Tomorrow is my birthday-the first without my sister. I have been so melancholy today
I could not understand why I was in a funk and then realized it was because she didn't get to live to my birthday. She made it through her kids and our other siblings but not mine 
I am just incredibly sad
I miss her so much.
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May her memory be blessing to you. I bet she would want you to have a happy birthday. I hope you do. 
Losing someone you love is one of the worst experiences.
(been there)
And it's so recent for you.
Maybe not much comfort right now but her love for you on some level is never really gone. So she would celebrate you tommorow.
those times associated with happy memories and togetherness can be so tough after a loss, especially the first year. Please know that your DU family loves you and is here for you to lift you up and send you warmth and light when you feel sad.
⚘
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It's so soon too.
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She’s not gone when you remember her, love her, honor her.
Don’t be a slave to time. It’s a mirage, in some ways. We can’t move freely in it but the past still exists.
She finished writing her book of life. I think she left a copy of it in your heart.
Don’t be only sad about it. Be also proud, to carry her memory into 2021 and beyond.
What a beautiful message, and filled with profound truth, imo! 
My sister--only sibling--died in January. I think of her often. On my birthday in September, her birthday in June. The holidays (though truncated by the virus) will be another time to recall our childhood and family memories over the years.
It doesn't get easier. It just is, the absence, the ability to pick up the phone and call.
Wish I had an easy solution. But I don't, other than remembering the good times, the laughter, the connection that sisters have even across great distances and/or silly arguments.
We keep people alive in a sense by remembering them, loving them even when they're gone.
But it's hard for those of us left behind. It just is.
We keep the faith and keep on trekking forward. Because it's the only thing we can do.
Best to you!
I know I'll be thinking about her and I'll think of you too. 
You're in lots of people's thoughts, remember that when you're having those sad feelings
The first two years were the worst. Firsts of everything,
Happy Birthday even if you feel sad...
