yourself in order to be ready to care for your wife when you can.
Now, let me offer you some hope. I always say, strokes are like snowflakes and fingerprints - they share basic forms, but they are all very unique to each individual. Before my mom had her stroke, she was still driving, shopping, going on trips with friends and enjoying a great retirement. Suddenly with the stoke, she was completely unable to speak, not even a word. She could not move any part of the right side of her body. She could not walk. She needed a feeding tube. That was the worst Christmas of my life, but you know what? With steady work, two years later she was walking again, eating regular food, enjoying dining out, talking and laughing with friends and shopping trips we took together. While she lived with me after the stroke, she was still very much independent.
Nurses and staff are doing everything we can to help fill the void we know our patients are suffering from not having their loved ones close. It hurts so much to see their loneliness and know that although we try, and we truly do care deeply for them, we can never bring the comfort of a loved one at the bedside.
You have my warmest thoughts and wishes for your wife, and for you. Please feel free to share with us again if it is helpful to you. This is a caring community. We're here for you.
I hope she will be ok and have a good recovery. I wonder if you are able to speak with her via phone or video etc.? I hope so. I hope you have a support system with others to help you in your time of need. One of my friends recently had a stroke in the middle of all of this as well. He was in the hospital and then rehab for a while and now back home, he lives alone. He is recovering well but he had to relearn some things like learning how to email again and things he had forgotten how to do. It was very hard for his family also who could not be with him mostly although they let his son and some other relatives visit with him, he is in CA so maybe that made the difference.
I hope you can video with her etc. 🙏🏻 For you and your wife
My condolences to everyone here who has lost or will lose a loved one this year. 
2020 can't end soon enough. 
