Ill be asleep soon

[kozar]

Sang my songs,was easy. Spent way too many hours, on ,a DU post.

.koz

[TommyT139]

1. Kinda early - you ok?

[kozar]

2. Kinda late,, once again

We ,tend to assume, I haven't slept, since ,Tuesday, and, no,I'm not ok,

Koz

[TommyT139]

3. That's why

That's why I checked. My partner is diabetic, and I read you are too. Do you need to eat something and check your levels before lying down?

Not trying to be in your business, just being neighborly.

[kozar]

4. I had gastric bypass, im not diabetic

There is a huge difference,, I chose, to have my body cut..
I've been dead twice, since then. Yeah, I look good at 220 lbs

DU is watching me ,die
I still hate ,the F word,, I'm ok ok

[Maraya1969]

5. I'm really sorry you are having a hard time.

I remember my mom saying she hated getting old because all her friends were dying. Now I am in the same spot. All of my immediate family has died and most cousins etc. And then my dog, Peanut died about 3 weeks ago and today a friend came over and suggested I put my other dog, "Paco" down because she said he looks like he is in pain. He is 18 and has severe arthritis. I remember years ago a couple people saying that about a dog, Rusty, that I had and then I put him to sleep and felt guilty for keeping him alive for too long.

Anyway, life is loss. But it is also gain. We've just met here right?

I remember my brother got kind of "Oh well" when he was close to death". He had suffered for a long time. I think it is all just a process.

We are all here for you

[malaise]

8. Damn

[kozar]

9. My first dog,

Was a Dal, named Peanut, we lived in Manchester, Tn.
She, was and escape artist. I'd put her out to pee, and I would get a call, from the barber, behind me, or the Sonic, across the highway, and they said, " peanut is here, we fed her" I still miss her.

Koz

[Maraya1969]

11. It's great when they all get to know them right? I used to walk around with Paco, not on a leash and see

him just go into other people's garages and, if the door was open, their houses. No one ever complained about him

[TommyT139]

6. Apologies

Sorry for misremembering previous posts.

I saw that thread. It's tough to share space - and overall goals - when we come from so many different places. Some of us have no place else to safely curse out those individuals and groups bringing such chaos and despair to our lives. Maybe that's part of it.

Sleep well.

[malaise]

7. Have a good sleep

[kozar]

10. I sleep, on a weird schedule

When , I worked, it was night shift work. Yes, I get tired, but, I fall asleep, when I fall asleep.

No, I'm not in the spot, I would like to be in, at this point of my life. I've lived, too much death. I would love to see LilBit, again.
So sleep, when in tired, when I sleep, I dream ,about her.

Koz

[kozar]

12. Just woke,

I was called about 3 hours ago, from VA , wanting to move me to a Vet home, " you've been under some stress, with your wife and daughter passig"
I said, I own no weapons, your job is to help me, but if you try to take me, out of my home, it's gonna be a helluva fight.