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I don't write often about her. I probably should but I find it difficult to do so without sounding like a broken record as many here already know the story. For those who don't:
On June 8, 1964, my mother, 28 year old Gerri Santoro, checked into a motel room and with the help of her boyfriend attempted to induce her own abortion using a borrowed textbook and some surgical instruments. When she began to hemorrhage the "boyfriend" fled the scene leaving her alone and critically wounded.
Once abandoned the only call my mom made was to her sister who was not home. Because abortion was a crime in 1964 she did not call for an ambulance, a doctor, or seek medical help at a hospital emergency room. She just died - curled up on the floor of a filthy motel room; bloody, naked and alone.
Having kept her pregnancy a secret it's impossible to know when or where she had looked for other means of terminating her pregnancy before that desperate night. What I do know is she had tried to get an abortion inducing substance, Ergot, but failed.
10 years after my mother's death, before I was even old enough to be told the truth about how she had died, a graphic crime scene photo of her dead body was published, without consent, in Ms. Magazine. This may be the more painful part of the story for me. An image no family should ever see of a loved one was made public for all. And from that she became the poster child for the pro-choice movement - a movement I fully support, by the way. But. If only they had asked to to use the horrifying image. If only they had asked for our family's consent. I can't say what my answer would have been had I been of age. If the power of the picture has helped just one woman it could well have been worth it. But when I read about women like Purvi Patel I have to ask myself, for all the pain it has caused my family, what good did it really do?
In case you're not familiar with Purvi Patel, in February, 2015, 33 year old Purvi Patel was convicted of felony child neglect and feticide for attempting to induce her own abortion.
Like my mother, Purvi had been hiding her pregnancy. She says she went into premature labor at home and delivered a dead fetus. Being 2013 at the time, post Roe v Wade and 49 years after my mother's death, Purvi, bleeding heavily and probably frightened for her life hid the dead fetus and went to the local emergency room for life saving medical care.
It is reported that Purvi may have purchased, or like my mother, tried to purchase, abortion inducing drugs from the internet prior to her miscarriage. Toxicologists did not find even a trace of such drugs in her body or that of the fetus.
My mother did not seek medical help because she was afraid of the criminal charges - and she she paid the ultimate price. 49 years later Purvi Patel did what my mother couldn't - seek medical care. She didn't die like my mom. Instead she was sentenced to twenty years in prison for attempting to induce her own abortion - the thing my mother feared.
I want to honor my mother's memory - the smiling young woman in my sigline. I want to tell her that the death image she is known for was worth it. I don't know if I can. Something is wrong. Very wrong. I don't know how to make it better but I know we must. I am willing to fight for our rights until the day I die. Just tell me how.
irisblue
(32,980 posts)Control-Z
(15,682 posts)But women all over the US seem to once again be suffering with new, dangerous, restrictions and obstacles popping up every week. It's infuriating. All of this was supposed be behind us.
ucrdem
(15,512 posts)Thank you.
Control-Z
(15,682 posts)from it all - just like any history. But it seems we're going to repeat the mistakes of our past before we learn again the hard way.
renate
(13,776 posts)It was, obviously, memorable. I am reluctant to say this because I don't want to cause you any pain--except that I say it with the utmost, utmost, utmost respect and with profound grief for what she endured--but I can still see the picture you're referring to, in my mind's eye. The only reason I'm telling you that I can still see that picture is that I also want to say that I saw more than that. She was once a girl, then a young woman, then your mother, then someone beloved and mourned. She was and is missed.
I think what Ms. magazine did was wrong. I grew up reading that magazine and I remember it fondly, but the decision to publish that picture without consulting your family was absolutely wrong. Unconscionable. A betrayal.
I know your mother didn't mean to become a poster child for the cause, but the fact that she was so brave in dealing with an impossible situation is staggering. I am so impressed by her courage; I would not have had it. And I am impressed by your courage in talking about it despite the pain it causes you.
What she endured may not have helped Purvi Patel, but she has helped, I would say almost certainly, millions of women. She made a difference that few people ever do.
And, entirely separately from the topic at hand, I am truly sorry for your personal loss. She wasn't just a symbol... she was your mom. And she is not forgotten.
Warren DeMontague
(80,708 posts)It is a powerful reminder of why we need to protect reproductive choice, as I'm sure you're aware.
Thank you for persevering in her memory.
sheshe2
(83,785 posts)I went to the link. I was going to post it, then saw the image and cried.
Tears for you and your mom.
Starry Messenger
(32,342 posts)boston bean
(36,221 posts)It is a stark reminder of the consequences when women have no choice.
People don't get the history, they weren't born or don't remember, they haven't lived the history.
However, we will all live it again if things keep on the way they are.
Because of posts like yours maybe someone's eyes will be opened to the dangers we face when womens choice is taken away.
TBF
(32,062 posts)we will continue to fight. Thank you for telling your story again. I can imagine how painful it is to bring it up, but I know you reach new readers (and potential advocates) each time.
Violet_Crumble
(35,961 posts)I didn't know the picture was used without asking yr family. They should have...
To honour yr mum I guess all everyone should do is keep on fighting and standing up to the anti-choice wankers who falsely claim they care about women. It's up to all of us to make sure that what happened to yr mum doesn't happen to other women and if abortion were to become illegal in the US, more women will die...
PeaceNikki
(27,985 posts)I carry it with me every single day as a reminder of the importance of safe and accessible abortions.
Peace and comfort to you today and always.
Brickbat
(19,339 posts)beam me up scottie
(57,349 posts)Thank you for using your painful personal experience to raise awareness.
brer cat
(24,570 posts)and I appreciate that you are willing to continue opening the wound in order to share it. Many of us have talked the talk, but your mother walked the walk, and paid with her life. She is the why we fight, and must continue fighting until our last breath.
I believe that Ms Magazine was totally wrong, and incalculably cruel to you and your family. But you are honoring your mother's memory by replacing the horrific image with the face of the smiling young woman, and fighting on.
I cannot begin to feel your pain, but I care deeply.
Solly Mack
(90,769 posts)Suich
(10,642 posts)etherealtruth
(22,165 posts)My heart breaks for her, for you and for all women and the people they love that have gone through this.
polly7
(20,582 posts)So powerful and heartbreaking.
For your dear Mom.
All my best to you, Control-Z.
Avalux
(35,015 posts)I can't begin to imagine what you've gone through and I am so very sorry about your mother.
Just today, there was a court ruling that will shut down about 2/3rds of the remaining abortion clinics in Texas. Years ago, I had an abortion here and was fortunate enough to receive the care I needed. There was a time when an abortion was easily accessible, but we are going backwards now thanks to fundie state laws.
riderinthestorm
(23,272 posts)(((Control Z)))
You are a powerful voice. Your mother would be so proud of you.
Skittles
(153,164 posts)I think you honor your mum in a very deeply personal and poignant way when you tell her story