I'm sorry that I have to keep asking you all for help,
September is fast approaching and so I am posting my GoFundMe link again and humbly asking for your donation or loan. (DUmail me please if you would like to discuss a loan.)
https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-john-mckusick-overcome-health-and-financial-struggles
Just as a reminder, I am in the midst of waiting for SSDI to wind its way through to determining me disabled, and that process is a torture of sorts that I've never before experienced. We as applicants don't seem to exist except on paper, as there is zero seeming concern as to the time it takes, God forbid any concern as to our conditions worsening unless it is a short term terminal diagnosis. In other words, if we expect you to die soon, we will expedite your application. However, if this is more chronic and worsening over extended time, your economic condition means noting and we will take our sweet time. (2 years at the end of this month and counting,) I have filled out and submitted paperwork to Senator Durbins' office to see if they can help expedite the process. I haven't heard back yet.
My expenses including rent, utilities, phone, internet etc... add up to about $1200 per month. I have made it a point not to ask for any donations once the following month has been taken care of as I am painfully aware of how much these requests suck to read and suck to write.
Updating you on my heart and back, my heart seems fine, I don't have any symptoms with my heart or lungs, my next appt. with my heart Dr. is at the end of this month. As for my back, it is as bad as it has been pain wise. I have just started PT again, which Medicaid is requiring for 6 weeks before they will approve a new MRI. I am having to lay down multiple times a day to relieve the pain that most activities only exacerbate.
While there isn't much positive within this post, please let me close with a healthy dose:
You have, with your generosity, allowed me to stay under this wonderful roof that is my home for eight months that I couldn't have otherwise have managed. You have allowed me to stay connected to you, to have a phone to use, and to keep reasonably warm this winter, and cool this summer. I have been able to cook meals, to keep milk cold, frozen food frozen, and canned food safe because of you.
You have, with your generosity, have allowed my clothes to stay clean, Petunia and Cuddles to stay fed and healthy, and most importantly to my mental health, given me a platform with which to be grateful, positive, and I dare say inspired every morning for sure, and other times of day as well.
You are my family, as the support you have shown in so many ways, has exceeded any that my blood family has offered in my entire lifetime.
Thank you, my wonderful DU family for all the support you continue to offer. That I am in such a decent spiritual place is due in no small part to you, an emotional rock, not just to me, but to so many.
Love, John
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I really appreciate it 
For all the torture 
and all the support that you offer so freely and lovingly.
It means the world to me.
I'm glad to be here for you.
CaliforniaPeggy, but it described what I'm feeling right at this moment thanks to you and so many others.
I feel loved
I'm really grateful that you take that outlook.
Your kindness and that of so many others, in word and deed makes asking less of a shameful experience.
Good luck.
OS
The only thing that seems to outweigh your insatiable work ethic is your kindness.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I will send a personalized thank you throughGFM.
I will try to add a bit over the weekend, John..
Reiki on the way to your gofundme.
Your donation is making it possible for me to stay in this wonderful place I call home.
I'm not sure there's anything I could be more thankful for than that, maybe my health.
Thank you